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#41 Nextoctober

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Posted 02 October 2019 - 08:12 AM

127 today :(
Almost 16 months.
That’s over twenty pounds from my lowest and that sucks
Each morning I try to fast and each day I try and restrict them at work all my care goes out the window
I have a doctors appointment too tomorrow fuck

 

If it helps, I've gained the same amount in the last few months and I'm not pregnant.. just trying to recover!



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Posted 02 October 2019 - 08:50 AM

If it helps, I've gained the same amount in the last few months and I'm not pregnant.. just trying to recover!


That does help, because i suppose I’m trying to recover somewhat as well.

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Posted 02 October 2019 - 08:50 AM

16 weeks 18 lbs gained :/
128 today
Yesterday I tried to restrict so hard but then I came home from work and snacked it all back. I did loose from yesterday but meh only .6

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Posted 02 October 2019 - 02:08 PM

Doctor still isn’t concerned w my weight gain and my husband isn’t either
130 doesn’t sound super bad but it’s creeping to 140 which does sound bad. I want to loose weight. At least 5 pounds. I’m going to try the healthy way?? Eat 1500 cals a day? We’ll see. I’m not really know was a woman of my word these days. I already probably had that many calories in my own meal I had after the doctors, and I know I’m gonna want to eat later. Fuck I could eat now. All my bras hurt to wear, my boobs are growing faster than my stomach, probably at the same rate of my thighs. I need to loose weight. I want to be at 140 when I give birth? Idk

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Posted 03 October 2019 - 09:09 AM

127.2 yes a drop finally

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Posted 03 October 2019 - 10:54 AM

126.4 wtf

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Posted 03 October 2019 - 02:42 PM

Hey lovely,

 

I 110% get the horribleness of gaining. I'm there myself and really fighting the temptation to restrict restrict restrict. You said you are trying to recover too.. do you have any support at all? 



#48 MissySkinny

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Posted 03 October 2019 - 03:23 PM

Any new updates on how you are doing Mama???


HW 183

CW 129.9

GW 95

LW 95

 

Height 4'11

 

 

Where's my collarbone?


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Posted 03 October 2019 - 03:23 PM

never mind... i found them :wacko:


HW 183

CW 129.9

GW 95

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Height 4'11

 

 

Where's my collarbone?


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Posted 03 October 2019 - 03:43 PM

Have you been thinking of potential names?


HW 183

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GW 95

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Height 4'11

 

 

Where's my collarbone?


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Posted 04 October 2019 - 11:32 PM

Scale gets 1 pound higher each time I look
129.8 this morning
Goal is to at least get to 125 by Halloween
Managed to stay under 1,000 cals today somehow.
Still going to bed w a very bloated stomach cus I just more than half the days calories in one go in various forms
Gonna try to not weigh tomorrow
Pray I don’t binge at work, I’ll get a bag of carrots and melon to snack on

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Posted 05 October 2019 - 08:43 AM

127.6

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Posted 05 October 2019 - 10:15 PM

I binged as per usual when I go to work.
I was already around 400 before 2pm
Then at work I had some icing
2 huge cookies about 600
Then on my breaks I had a salad and 1 egg so 2 eggs total and the salad bits 200
Then 2 small cookies 130
And at that point I was like fucj it so I had some bread some scone some donut...I’m gonna guess around 2300 which according to my Fitbit is what I burned. I purged on my ten minute walk gone from work and for what. I won’t loose. It stinks. I got right in the shower and it still stinks.
I feel so guilty but not guilty enough to stop thinking about loosing weight.
My thighs rub together now, even though shockling according to my scale my body fat is in a healthy range but I have an ingrown hair on my thigh and I know it’s got something to do with gaining and yet I eat. Kms

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Posted 06 October 2019 - 08:01 AM

130 this morning without BM no no no no no
Liquid fast at least all day through work

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Posted 07 October 2019 - 10:21 AM

129
:/ was hoping for less but still an improvement from yesterday and I did eat so I shouldn’t be greedy

Was able to fast until passed 10pm which is a first in 3/4 months for me!
Then we went to yard house (our favorite place) and split nachos and vegan chicken wings which was over 1700 cals! Crazy yo.
Today goal is to fast until 10pm then I can choose to frosting mono, apple mono or maybe even try to pull off a 24 hour fast :) <3 hope my baby is okay lol. I’m sure they are. Now I’ve got some mommy fat for them to live off of I’m sure they’ll be fine. I’ll be 20 weeks-halfway mark-in 3 weeks. Cray.

My husband is going on a 3 day trip in a few weeks and I’m excited to either mono or fast those days!

There’s this new smoothie place across the street from me...ugh I wish I could smoothie mono but that would just not be a mono lol plus could get pricey but I could make my own Ana versions w water ice and a fruit of choice :)
Mwahaha
Also I gotta go to the bathroom now-already has some coffee so the weight is screwed but hurray l

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Posted 07 October 2019 - 10:22 AM

Have you been thinking of potential names?

I like Marley but my husband doesn’t :/

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Posted 07 October 2019 - 11:48 AM

Please don't fast. Your baby is getting a start based on what you are providing. Please don't take that good start away. 

I had to make that decision as well. I'm so thankful that I chose the sacrifice of me gaining in order for her to gain as well. Very healthy and beautiful girl. :wub:

And I lost all my baby weight and more. 


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HW 183

CW 129.9

GW 95

LW 95

 

Height 4'11

 

 

Where's my collarbone?


#58 420forever

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Posted 08 October 2019 - 10:45 AM

Please don't fast. Your baby is getting a start based on what you are providing. Please don't take that good start away.
I had to make that decision as well. I'm so thankful that I chose the sacrifice of me gaining in order for her to gain as well. Very healthy and beautiful girl. :wub:
And I lost all my baby weight and more.


How much did you gain? I’ve already gained 20, and I’m only 17 weeks. I think I can afford to fast.

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Posted 08 October 2019 - 10:48 AM

128.8
Failed mono yesterday. So probably ate over 2,000 since I had some frosting, pizza and a pastry at work and then veggies at home. Rip
Idk anymore but I will not give up. I can not gain more for awhile I will flip and I know it’s unhealthy to gain as quickly as I am. 20 pounds in 2 months is bad. Even with being pregnant.
Although I think I am a bit lucky to be under 130 and at my 5th month of pregnancy but I’m not tryna gain another 20 more. I’ll accept 140-145 At the highest in the next 4/5 months.
March is my due date

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Posted 08 October 2019 - 11:15 AM

Well yesterday I saw 127 on the scale and today after coffee and shower I saw it again. Idk.


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