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#81 ColdChloe

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Posted 26 February 2020 - 04:08 PM

Okay so according to losertown, if I eat nothing for 1 month I will become underweight so...hErE wE gOOoooo!!!

Jk that’s unrealistic and I’m probably gonna end up binging so not gonna bother. I’m gonna do 2468 but i will add exercise so that I can get in the negatives. I’ll eat 2468 but will try to get daily consumption to -100 so ill just exercise more on the days I eat more like 6/8 !! Okok lets do this 106 lbs rn I’ll start posting body checks in 1-2 weeks probably just so I can be more ashamed of my body so I restrict more

urgh didnt work



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Posted 29 February 2020 - 04:13 PM

IM SO DONE URGH THIS RESTRICTING THING ISNT WORKING IM GONNA START PURGING NOW FUCK U BRAIN WHY DONT U L I S T E N T O M E ????????????????????????????????????

dint work >:C



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Posted 01 March 2020 - 04:00 PM

dw it will work eventually i just need a swing into it i'll probably make another calendar for myself real quick . today i will trigger myself as much as i can like an idiot then hope everything goes well.

 

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Posted 03 March 2020 - 08:55 PM

k so apparently my physical health hates me as much as my mental health and now I have a cold but I’m gonna pretend it’s corona (and for anyone reading this in the future this was March 3rd 2020 when covid-19 was like omg !! it’s gonna kill me - even though it just feels like a bad cold with pneumonia and pls tell me that I’m skinny and that I’m recovered 😭😭) I can’t restrict like this even though I got so excited I need to not eat omg pls I need the feeling again urgh I’ll be back soon and going to the gyM with my friend to rlly get the skinny

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Posted 04 March 2020 - 09:57 AM

Hi hun !

 

I just wanted to tell you ... Remember there is no weight "requirement" for recovery. It's okay to not be ready. But waiting to get low enough isn't gonna worth it. At some point, nothing is "low enough" ... You DESERVE recovery, everybody does.

 

Please, stay safe and be kind with yourself,  okay ? :)


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Posted 04 March 2020 - 11:42 PM

Hi hun !

 

I just wanted to tell you ... Remember there is no weight "requirement" for recovery. It's okay to not be ready. But waiting to get low enough isn't gonna worth it. At some point, nothing is "low enough" ... You DESERVE recovery, everybody does.

 

Please, stay safe and be kind with yourself,  okay ? :)

thank you!! i constantly try to remind myself but i keep letting myself forget and reinforcing the idea that i don't deserve it. i'm just so scared of it but i also know at the same time its what i need. i'll try to remember your words for the future! please stay safe as well! :)


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Posted 13 March 2020 - 12:49 PM

so many urges to restrict ahhh I’m almost 110 lbs I’m gonna die. I want to love my body but it’s not lovable enough to be loved by me. I’m so fat people r gonna stop being my friend cause of how fat I am how am I so fat why am I fat maybe if I was unfat then I’d be living a good life, maybe I’d be getting good makes maybe my mom wouldn’t be disappointed in my very existence if I just lost those 20 lbs. I should just stop resisting this urge because I’ll never be happy if I do. I’ll probably be back next week because it’s my spring break but I’m gonna hold off until then

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Posted 19 March 2020 - 11:47 PM

ok guys surprise im back i didnt even expect it and i feel like absolutely shit. ppl were talking about how they were underweight and were "morbidly anorexic" just cause they struggled to eat more. 

food eaten

Dragon fruit - 60 calories
Bok choy - 50 calories
Preserved fruit - 50 calories

Total: 160 calories 



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Posted 23 March 2020 - 05:01 PM

i take back what i thought abt corona omg my mom is staying home from work and is staring me down at my food intake. gonna need to figure something out but for now i'll do my best and lie my way out if i can 

update: i got into an argument with her so i'm gonna use that as an excuse to not eat

jk we made up and its sitll ok tho :D

food eaten

(over) estimate - 350 calories



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Posted 24 March 2020 - 03:50 PM

i'm kind of craving some bubble tea and brb i wanna go weigh myself i so scared k nvm no bubble tea i'm 103 lbs how tf thx water weight for putting me in a good mood.

ok i'm rambling but i'm gonna go shopping for soups and stuff so yeah :D


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(over) estimate 900 calories total



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Posted 25 March 2020 - 04:09 PM

AHHH MY MOM IS MAKING ME EAT OK ITS FINE I WIL JUST NOT EAT ANYMORE AFTER ITS OK 

k so i binged... ish.. i bought a ton of ice cream and bubble tea uhhh i hate me lol. oh well i need to forgive myself and continue restricting tomorrow. i am a healthy queen so i will not be using any method of purging (or try not to but i will update if i do)



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Posted 26 March 2020 - 04:02 PM

i'm 104 i fat i fat i fat i fat ughughughgu i'm so upset rn i shouldve purged yesterday. today isnt gonna go well :c i can sense it but i wish i had more control i hate this i lied to my therapist saying i was not weighing myself i'm so fat and i hate my life when will this all end :(

food eaten

low cal candy - 100 calories

k yeah so it happened at only 4 PM :/ i feel so nasty and dirty rn but its ok i will forgive myself (and regret not purging in a few hours) !! 



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Posted 19 April 2020 - 04:22 PM

okay so almost a month of not restricting (with some days of sneak restricting) but now i'm tired of this i wanna go back but my sister is home and i cant hide it idk what to do :c i just wanna get skinny and i cant stand this feeling knowing that i'll be fat forever. i might be back to restrict soon but i've been feeling better so let's just see how it goes.


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Posted 23 April 2020 - 03:09 PM

ok girls we backkk!!! so we are going to do sneak restricting and just use "im not hungry" for everything. really basic i know but i cant even say "i already ate" cause i'm always around people because of this stupid quarantine. i thought quarantine was gonna be easy restriction but now ppl are gonna knoowwww if i'm not careful.

i'm so tired of being fat and some days i dont even want to go shower cause i don't want to see my hideous body. :D

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i ate my mom's food so idk but i dont feel hungry which isn't a good sign... 

 



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Posted 12 May 2020 - 04:51 PM

it's been half a year now. how much did i expect to lose? 0. how much did i lose? 0.

quarantine has been okay for me. i haven't been to school or seen my friends so the pressure about my weight is lighter now but i know the moment i go back everything will fall apart unless i lose the weight now.

on top of that i have to get my drivers licence soon and i have a huge problem with taking pictures so i was thinking maybe if i lost some weight i could do it since i really want to drive. or i could just wait until i'm 18 and get plastic surgery. its worth a try though, its almost my birthday so i only have a little bit of time.

i'll try to go with a strict 2468 with no edits.


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Posted 12 May 2020 - 04:53 PM

Tuesday May 12, 2020 200 calorie day!
 

 

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