Posted 22 March 2020 - 04:01 AM
Haven't written for a long time. These days aren't going well.
This Homeoffice Corona thing ruined all my piecfulness at home.
Hubby is watching me like an eagle and forcefeeding me nonstop. Meanwhile we argue 24x7.
Everything was so pieceful and lovely before, when we only saw us after work. My pregnancy was happy and relaxed and easy before. I ate my healthy fruits, yogurt, chicken soup, shirataki dishes, cloudbread, vegan carrot cake bars.... Hey... I ate OK? I didn't fast.
But for him healthy food = 0 cal. For im an apple has 0 cal and a banana too. He has nooooo clue.
So he force feeds me the worst meals like pastas and burgers.
I binged big time yesterday on everything I could find after hubby forced me a huge gnocchi meal. Unhealthy meals like this trigger something in me. It's like giving a junky Heroin. I just can't have pasta. I binged all evening on chocolate, nuts, cloudbread with pesto and honey, Non-alc beer. And hubby couldn't stop commenting instead of just letting me eat. I was clearly upset about losing control and he kept on mentioning that.
It's OK. The binge happened. I don't even beat myself up too much. But why the fuck does he need to sit and moderate the whole binge?
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HW: 78 kg
75kg / 72 kg 70 / kg
68 kg / 67 kg / 66 kg / 65 kg / 64 kg / 63 kg / 62kg / 61 / 60 / 57,5
Pre-Preggo : 56kg (Jan 2020)
Weigh-in paused due to pregnancy till 18th Sep 2020
GW (After pregnancy): 55