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Posted 06 April 2020 - 10:45 AM

I sorted through all of my clothes and filled up a box to donate. I’m hoping if there’s someone who needs them, they’ll find at least one of the things and end up liking it. Idk I just hope they’re okay, I have some new shoes as well that I’m going to add. It feels really good to donate, and finally let some of those things go. I have a problem of hoarding clothes for some reason lol, I think it’s from my mom bagging up all of my clothes and saying she was giving them to kids in need, when in reality she was just giving them to the kids of her now husband (home wrecker). Obviously she couldn’t tell my dad and I, since she was cheating on him. My dad is so at peace with things now and I’m really happy about it. It was hard to see him so sad. I try not to let him see it but sometimes it’s easier said than done.
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Posted 06 April 2020 - 12:12 PM

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Posted 06 April 2020 - 07:53 PM

I’m really questioning how much longer I can do this living stuff for

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Posted 07 April 2020 - 05:27 AM

Laying in bed and he sleeps with his hand on my damn hipbone. Idk if he did that before, but I don’t remember if my hipbones were prominent at all. They aren’t really noticeable yet, but I’ll get there. By the end of next week I have to make myself take measurements and body checks.

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Posted 08 April 2020 - 08:32 AM

God I’m struggling so hard. Yesterday I spent time with my dad and convinced myself to toughen up and get over this, can’t be strong doing this. Then late last night I spiraled after thinking about how much I had just eaten. I want to get help but nobody takes me serious because I’m not small. Once I’m finally small enough maybe I’ll be able to get help

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Posted 10 April 2020 - 01:46 PM

117.4 yesterday, wish I would’ve gotten a pic. Anyway I logged into my old instagram just for the heck of it and I think I’m going to try to post there more often too. We’ll see though.

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Posted 11 April 2020 - 12:45 PM

Wait a second I’m 2.4 pounds from my goal weight?! Out of a total of 33lbs. And I still feel like shit lmao I think I lost different this time. Or I must’ve actually weighed less than 115 and just didn’t know it? Idk it doesn’t look the same and it’s driving me crazy.

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Posted 12 April 2020 - 01:19 PM

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Been having such a hard time with this virus messing things up. Can’t wait for things to get better, I’ve been eating out of boredom and then I just feel sluggish.

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Posted 12 April 2020 - 01:20 PM

February 10, 2020 vs. April 10, 2020


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Posted 13 April 2020 - 02:25 PM

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Posted 14 April 2020 - 01:09 PM

My dog hurt his paw playing yesterday. Now he’s in a splint, so I put one of my favorite long socks over it to stop him from pulling on it. He’s been getting treats since he got home from the vet. I can’t wait til he gets to have it off.

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Posted 15 April 2020 - 10:48 AM

Today is my friends 21st. They’re having a small gathering to celebrate since all the bars are closed. Meaning I have to work my ass of just in case I end up drinking. I don’t want to, but when you’re with a group it’s kinda hard not to lol. I’ve been mildly dehydrated these last couple days and if that’s not enough to deter me, my car has a headlight out and I want to get home without getting a dui

Meanwhile I’ve been stuck around 118 for the last 2 weeks so I’m hoping I get myself together. I’ve been so exhausted that I haven’t been exercising as much as I’d like and it really slowed me down.

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Posted 15 April 2020 - 10:57 AM

Took these this morning. I post this as I sit on my bike watching my legs jiggle. Love it lmao.

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Posted 15 April 2020 - 12:45 PM

They need to make it so you can go through and delete your posts on here. It’d be nice to be able to clean things up a bit, especially with duplicates.

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Posted 16 April 2020 - 03:35 PM

I look around and see old classmates getting married, having kids, going to college, having a job they love etc. I’m just over here still focused on the same shit since I was in middle school.

I want to start wedding planning. Part of me doesn’t want to have a ceremony because I hateee being the center of attention and the thought of everyone watching us and taking pictures is terrifying. AND what if my fiancé marries me and finds out he hates it? Or maybe one day he gets sick of my crazy act and can’t put up with it. Idk man

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Posted 16 April 2020 - 04:54 PM

I will be posting body checks as I find them. Which I am working on right now.

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Posted 16 April 2020 - 08:41 PM

Before & Afters


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Posted 16 April 2020 - 09:39 PM

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Posted 16 April 2020 - 09:45 PM

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Posted 17 April 2020 - 07:56 AM

I’ve been stuck at exactly 118 all week long and it’s driving me up the wall. I think I’m gonna switch my gw to 108, and then my ugw to 98. It was 115 but I know I’m not gonna be satisfied with that.


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