OMG YALL!! I just bought weight watchers for $23.99 WITH MY OWN DAMN MONEY! I CAN NOT BELIEVE I JUST DID THAT SHIT! YALL IM SO FUCKING EXCITED. I downloaded the weight watchers app a long time ago but once I saw that you had to pay for it I deleted it. I am so excited. Could this app be the app that changes my life forever?!? I weighed myself and I was 118.2. I been struggling with binge eating disorder since September of 2017. Today I had one big ass bowl of fruity pebbles, strawberry ice-cream, a honeybun, a banana marshmallow pie, and a tuna kit with crackers. I am about to document all that damn food into the app. But I have no goal weight. IF I am 127.0 pounds by the end of these 30 days then FUCK IT. Because I really don't give a fuck no more. I was really thinking about suicide all this week and I need something that will make me happy. I want to see if weight watchers brings joy and happiness into my life and if I find peace with food. I didn't purchase the monthly plan to lose fucking weight I did it to find peace with my body and honor my body and if I want food I am going to eat the damn food. I DON'T GIVE A FUCKING FUCK IF I AM 522.6 POUNDS BY THE END OF THESE 30 DAYS. WHY? BECAUSE I WANT TO BE HAPPY. FUCK WEIGHT I LIVE ONCE AND I AM GOING TO EAT WHAT THE FUCK I WANT. "IDGAF IF SOMEBODY WALKS BY ME AND IS LIKE OH WOW SHE GAINED WEIGHT" OR "OH WOW THAT BITCH IS FAT". FUCK THEM I AM LIVING FOR ME. I AM NOT GOING TO WASTE ANOTHER SECOND TO WORRYING ABOUT MY WEIGHT OR WHAT THE FUCK I EAT.
FUCK WEIGHT. I will not be weighing myself until April 15th when the 30 days of weight watchers are completed. I am so excited for this journey.