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#1 Dreaminghopefully



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Posted 19 September 2019 - 08:42 AM

My coworker turns to me and says, “you look different, but I don’t know why and just can’t put my finger on it. (Other coworker) agrees. We just can’t figure it out.” I’m wearing a new top (usually baggy is my go to) that shows my collarbones, arms, etc. He then asked me if I lost weight! First time it’s been acknowledged since my relapse. Made me full super shitty about the maintenance day I was having, and now I’m planning a workout + heavy restriction day tomorrow rip lol
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Posted 19 September 2019 - 08:46 AM

I gained .1 pounds this morning (not too much, but gaining is gaining) after going to a sorority event and I want to lose at least three more pounds before Monday, so I have that♡ Also, lots of people at the event kept asking me to eat, and telling me I'm not fat and that just kind of made me feel like they were lying and plotting against me... So now I must lose more weight♡ What a strange thought process to have

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Posted 19 September 2019 - 08:57 AM

I work in a Korean company and literally just looking at my co-workers is motivating enough. The heaviest one is probably only 50kg and there's two there that CAN'T be over 45kg. 


It's a great appetite suppressant.

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Posted 19 September 2019 - 08:57 AM

I looked in the full length mirror lol rip.

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Posted 19 September 2019 - 08:59 AM

stepped on the scale..

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Posted 19 September 2019 - 09:02 AM

I thought for sure that I would weigh less this morning, but I weighed almost a pound more???? Going to hard restrict today so the scale will definitely go down tomorrow.
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Posted 19 September 2019 - 09:06 AM


This girl sitting next to me in microbiology is overweight but she keeps talking about this salad place she works at and how she loves salads.
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Posted 19 September 2019 - 09:19 AM

I’m having lunch with my friend on Saturday and she’s naturally petite and so so teeny tiny and I always feel enormous next to her, and she eats whatever she wants too so it’s so unfair 😭 I know she’s gonna make me eat a lot so I need to heavily restrict today and tomorrow
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bmi 25.8
gw1 185
gw2 149
gw3 119
gw4 110
gw5 96

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Posted 19 September 2019 - 09:34 AM

I bought this pair of pants about 2 week ago, and they're much looser than when I bought them.

When I got them, I had already dropped some weight and they fit perfectly. Now they're loose.

It feels great and really pushed me to not eat anything today. 

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Posted 19 September 2019 - 11:34 AM

Seeing this one girl I work with in a crop top. ughhhhh she's perfect, and also super nice  :(

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Posted 19 September 2019 - 11:40 AM

Knowing that I look better and feel better about myself when I'm losing weight. Wanting to be able to eat 1200 a day so badly because I've failed at it in the past.

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Posted 19 September 2019 - 11:41 AM

Looking at that one girl that just looks perfect, like, everything about her. and i want to be like her so i'm going to be good today and 2468

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 20y / 5ft 9

Start Weight: 62kg

Lowest Weight: 53.5kg

Current Weight: 58kg


Goal 1: 57kg

Goal 2: 55kg

Goal 3: 53kg

End Goal: 50kg


days sticking to plan:4


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#13 I'm Blue

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Posted 19 September 2019 - 12:16 PM

Wearing a crop top in public for the first time today. Feeling like a badass bitch but I hate how I look sitting down in it. It has to look good for Monday though because my girlfriend requested I wear it.
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Posted 19 September 2019 - 12:23 PM

skinny underclassmen in my high school. ugh I am so jealous of them

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Posted 19 September 2019 - 12:38 PM

Someone commenting on one of my posts telling me my weight isn't low enough to meet diagnostic criteria for AN. As if I don't constantly think that already. 

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Posted 19 September 2019 - 12:43 PM

The scale..my reflection. I allow myself 700 Cal's a day as I need to focus daily for work. So far I'm at about 320 so doing well.
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Posted 19 September 2019 - 12:43 PM

Short version: my boyfriend's mad at me

Long version: We went out on a date and he just. Wouldn't let me talk. For about 2 hours. Like he just talked for 2 hours straight and I tried interrupting but he'd just ignore me. So eventually I got frustrated and said a bunch of mean shit instead of talking about what he was actually doing that bothered me, so he's mad that I handled being frustrated by being a dick. Which is, y'know, fair.
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#18 Ashley Smith

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Posted 19 September 2019 - 01:16 PM

I stepped on the scale for the first time in easily months last night an saw i was 135. So, my new goal is to lose 50lbs by valentines day like losertown says i can if i stick to a calorie range of 500-600 calories/day. 

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Age: 24 / Height: 5'0" / Last BMI & Weight: 26.4BMI & 135lbs on 5/29/20  / GW1: 120 / UGW: 90


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Posted 19 September 2019 - 02:12 PM

I'm down to a new low weight! I'm only 1.4 pounds away from underweight. I also can't eat on campus which I am at all day today so that's wonderful motivation

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Posted 19 September 2019 - 02:31 PM

going through my closet. D: i have a whole bin in there filled with lingerie and other, uh, 'extracurricular clothing items' that i feel too huge to wear at the moment. i've been working out more lately but today i went twice as long and have put off eating lunch so far. 

i'm so over feeling like i look gross all the time.

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