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Anybody on here not diagnosed with anything?


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#1 1-800-monimoni

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Posted 23 July 2019 - 10:06 PM

I've always had issues with food and my body but it wasn't until i was 17 - 5 years ago, now - that i actually flipped the friggen lid and started starving myself, taking diet pills, exercising and taking laxatives.

I lost a lot of weight pretty quickly.. 50lbs in 3 months and eventually my family confronted me about all of my poor dietary choices and so i kind of just shoved my symptoms under the rug for a couple of days instead of going to get help.

Everybody thinks I'm better now but because i refused going to get treatment - mainly because i was a healthy BMI - i just continued these bad habits on and off, going from starving myself to binging and from eating clean to purging, high restriction to low restriction ' it's all been so messed up but I'm afraid of recieving any sort of diagnosis because then it will feel far too real like i have a real problem that needs fixed when as of right now i feel safe in my disordered behavior.

For a while i just self diagnosed myself with ednos since I don't look the part of anoreixa, i don't eat clean enough to have orthorexia, i don't stuff myself enough to have binge eating disorder and i don't purge enough to have bulimia.

My questions are how many of you guys are in a similar boat to mine? Do you self diagnose yourself with whatever suits your current disordered behavior or do you refer to yourself as having ednos as well since you're unsure like I am?

I find myself jumping from thread to thread wondering where i belong in terms of my ed and it's not like i have fucking 7 of them for ffs so i just go to which ever thread I'm feeling the most... in tune with.
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Posted 23 July 2019 - 10:14 PM

im not diagnosed but like when you start binging and purging it kinda means ur cray cray sso


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Posted 23 July 2019 - 10:24 PM

i don't like therapists, never had a good experience with one, so i've never been formally diagnosed. never taken any anti-anx, anti-depressives either because of it.

 

I'm afraid of recieving any sort of diagnosis because then it will feel far too real like i have a real problem that needs fixed when as of right now i feel safe in my disordered behavior.

 

also this^


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Posted 24 July 2019 - 12:24 AM

Same boat dude...I thought I was the only one. I go through stages almost and I don’t fucking understand it
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[X] GW1: 110 (BMI 21.5)

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#5 1-800-monimoni

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Posted 24 July 2019 - 01:20 AM

Same boat dude...I thought I was the only one. I go through stages almost and I don’t fucking understand it


It's "fun" haha I'm having a great time, aren't you have a great time??? c':
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Posted 24 July 2019 - 01:21 AM

im not diagnosed but like when you start binging and purging it kinda means ur cray cray sso


The sad part is that's probably not the lowest I've gotten in my years of having these sick behaviors so cray cray x10 i guess

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Posted 24 July 2019 - 01:23 AM

i don't like therapists, never had a good experience with one, so i've never been formally diagnosed. never taken any anti-anx, anti-depressives either because of it.


also this^


I want to get a diagnosis eventually but I'm waiting until I'm at most 125 for a proper diagnosis. Guess it would feel more validating then...
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Posted 27 July 2019 - 02:54 PM

i don't like therapists, never had a good experience with one, so i've never been formally diagnosed. never taken any anti-anx, anti-depressives either because of it.

 

 

also this^

 

I'm scared to go back to a therapist because I've had so many bad ones. :( I also don't take meds anymore, mainly because when I was in group therapy almost everyone there was on six different medications to treat symptoms of side effects and it just seemed like such a horrible way to live.


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Posted 28 July 2019 - 08:31 AM

I have "eating disorder" on my medical records but not an official diagnosis like anorexia, ednos or bulimia. Because about a year ago I saw a nutritionist specialising in EDs but I was about 155lbs so I refused help out of fear of being the fattest one there. I really wish Id just done it though. Im at my worst ever now and pretty confident this relapse will take me to my UGW and BEYOND (yes its that bad) 



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Posted 28 July 2019 - 08:32 AM

I'm scared to go back to a therapist because I've had so many bad ones. :( I also don't take meds anymore, mainly because when I was in group therapy almost everyone there was on six different medications to treat symptoms of side effects and it just seemed like such a horrible way to live.

Like antidepressents? Placebo. Not worth it


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Posted 29 July 2019 - 10:13 PM

I've never seen a health professional about my eating habits and my family are pretty naive so it's not like they'd ever guess although my mum once thought I was bulimic before I ever even purged (I lost weight quickly by restricting).
I refer to myself as ednos, but I also feel like I actually am ednos, I'm definitely neither bulimic nor anorexic.
I go through cycles of healthy eating, restricting and purging etc and it's been like that for the past 6 years or something
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Posted 29 July 2019 - 10:15 PM

Like antidepressents? Placebo. Not worth it


Seriously? There have been so many studies done showing that antidepressants really work and aren't just a placebo effect. Saying that, they have awful side effects which is why I do not want to touch one ever again lmao
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Posted 30 July 2019 - 07:57 AM

I dont have an ED diagnosis, but my eating habits are definitely disordered. I have other diagnoses for mental health but not for this although my psychiatrist asked me alot of questions about it at my last review😓😓😓

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Posted 30 July 2019 - 08:45 AM

I've been to therapists for other things but never mentioned my disordered eating because I'm afraid if anyone finds out they'll just laugh at me and not take it seriously bc I'm fat. I can't take that humiliation tbh. I've lost a shitload of weight in a small amount of time and it's just getting worse but I feel like no one would bother making a diagnosis because it's nothing to worry about.

I try to frame things as 'my disordered eating' or 'disordered thoughts' instead of saying I have an ED though. Idk just in case I don't have one. Despite being terrified to eat over 800 calories and making myself throw up if I feel even slightly full and a bunch of other typical ED behaviours lmao

BUt wHaT If I'm FAkiNG iT

So yeah not diagnosed but obvious ED behaviours.
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Posted 30 July 2019 - 02:57 PM

I feel as though if I sought help for whatever 'illness' I might have, I'd just be dismissed. Sometimes I actually feel okay in my body and so I feel as though I'm not too far gone... Although my odd eating habits have certainly impacted my quality of life. 


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Posted 30 July 2019 - 03:08 PM

I've never been diagnosed with anything, but I'm very self-aware and able to decide on my own that I do have an ED based on my behaviors and the symptoms of it.


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Posted 30 July 2019 - 04:27 PM

im not diagnosed cause there’s no way i’m telling my therapist about this shit
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Posted 31 July 2019 - 11:43 PM

i’m not. i’m too embarrassed to talk about my insecurities about being fat lol plus this is prob just me being stubborn but i’ve had therapy for my other mental illnesses and they never helped me even when i tried
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#19 Lightning_in_a_bottle

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Posted 02 August 2019 - 09:55 AM

I haven’t been diagnosed as well, and honestly I don’t think you need a doctor to tell you when something’s wrong. I just know that I’ve been having an unhealthy relationship with food pretty much since I were in the 6-7th grade (6 years ago) and... I try to have it under control, but sometimes I know that I’m going way too far and it’s scary, especially when something with your health is wrong and you can’t be sure if it’s not all your fault...
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Posted 02 August 2019 - 09:57 AM

Literally this. Never been diagnosed with anything but when you cry over a bowl of boiled broccoli one day and binge on 5 large pizzas the next, you just know lol
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