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#161 typicaliii

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Posted 08 June 2020 - 02:28 PM

Honestly probably shouldn’t have even weighed myself yet but meh. Been powering through bottles of water and so nauseous. Last night (TMI) started having blood in my pee so I’m not sure. Extremely nauseous and very sharp pain in the top of my abdomen.

On another note...I really want to move away from where I am. I also would like to start reading/writing again. I just want to be able to enjoy doing something again and not be so negative all the time.

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Posted 08 June 2020 - 03:29 PM

HEY

IM 5’6.5 NOW

I can’t believe it! WHAT IF I KEEP GROWING. Omg so exciting. So that means my bmi is about 18.6. Ahhhh
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Posted 09 June 2020 - 07:27 AM

115 on the money

TW suicide/ self harm

Too bad it’s just cause I drank last night. But hell, when don’t I? Last night was bad, I contacted a hotline after I started to sober up from blacking out and ate 9000mg Tylenol. They told me to call poison control, and poison control told my fiancé to call 911. Instead I crawled under the covers and went to bed. The part that has me wondering what’ll happen is the fact I do this weekly, not quite as many mg though. I’m sure I’ll be fine but I’m curious how sick I’ll get.

Yikes!
Please be careful 🙏 your poor liver.
I worry. ❤️
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Posted 09 June 2020 - 07:41 AM

Yikes!
Please be careful your poor liver.
I worry.


Aw. No worries about me, thank you for checking in
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Posted 09 June 2020 - 09:00 AM

Going to say goodbye to my little dog today. Hope my moms husband isn’t there. Don’t feel like seeing that home wrecker. Even his daughters don’t call him dad. Maybe that’s why they moved out to live with their mom forever ago. Hope either my mom and him split up, or my dad gets full custody of my brother by some miracle one day.

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Posted 09 June 2020 - 09:13 AM

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Last week. Going to stop posting the cal log in my notes and keep that just for personal reference. I’ll just post these from Fitbit weekly. More accurate anyways!

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Posted 09 June 2020 - 03:07 PM

118.4

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Posted 09 June 2020 - 03:18 PM

I haven’t eaten since dinner last night yet my stomach feels so miserably full. I just get so tired of this feeling, it hurts and drives me to eat cause I get so nauseous.

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Posted 09 June 2020 - 11:47 PM

Omg stats twins, even down to the half inch 😂

Be so careful with the Tylenol and such, the blood in your urine is concerning!
AYO I'm not ignoring y'all in PMs, it just won't work rn, I'll be back asap lol

^ idk wtf is going on with that but whatever lol ^

 

New Accountability - AKA I was supposed to be getting better but everything just got Worse

 

 

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Doesn't matter where I've been. Only where I am, and where I'm going. Losing until I like how I look and feel satisfied.

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  🌼 HW 156.6 🌼 LW 107.4 🌼 CW idk fucking fat lol 119 I fucking guess?🌼

🌼GW 106 🌼 UGW 97 🌼

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Posted 10 June 2020 - 08:05 AM

Omg stats twins, even down to the half inch

Be so careful with the Tylenol and such, the blood in your urine is concerning!


No way! Dude I was so excited to see I was slightly taller, that half inch is everything I will be okay! Thank you

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Posted 10 June 2020 - 02:19 PM

Soo last night I ended up purging my dinner and kept drinking. Then ate ice cream cause... logic? anyway I lightly biked today and I really have no clue how I used to go for hours and hours. Glad I took advantage of it because I’m hurting after only an hour of light pedaling. Trying to encourage myself so I don’t give up and stop again. A little is better than nothing after all.

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Posted 10 June 2020 - 08:13 PM

117.7

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Posted 11 June 2020 - 02:26 AM

117.4

I know I already updated but it’s my party and— nvm.

Just can’t fall back asleep. He snores next to me and my dog alternates between the corner and my side of the bed. He’s been crying a lot in his sleep so I’ve been waking him up. I wonder what kind of things dogs dream about, and what they sound like since they don’t use words. Lol. He had a tick last night with a huge bullseye around it and I’m afraid he’ll get sick.

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Posted 11 June 2020 - 04:10 PM

117.4 fuck I’m tired got 3 hours of sleep. Woke up at 2 and laid there til 4:30. Then we went on a little walk. My brain is just fuzzy today.

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Posted 14 June 2020 - 11:17 AM

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Posted 14 June 2020 - 02:17 PM

Celebrated my friends birthday last night. We walked to the park and they all sat on the benches and watched me run all over the place doing monkey bars, the fire pole, hanging upside down doing sit-ups, swinging etc then they LEFT after only 20 minutes. So I went and got my man and did it all day over again except he was doing it too lol. Then later I ran the mile across town and went to the other park. Good times, glad nobody knew what I was doing

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Posted 15 June 2020 - 10:50 AM

I forgot. I purged on the way home from the party as well. Ate the top of a muffin and realized I felt full.

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Posted 15 June 2020 - 10:50 AM

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Posted 16 June 2020 - 06:42 AM

Well woke up crying so I know it’ll be a long ass day lmfao why dude

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Posted 16 June 2020 - 11:28 AM

Yes I let myself binge and I don’t even care ha shit, I care so little that I might just keep on and I’ll even be happy about it


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