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Posted 01 August 2020 - 10:48 AM

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Posted 01 August 2020 - 10:48 AM

116.6

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Posted 03 August 2020 - 08:43 AM

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Binged yesterday and didn’t put the calories in.

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Posted 04 August 2020 - 08:39 AM

Treatment fucked me up man I went from eating 1 meal a day to eating 3 huge meals plus 2 snacks and if I didn’t eat enough it was counted against me because ya know. And I wanted to get out of there so bad so I would eat a good portion of it and it was disgusting plus I had to drink 6 2% milks EVERY DAY. It was only for like 10 days but that 10 days fucked me up so I’ve been so much hungrier and it’s been harder to restrict especially going back to work cause when I get home I’m so hungry and the acid coming up from my stomach is so bad so of course I break and eat. Plus I’ve been eating breakfast which fucks me up. Need to stop eating breakfast and stop snacking so much when I get home.

I HAVE to get back on track and lose.

My goal is still 110 by October. It’s gonna be so hard but I have to do it. I can’t stand it. I finally broke my plateau but now I gained up to around 118 and I can’t take this shit I CANT BE FAT ANYMORE. Gonna shoot for 1400 a day and 1-2 hours a week on my bike.

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Posted 09 August 2020 - 11:25 AM

Really wish my scale didn’t quit working. Hard to know if I’m making progress or not :(

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Posted 10 August 2020 - 12:15 PM

Just ordered a new scale. Paid extra for two day shipping, so hoping to have it by Thursday night. Can’t wait to use it but I’m not looking forward to seeing how high the number goes. I know I’ve gained a lot because I just feel so much heavier and I can see it on myself. Looks like I’m pregnant and I don’t like it at all

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Posted 11 August 2020 - 11:46 AM

When he says he loves your collarbones. Lol

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Posted 13 August 2020 - 12:00 PM

My scale should be in today. Guessing my weight is about 122 judging by the fat on my stomach that has been accumulating. Plus my thighs are bigger. I need to measure but I’m so nervous to see how many inches I put on.

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Posted 13 August 2020 - 06:01 PM

119.2. I was close. Fuck that sucks.

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Posted 16 August 2020 - 03:55 PM

Although I have gained...

I was officially diagnosed with Anorexia on Friday. It’s so strange, it feels like validation in a stupid way. I can’t help but be a tiny bit pleased with myself...

Anyway, I have a referral to an ED Center through my hospital. It’s nearly 3 hours away and they’ll be calling back with an appointment date sometime this week. I’m excited to finally have my foot in the door and hopefully I’ll be able to take control and change some things. If it’s meant to be, it’ll be...

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Posted 19 August 2020 - 08:38 AM

Coworker came up to me to tell me she saw this girl we know. She said she’s so skinny and her arms and legs are like sticks and you can see her veins...the pure envy I felt in that moment was disturbing
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Posted 19 August 2020 - 08:46 AM

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Posted 20 August 2020 - 08:32 AM

119.4 yesterday.

Man I’m so sick of being ignored and talked over like it’s driving me up the wall and my anxiety just eats at me.

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Posted 22 August 2020 - 03:57 PM

118.8

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Posted 25 August 2020 - 08:38 AM

118.6
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Posted 02 September 2020 - 04:56 PM

Ughhh I have been awful lately. I feel so flat it’s like I’m numb. And not losing weight is a bitch. Really want to stop taking my medicine.

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Posted 04 September 2020 - 08:38 AM

Got my Fitbit!! Get ready to see results lol I was lost not knowing what I was burning off in a day.
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Posted 08 September 2020 - 11:43 AM

New goal is 110 by November 1st. I realize I cannot achieve my goal of 110 by October 1st at this point and instead of dwelling I’m just going move on and restart. I printed out a checklist and 8 weeks of calorie logs so I can physically record everything and keep it all in one spot. Also stopped taking my meds a few days ago but I’m trying to power through so I don’t give in and lose my progress. I have been gaining since I started taking them so I want to see if it’ll be easier to restrict now.

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Posted 14 September 2020 - 11:45 AM

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Posted 14 September 2020 - 12:29 PM

you got this love!!!! also, i'm trying to avoid pot.... stay strong. b/c once you get back on it it seems like it takes days to get back off... idk at least for me. when you do it you eat too much and then it's totally not even worth it. it will only make you feel worse the next day. stay strong 

 

 

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I got my bike. Starting a new plan TODAY. I won’t be on this thread everyday, but I will try to update weekly.

1000 calories
1 hour of cycling 5 days a week (minimum 5hrs)
Eating hours between 5pm-9pm

No pop
No alcohol
No weed
No more bingeing on junk during weekend
1 day to have a “free day” (Saturday or Sunday)
Chart weight on mfp every Wednesday
Measurements every 6 weeks

Hope I can see some results...


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   CW:110.4 🤮

GW 1:110

GW 2:105

GW 3:100 

GW4:93

LW: 90ish 🖤

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