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#21 highrestriction420

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Posted 19 December 2019 - 06:03 AM

My self image goes all over the place even though my weight is the same. Body dysmorphia just means having a wrong idea of your body shape so it works in both directions and can also refer to muscle or your bone structure

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Posted 19 December 2019 - 07:56 AM

i thought i was the only one

 

i feel as if though ive lost weight but then im like lol no how idk its so mind fucking


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Posted 19 December 2019 - 10:20 AM

Yes, especially if your weight tends to fluctuate!


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Posted 19 December 2019 - 04:15 PM

I feel this, I gained over 10lbs in 2017 and since I could still squeeze in my old clothes I felt like I looked pretty good. Til I saw pics of myself and looked in the mirror naked of course. 10lbs is a lot on 5'1". Whenever I get around 120-125 though I think I look good for some reason, whether I lose down to there or gain up to there. Looking back now I think I look horrible.


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Posted 03 September 2020 - 06:31 PM

It all depends on ny mood and mindset. When I was larger and happy I saw myself as prettier than I actually am. Only in pictures did I really see how fat I had gotten. Now no matter how much I lose or gain I still see myself the same..so it's weird as far as body size..now. my face in the other hand. Literally my perception of my face changes day to day. Literally. It drives me crazy. Some days I think I am pretty/average others I think I am the ugliest person. On the planet. It still depends on my mindset. And literally my face looks different. It sometimes even happens in the same day.

Every once in a while if I've lost weight or something like that for an hour I feel like euphoria and an increased sense if self worth. Body image. Then it goes back to trash. Plus I have a lot of scars on my body and stretch marks so even in a good day I see that and it depressed me.


I think I convince myself I look ok some days just to save my own sanity. So my brain over compensates.


Edit::: I never even realized I had commented in this thread. I was reading the posts and saw mine and was like wowowow. Did I have a stroke?? But meh .same thing different day

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Posted 03 September 2020 - 07:35 PM

It all depends on ny mood and mindset. When I was larger and happy I saw myself as prettier than I actually am. Only in pictures did I really see how fat I had gotten. Now no matter how much I lose or gain I still see myself the same..so it's weird as far as body size..now. my face in the other hand. Literally my perception of my face changes day to day. Literally. It drives me crazy. Some days I think I am pretty/average others I think I am the ugliest person. On the planet. It still depends on my mindset. And literally my face looks different. It sometimes even happens in the same day.

omg same. i am now what i thought i looked like 10 lbs heavier when i was doing pretty okay aside from purging a ton. i felt pretty good abt myself and now i'm like damn bitch....


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Posted 04 September 2020 - 06:31 PM

i have the same thing lol i see myself way smaller than i am when i restrict. then it makes me stop restricting but going on the scale helps me realize that i need to keep going to reach my goal.


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Posted 04 September 2020 - 07:18 PM

ik this post is old but yea

gained 50 + pounds from my original starting weight and still feel my body looks the same

it doesn't help the fact that i've grown 2.5 inches since then and my clothes still fit

i guess it's just the denial of gaining weight

 

only things that ground my are pictures of myself and body + certain parts of my body like my face and chest, where i can see the weight gain


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#29 persephonesflowers

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Posted 04 September 2020 - 07:50 PM

Yea when I lost weight the first time it's because my friend took a candid picture of me and I was genuinely blown away by how big I looked. I was like damn that's what everyone else sees? Then I lost all the weight and gained it back again, but I still felt like I was at my smaller weight. When I looked in the mirror I didn't think I was big. But there were times when the veil lifted and I could really see myself as huge... that's when I started losing again


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Posted 07 September 2020 - 07:29 PM

I absolutely feel this and I don't notice if I gain weight at all

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#31 Hilli_Big

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Posted 08 September 2020 - 10:14 AM

Oh yes, I have that and I've talked about it with my friends for years! In hindsight I know now, that I had body dismorphia (the classic type) when I was a teen. When I finished university and got my first job I started to gain weight and have continued to gain ever since. 10 years later and I am at a BMI of around 38. But I never see myself so big. When I take of my clothes I can't believe that they barely fit. When I See myself on photographs I'm shocked. It is impossible for me to compare myself with other women bc I have no clue how far away or how close I am them.
I totaly agree that it feels redicoulus. I am a very chilled, straight up, honest and direct person. I call things by their Name, I never sugarcoat. Except for my body. When I close my eyes I still feel as small as I was at the age of 25.

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Posted 14 October 2020 - 08:40 PM

I was at 130 my entire teens and up until I was about 20. at 20 I was in a serious relationship, which means serious eating. I ended up getting to 140, then a year later 150, and essentially gained 10 pounds every year. I always thought I just looked the same until I saw a picture of myself when I was 18. Im so saddened that I spent that time thinking I was so fat, when now I actually am (obese bmi) sometimes I still think I look "skinny" but I quickly put myself back in check by looking at old photos as to not fall off the wagon

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Posted 26 October 2020 - 03:14 AM

yesss and it makes me feel fake as hell


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Posted 26 October 2020 - 03:11 PM

I do this too, I have to take pictures of myself to really see it. But when I go out and catch myself in a mirror, I see myself a lot bigger. It’s probably because I know other people can see me and silently judge me, making me feel a lot more self conscious.

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#35 Skinnyplsahahahahaha

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Posted 28 October 2020 - 05:44 AM

Yes! When I was 221 I thought I was much thinner than I was! Now I weigh less I think I’m much bigger. Madness

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Posted 08 November 2020 - 11:57 PM

I relate. I feel it especially intensely if I lose 1-2 kg. I instantly start feeling like my body is much, much smaller


Relate so much, but I do think a little loss shows a lot on my frame I guess. The difference in feeling is ridiculous though, and even realistically most people would barely notice the difference.

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Posted 08 November 2020 - 11:59 PM

"reverse" body dysmorphia is not a thing, because body dysmorphia, in definition, does not necessarily mean you have to see yourself as fat. it can be in any shape or form.
it happens to me occasionally. if i fast for a long time and get really bad hunger pains, i start to feel weak, and i start to SEE myself as skinny and weak in the mirror. it does happen. maybe my brain is just playing to get me to eat.
it goes away when i eat though.


Facts, it just means you don’t see yourself in an accurate way - it doesn’t specify what differs between your body and your perception.

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Posted 09 November 2020 - 12:01 AM

Okay so this going to sound really fucking stupid but I always see myself as... Smaller than I actually am? It could just be denial of how fat I actually am but I cannot see exactly how fat I am. I mean, yes I'm large and definitely not where I was let's say 4 years ago, but I'm also not feeling /that/ fat when it comes to appearance. I weigh 254 but I just feel like I would be astronomically larger but i guess it's just how I carry it..

Do I see it on the scale? Absolutely. The mirror? Maybe not as much.

I've seen people at the same or around the same weight as me and they're bigger than me in measurements usually (that sound so mean but I'm really not trying to be...)

I've never shared this before because of how goddamn ridiculous it sounds but I also think i would feel some sort of comfort knowing someone else goes through it too. It's really disorienting because I know I'm fat but I don't feel like I'm trudging through mud either like I thought I would.


Muscle weighs more than fat so that could play a factor, and were the people who weigh the same as you a similar height too? Height makes such a big difference to weight.

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Posted 12 November 2020 - 07:25 PM

ugh i feel for this so hard! and it's so embaressing because everyone can obviously tell how big i am and i generally feel skinny, but then i'll stand in front of a bathroom mirror with a friend or something and i'll get so embaressed at my weight and be self aware, but the self awareness goes away almost immediately after we get away from mirrors. also i've noticed i tend to look at thinner parts of myself, such as my neck or wrists, and fear i'm getting too skinny which is dumb because i really am overweight. i really wish i knew how to fix this.. also I've noticed i subconsciously suck in my stomach when i'm looking in the mirror so i always have to take a moment to relax it and really take my weight in.. the worst part is that i see i'm fat, but i always think "it could be worse, i could look so much fatter than i do" and then i do nothing about it. ridiculous.

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Posted 12 November 2020 - 09:45 PM

This is interesting! I could see how that could happen it is logical. Don't think it is stupid, it is just your experience. I will be reading this thread :P


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