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#81 AmyburnsInIce

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Posted 25 October 2019 - 08:43 PM

Hang in there!
I hope your ultrasound goes well

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Posted 30 October 2019 - 09:56 AM

My ultrasound is today!
Yesterday was crazy I visited a psych doctor and when I first got there they weighed me and I was 137. I immediately cried when I got into the office. Usually at home I’m 133 at the most, although last night I was 134 at home so idk. Seeing 137.8 was terrifying. It helped me fast until I got home from work at 10pm and then had around 1000 cals. I should have kept fasting :/
The doctor wanted me to go inpatient ASAP or go to a partial program but I kept on refusing so now I have an appointment there next week. I guess my doctor is gonna give me a prescription for celexa today.

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Posted 31 October 2019 - 09:46 AM

I think I’m 135 according to the scake at my doctors. I get weighed again in 5 more days. Wouldn’t it be lovely to drop 5 lbs. I hate how big I am.

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Posted 01 November 2019 - 01:03 PM

Just feeling like a fat mess. Yesterday I didn’t eat til 2pm, my first meal was cake. My second meal was 2 slices of pizza. My final meal was after 10pm and it was all veggies in olive oil. I couldn’t have hit over 2,000 yesterday:/
But according to my scale I’ve gained or at the very least maintained. I just need to focus on maintaining and eating healthy enough but not too much. I need to stay away from sweets. My ultrasound went well, but I haven’t gotten a detailed report yet. I’m
Def growing.

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Posted 01 November 2019 - 02:42 PM

Following! good luck on your journey.


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Posted 06 November 2019 - 11:34 AM

Goal number one for a healthy me and baby is to stop binging at work. I’ve done pretty well the last 2 days and I’ve also been doing a 25 min pregnancy workout. The other day on the scale I was 135. At the psych doctors I was 139. Today I’m 133 on my home scale so at least I know I’m going on the right direction. I think I have planned to eat around 500-600 before work, 500-600 during and 500-600 after. I really am caring less about loosing and focusing on gaining the least. I have to accept more weight gain. I’m 21 weeks pregnant, in the 130s, it’s okay. I don’t know if I mentioned on here I got a 3D image of my baby and they look like a human. I also found out their private parts but I will never be mentioning those. We still haven’t chosen a name yet. Yea, def getting excited to have a baby. They are so cute! It’s like I forgot I wanted a baby. And weight gain is a thing I do-even when I’m not pregnant so at least this time around I’m eating for the baby not myself like a greedy pig. Although I was a greedy pig the last 3 months and gained 25-30 lbs. No nonsense November! I got this! Healthy snacks constantly, low sugar, vegan !

As you can see my mood has gotten a bit better! Probably cus of the whole 3D baby image and starting to feel the baby inside of me:) I’m also on day 5 of taking celexa and I even get to take 10mg more in 2 more days I’m pretty pumped
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Posted 15 November 2019 - 06:46 PM

Haven’t written in awhile. Really starting to look pregnant now, I was told yesterday and today someone asked me. I’m 132-135 pounds which isn’t horrible I guess but I can’t Handel gaining much mire although what I eat says otherwise. I don’t binge at work anymore but I still eat.. like I just can’t restrict anymore no hard I miss being skinny. I’m excited for my baby. Yo I even got some milk coming in lol

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Posted 17 November 2019 - 04:41 PM

That's so exciting! I haven't had any milk yet, but working on a ward with crying babies everywhere, it's bound to happen soon I've also been asked how far along I am a few times now, and am definitely obviously pregnant. Can't remember if I've asked you this already, but are you feeling much movement?

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HW: 165lbs/75kgs | BMI: 24.77

LW: 119lbs/54kgs | BMI: 17.84

 

CW: 141lbs/64kgs | BMI: 21.14

 

GW1: 137lbs/62kgs | BMI: 20.48

GW2: 132lbs/60kgs | BMI: 19.82

GW3: 128lbs/58kgs | BMI: 19.16

GW4: 123lbs/56kgs | BMI: 18.50

GW5: 119lbs/54kgs | BMI: 17.84

GW6: 115lbs/52kgs | BMI: 17.18

UGW: 110lbs/50kgs | BMI: 16.51


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Posted 23 November 2019 - 10:16 PM

That's so exciting! I haven't had any milk yet, but working on a ward with crying babies everywhere, it's bound to happen soon I've also been asked how far along I am a few times now, and am definitely obviously pregnant. Can't remember if I've asked you this already, but are you feeling much movement?

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I started feeling movement around week 20, but now at week 23 my husband can feel them kicking around! I’m so excited. Besides weight gain, pregnancy isn’t too bad. Names are the hardest part! How are you doing?!

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Posted 24 November 2019 - 12:40 AM

I started feeling movement around week 20, but now at week 23 my husband can feel them kicking around! I’m so excited. Besides weight gain, pregnancy isn’t too bad. Names are the hardest part! How are you doing?!

Pretty good currently! Movements just getting stronger and stronger Felt kicks in my ribs this morning!!! Although I'm starting to find things difficult at work (bending to pick anything up, being on my feet for 8+ hours).

We've pretty much decided on a boy name, but we'll struggle if it's a girl - we can't agree!

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You can't help mistaking the forest for the trees

 

24, female, 5'8.5/174cm

 

HW: 165lbs/75kgs | BMI: 24.77

LW: 119lbs/54kgs | BMI: 17.84

 

CW: 141lbs/64kgs | BMI: 21.14

 

GW1: 137lbs/62kgs | BMI: 20.48

GW2: 132lbs/60kgs | BMI: 19.82

GW3: 128lbs/58kgs | BMI: 19.16

GW4: 123lbs/56kgs | BMI: 18.50

GW5: 119lbs/54kgs | BMI: 17.84

GW6: 115lbs/52kgs | BMI: 17.18

UGW: 110lbs/50kgs | BMI: 16.51


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Posted 03 December 2019 - 03:12 PM

I don’t even know how much I weigh cus my scale has been fucked for awhile. It reads 136....so yea been eating better not as much binging and barely and restricting since my body is just not letting me. No more control. I’ve accepted it almost.

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Posted 25 December 2019 - 01:12 PM

Haven’t written in awhile. I’m 28 weeks now out of 40. I’m around 138-140. Struggling with the thought of gaining more. Maybe 5-10 pounds I’d be okay with. I’m no longer binging but eating like a normal person, enjoying food-getting full.

My husbands mom is in the hospital but I think she’ll be okay after this very rough patch
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Posted 28 December 2019 - 06:14 AM

Haven’t written in awhile. I’m 28 weeks now out of 40. I’m around 138-140. Struggling with the thought of gaining more. Maybe 5-10 pounds I’d be okay with. I’m no longer binging but eating like a normal person, enjoying food-getting full.

My husbands mom is in the hospital but I think she’ll be okay after this very rough patch

Super stoked to hear an update from you

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Posted 03 February 2020 - 04:15 PM

6 more weeks til birth
Went from 108-now 151.
Hate this
Miss my skinny body.
I got a concussion at work the other day.
I just feel like shit
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#95 AmyburnsInIce

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Posted 31 March 2020 - 08:13 AM

Thinking of you <3
Hope you’re doing well!

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Posted 16 May 2020 - 04:27 PM

Don't mean to be rude or anything just super curious how did you not notice earlier? Cause it hit me instantly. The tiredness, tender breasts, bloated stomach..Really no judgement just super curious. You don't have to answer.

Oh, sorry to be so late. Haven't been here for a while!
You're not rude at all ...you're right! XD
How didn't I notice that? I'm just... stupid
I have to say I was used to have irregular mestruation due to my ED. Then I was used to fatigue and I often have headache. A few years ago I had a diagnosis of an autoimmune hepatitis and...guess what? One of the main symptoms was gastritis and nausea! So I confess, I didn't see big changes in me. In addiction in that period I was fired up from work and I really didn't "listen to my body".
My weight was the same (maybe I lost a few kilos also) and nothing...just started to see a little bump at a certain time.
It seems like a movie, I know.
My baby is 6 months now (born 7th of November 2019).
I'm on therapy now. It's hard to stop with this shit (starving, restriction, purging, depression, anxiety) but I really want to change.

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Posted 07 July 2020 - 11:37 AM

My baby is 3 months and they’re the best ever. I think I’m 150-160 and it’s gross. Gotta loose by healthily cus I’m breastfeeding
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