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Desperate 5kg/11lbs Fast [DONE]


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#1 lavender-coffee

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Posted 29 April 2020 - 05:42 AM

Hey what's up, LaCo here~

 

Basically.... I'm a dumbass. A friend that's losing weight and hasn't seen me in a long time asked me how much I weigh, she guessed ~52kg and my 57.3kg dumbass just agreed and said I'm maintaining. Like the idiot I am. I've recently lost a lot of weight and am kinda stuck right now, so I won't lose weight super quick probably. But I haven't done fasting in a long time, so I'll do that! Because I won't be able to look that friend into the eyes next time if I'm not at that weight and heaven knows how quick we'll see each other again. So yeah, 5kg, as quick as possible, let's go!

 

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Rules:

- drink 1.5L Water a day

- drink at least 0.5L Tea a day, if not more

- coffee is okay, but in little quantities

- minimal working out (I have a dog and walk around 12.000 steps a day anyway and I'm prone to passing out and have epilepsy)

- take supplements

- in dire situations (passing out, seizures, heart issues) juice, fruit snacks, proteine bars, low cal creme soup are allowed

- if I do eat, it'll need to be purged completely and hard work out as punishment

 

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Stats:

SW: 57.3kg/126.3lbs

GW: 52.3kg/115.3lbs

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April 29th: 57.3kg/126.3lbs

April 30th: 56.8kg/125.2lbs

May 01st: 56.3kg/124.1lbs

May 02nd: 55.9kg/123.2lbs

May 03rd: 55.7kg/122.7lbs

May 04th: 55.3kg/121.9lbs

May 05th: 54.8kg/120.8lbs(eating day)

May 06th: 55.1kg/121.4lbs

May 07th: 54.5kg/120.1lbs

May 08th: 54.3kg/119.7lbs

May 09th: 53.5kg/117.9lbs

May 10th: 53.0kg/116.8lbs

May 11th: 52.7kg/116.1lbs

May 12th: 52.2kg/115.0lbs


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PURGING DISORDER

former diagnosis: a-typical anorexia/EDNOS

HW:    89.1kg/196lbs (Aug'16)

LW:     47.4kg/104lbs (Dec'18)

CW:    54.3kg/119lbs (Sep'20)

 

GW: |   60kg/132lbs  |  55kg/121lbs  |  50kg/110lbs  |  45kg/99lbs  |

UGW:    40kg/88lbs

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Posted 29 April 2020 - 05:54 AM

29Apr:

 

CW: 57.3kg/126.3lbs  ||  from yesterday: -0kg/0lbs   ||  total: -0kg/0lbs  ||  left: 5kg/11lbs

 

Water? 

Tea? 

Walked? 

Eaten? X

 

Notes:

Started today, feeling good so far! Hopefully this will get me over this stupid plateau, ever since 59.3kg every 100g has been a struggle...


PURGING DISORDER

former diagnosis: a-typical anorexia/EDNOS

HW:    89.1kg/196lbs (Aug'16)

LW:     47.4kg/104lbs (Dec'18)

CW:    54.3kg/119lbs (Sep'20)

 

GW: |   60kg/132lbs  |  55kg/121lbs  |  50kg/110lbs  |  45kg/99lbs  |

UGW:    40kg/88lbs

Accountability

 

Goals&Rewards:

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I write kinda coldly/harsh, it's because I suck at publicly writing, forgive me ;;


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Posted 30 April 2020 - 05:03 AM

30Apr:

 

CW: 56.8kg/125.2lbs  ||  from yesterday: -0.5kg/1.1lbs   ||  total: -0.5kg/1.1lbs  ||  left: 4.5kg/9.9lbs

 

Water? X

Tea? 

Walked? 

Eaten? X

 

Notes: 

[12:03] aaa HELL YEAH! This was a great decision, 0.5kg after the first day! Tbh I was so scared I wouldn't lose, because I had been stuck for such a long time, but now I'm so PUMPED and MOTIVATED!! I should use this motivation for something, like uni work or studying! But alas, today is a bad mental health day and I feel to anxious to even leave my house, but since I have my dog, I must and so I'm so mentally drained after every walk outside. Mind you, my anxiety is unrelated to my ED or fasting, so no worries. But whoever always says that you need to get outside and moving against anxiety... you're wrong. The only thing that helps me is cozzying up in bed with some good tea, korean YouTube videos (seriously, their production quality is so good and they're not as high energy/bubbly as many western ones) and working on my cosplays. Ahhh, although cosplay work and tailoring does make me insecure about my weight again. However thanks to Corona the Cons have been cancelled/moved this year, so I don't have a deadline... Sad. I looked forward to seeing my friends in May/June. Maybe I'll take some pics on my own out in the town when I'm 45kg?

 

[14:29] Had a 17kcal Latte Macchiato with 0kcal caramel syrup. Kinda mad bc it didn't taste as good as usual :/

But whatever, I just needed something creamy and sweet after feeling so terribly cold recently. Whyyyy and it's also really 'damp' outside from rain and sun. Not my favorite day but I have no food cravings so far.


PURGING DISORDER

former diagnosis: a-typical anorexia/EDNOS

HW:    89.1kg/196lbs (Aug'16)

LW:     47.4kg/104lbs (Dec'18)

CW:    54.3kg/119lbs (Sep'20)

 

GW: |   60kg/132lbs  |  55kg/121lbs  |  50kg/110lbs  |  45kg/99lbs  |

UGW:    40kg/88lbs

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Posted 30 April 2020 - 10:43 AM

From now on I'm gonna comment all my notes throughout the day, updating and editing every time is annoying....

 

[17:43] Finished all the walks for today, I drank only 1L, but if I try to drink more I feel like gagging. Instead I rather drank another tea. It was Hawthorn with lemon, a tea my grandma traditionally makes for christmas. Made me so nostalgic. I miss my family, never thought I say that. I'm stuck in my flat, alone with my dog. A friend comes over once a week to help me shopping. Otherwise just me and MPA rn. Never wrote this much before haha, sad I missed the days of it's peak. But I also wanna take this chance. Shock my family. Last time they saw me I was at 70-75kg maybe? I can't recall. Did they ever see me at my LW? I think only at 58kg. That's why I need to get lower fast! I am not on best terms with my family I'd say, so I want them to worry about me. Is that bad? Probably. Idk, getting disowned from the other side of it makes it all harder... I don't miss the other ones though, they stole my inheritance and can rot in hell : )


PURGING DISORDER

former diagnosis: a-typical anorexia/EDNOS

HW:    89.1kg/196lbs (Aug'16)

LW:     47.4kg/104lbs (Dec'18)

CW:    54.3kg/119lbs (Sep'20)

 

GW: |   60kg/132lbs  |  55kg/121lbs  |  50kg/110lbs  |  45kg/99lbs  |

UGW:    40kg/88lbs

Accountability

 

Goals&Rewards:

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I write kinda coldly/harsh, it's because I suck at publicly writing, forgive me ;;


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Posted 01 May 2020 - 01:24 AM

01May:

 

CW: 56.3kg/124.1lbs  ||  from yesterday: -0.5kg/1.1lbs   ||  total: -1kg/2.2lbs  ||  left: 4kg/8.8lbs

 

Water? 

Tea? 

Walked? 

Eaten? 5 Grapes

 

Notes: 

[08:24] Oh my goddddd, I haven't slept at all and my stomach is killing me. It hurts so much and the hunger pains make me wanna throw up! I ate 5 frozen Grapes, but it didn't stop. I'm in agony, help, what should I do??? Another 0.5kg loss is so amazing though and since my scale measures body fat too, I know it was mostly fat aswell. I still have about 13kg of fat left in my body... Is that a lot? I don't know, I feel dysmorphic because apparently I have a lot of muscle. I don't wanna be muscly, but I'm also not really doing a whole lot aside from walking??? Just cardio??? Urgh, I'm never gonna be cute...


PURGING DISORDER

former diagnosis: a-typical anorexia/EDNOS

HW:    89.1kg/196lbs (Aug'16)

LW:     47.4kg/104lbs (Dec'18)

CW:    54.3kg/119lbs (Sep'20)

 

GW: |   60kg/132lbs  |  55kg/121lbs  |  50kg/110lbs  |  45kg/99lbs  |

UGW:    40kg/88lbs

Accountability

 

Goals&Rewards:

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I write kinda coldly/harsh, it's because I suck at publicly writing, forgive me ;;


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Posted 01 May 2020 - 01:32 AM

You should definitely add some broth ! Broth is like 5 calories per cup and helps with the nausea and the headaches ! And don't worry about your muscles, a long fast burns fat and muscles too, so at the end of the fast you will have lost a lot of muscles. I'm sure it's not 13 kg of pure fat ? 

I'm in the exact same place that you right now, just started a week long fast to get to my GW, so keep going! We can do it ^-^


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Posted 01 May 2020 - 04:49 AM

You should definitely add some broth ! Broth is like 5 calories per cup and helps with the nausea and the headaches ! And don't worry about your muscles, a long fast burns fat and muscles too, so at the end of the fast you will have lost a lot of muscles. I'm sure it's not 13 kg of pure fat ? 

I'm in the exact same place that you right now, just started a week long fast to get to my GW, so keep going! We can do it ^-^

Thanks for the tip, it helped a lot against the nausea! Luckily found some still in my cellar, haha. Nervous that the salt will make me retain water, but that's BS, no? >_>

No, definitely, I kinda look forward to ''bulking down''. I don't know if it's pure fat, I just had my body fat percentage (23.1%) and calculated it backwards, so idk). I don't care too much about the fat and muscle, it just calms me down when I see those numbers changing, even when I'm at a plateau.

Oh, great to see! I'm gonna follow you along~

Good Luck : D


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PURGING DISORDER

former diagnosis: a-typical anorexia/EDNOS

HW:    89.1kg/196lbs (Aug'16)

LW:     47.4kg/104lbs (Dec'18)

CW:    54.3kg/119lbs (Sep'20)

 

GW: |   60kg/132lbs  |  55kg/121lbs  |  50kg/110lbs  |  45kg/99lbs  |

UGW:    40kg/88lbs

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Posted 01 May 2020 - 06:13 AM

Thanks for the tip, it helped a lot against the nausea! Luckily found some still in my cellar, haha. Nervous that the salt will make me retain water, but that's BS, no? >_>

No, definitely, I kinda look forward to ''bulking down''. I don't know if it's pure fat, I just had my body fat percentage (23.1%) and calculated it backwards, so idk). I don't care too much about the fat and muscle, it just calms me down when I see those numbers changing, even when I'm at a plateau.

Oh, great to see! I'm gonna follow you along~

Good Luck : D

 

You won't retain water if you drink enough water throughout the day, don't worry 

I'm the same, I don't really care about fat and muscles, as long as the weight decreases

Ty !!


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Posted 01 May 2020 - 08:45 AM

[15:40] Oh wow, that broth actually did wonders, holy shit, thanks Alice! I was pretty afraid of water weight, but 2 hours after drinking it, I was already back down to 56.3kg, so nothing to worry, I guess. And now I feel really good and am getting that fasting high slowly (thank god the grapes didn't break that). Also done the tea and halfway through the water! My friend is supposed to help me shopping tomorrow, but I still have enough food anyway if I'm not gonna eat for a week or so anyway, so I guess it can wait. I'm kinda wondering what I'll do after this fast... Probably try to maintain for a bit. If I can do that and then lose the last 2.3kg in May, I'll be pretty happy.


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PURGING DISORDER

former diagnosis: a-typical anorexia/EDNOS

HW:    89.1kg/196lbs (Aug'16)

LW:     47.4kg/104lbs (Dec'18)

CW:    54.3kg/119lbs (Sep'20)

 

GW: |   60kg/132lbs  |  55kg/121lbs  |  50kg/110lbs  |  45kg/99lbs  |

UGW:    40kg/88lbs

Accountability

 

Goals&Rewards:

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Posted 02 May 2020 - 03:32 AM

02May:

 

CW: 55.9kg/123.2lbs  ||  from yesterday: -0.4kg/0.9lbs   ||  total: -1.4kg/3.1lbs  ||  left: 3.6kg/7.9lbs

 

Water? 

Tea? 

Walked? 

Eaten? X

 

Notes: 

[10:32] Today is gonna be a lazy day, I guess. I already did all the housework and am pretty exhausted. I'm probably gonna spend my day listening to YouTube videos and documentarie, while online shopping. I really miss walking around the shopping center. I'm mainly looking on drugstore sides, looking for proteinbars to try out or better supplements. I made the 'mistake' to look at clothing stores yesterday and it triggered me badly. Just wishing for having started earlier so that I could be at my GW already, I would have loved to spend spring in those cute clothes. I feel bad, but happy to finally being on that 55kg! Almost halfway done with the higher 50s.


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PURGING DISORDER

former diagnosis: a-typical anorexia/EDNOS

HW:    89.1kg/196lbs (Aug'16)

LW:     47.4kg/104lbs (Dec'18)

CW:    54.3kg/119lbs (Sep'20)

 

GW: |   60kg/132lbs  |  55kg/121lbs  |  50kg/110lbs  |  45kg/99lbs  |

UGW:    40kg/88lbs

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Posted 02 May 2020 - 07:06 AM

[10:32] Oh no, this is bad. I feel super bloated and in order to not help that apparently, I decided to make some miso soup, which I usually love, but without seaweed, tofu or mirin, it was so dissapointing and now I just feel so.... bloated, but still so hungry. I really wanna eat rn. It's only been 4 days, get your shit together, stomach urghhh... But also I'm supposed to get my period in the next couple days, so probably that. Not ideal during fasting. And to trigger me further, the friend this all stems from and that I ranted about here  just called me fat??? Idk she jokingly said 'let's be fat ass friends' and now I feel like crying, but so guilty for wanting to eat. She's my best friend and not mean at all, but fuck you, I weigh over 40kg less than you, we're not the same.


PURGING DISORDER

former diagnosis: a-typical anorexia/EDNOS

HW:    89.1kg/196lbs (Aug'16)

LW:     47.4kg/104lbs (Dec'18)

CW:    54.3kg/119lbs (Sep'20)

 

GW: |   60kg/132lbs  |  55kg/121lbs  |  50kg/110lbs  |  45kg/99lbs  |

UGW:    40kg/88lbs

Accountability

 

Goals&Rewards:

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I write kinda coldly/harsh, it's because I suck at publicly writing, forgive me ;;


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Posted 02 May 2020 - 09:48 AM

[16:42] My dudes, I feel like dying and so bloated. I'm so cold and hungry and headache and I miss purging, urghhhh... just wanna cry like a kid rn. I'm gonna make it to 8pm and then take some melatonin and sleep the day away. I just have such a feeling that I won't lose weight today/tomorrow, I didn't go to the toilet enough, although I had minimal BM today? Tried exercising, but I barely finished today's big walks, before feeling like my head was gonna explode. So a no on that. Urgh. I try to not expect too much from tomorrow, but it's hard because it'll feel like a wasted fast day, even if it's not. And so a lazy day turned into a depressed day.


PURGING DISORDER

former diagnosis: a-typical anorexia/EDNOS

HW:    89.1kg/196lbs (Aug'16)

LW:     47.4kg/104lbs (Dec'18)

CW:    54.3kg/119lbs (Sep'20)

 

GW: |   60kg/132lbs  |  55kg/121lbs  |  50kg/110lbs  |  45kg/99lbs  |

UGW:    40kg/88lbs

Accountability

 

Goals&Rewards:

Spoiler

I write kinda coldly/harsh, it's because I suck at publicly writing, forgive me ;;


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Posted 03 May 2020 - 02:55 AM

03May:

 

CW: 55.7kg/122.7lbs  ||  from yesterday: -0.2kg/0.5lbs   ||  total: -1.6kg/3.6lbs  ||  left: 3.4kg/7.4lbs

 

Water? 

Tea?  

Walked? 

Eaten? X

 

Notes: 

[09:55] Yeah, didn't lose as much, but still lost! I was so scared to see the 56kg again. I feel a lot better today, no cravings so far and more energetic. I'm gonna allow myself some energy drink today and get shit done. Might not write as much though. Also noticed that I'm now exactly 10lbs away from my LW. Should be doable in May, no? I'm also gonna cross the GW of 55 off now, as I feel stable in it. I don't want to go below 40kg, so idk why I stuck to that 'I'm gonna cross it off once I'm 54' idk having the pounds there too confuses me lol


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PURGING DISORDER

former diagnosis: a-typical anorexia/EDNOS

HW:    89.1kg/196lbs (Aug'16)

LW:     47.4kg/104lbs (Dec'18)

CW:    54.3kg/119lbs (Sep'20)

 

GW: |   60kg/132lbs  |  55kg/121lbs  |  50kg/110lbs  |  45kg/99lbs  |

UGW:    40kg/88lbs

Accountability

 

Goals&Rewards:

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I write kinda coldly/harsh, it's because I suck at publicly writing, forgive me ;;


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Posted 03 May 2020 - 09:32 AM

[16:32] I'm indeed very busy today and that energy drink was a great idea! It made me really full and concentrated. As a uni student I usually live off of that stuff, so having it again after a long time felt great. Overall I got a lot of uni work done, listening to Podcasts and working some digital molecule models. Why do I get organic chemistry so much better than anorganic chemistry?!

 

Anyway another great news: My favorite leather jacket fits comfortably again! I'm so happy!! Recently it's been a lot colder here in germany again and I left my scarf at my mom's house 200km away. The jacket's zipper broke and the buttons always snapped open when I moved too much, which made me feel incredibly fat. But now I can comfortably wear it again without anything snapping open, even if the zipper is broken! Woohoo! It's such a nice jacket that both hides weightloss, yet also makes me look slim. I wore it a lot at my LW. Guuuuuiiiiiseeee I could cry from happiness, I felt so confident when I walked my dog today!


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PURGING DISORDER

former diagnosis: a-typical anorexia/EDNOS

HW:    89.1kg/196lbs (Aug'16)

LW:     47.4kg/104lbs (Dec'18)

CW:    54.3kg/119lbs (Sep'20)

 

GW: |   60kg/132lbs  |  55kg/121lbs  |  50kg/110lbs  |  45kg/99lbs  |

UGW:    40kg/88lbs

Accountability

 

Goals&Rewards:

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I write kinda coldly/harsh, it's because I suck at publicly writing, forgive me ;;


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Posted 04 May 2020 - 03:06 AM

04May:

 

CW: 55.3kg/121.9lbs  ||  from yesterday: -0.4kg/0.8lbs   ||  total: -2kg/4.4lbs  ||  left: 3kg/6.6lbs

 

Water? 

Tea?  

Walked? 

Eaten? X

 

Notes: 

[10:06] Aaaand passed the 2kg mark =D So glad I didn't gain. This is now officially my longest fast, but I need to take a break soon, probably. Yesterday evening and this morning I barely managed to walk up the stairs and I somewhat passed out this morning after the walk (not fully unconcious, but so light headed my legs gave in and no vision. Yikes). My mind also feels really fuzzy and I can't concentrate, but that might come from yesterday evening's breakdown. But I wanna make it till tomorrow, so I have officially done a week of it. So I guess I'll have an eating day tomorrow and then continue? Don't know, but I can't do this another week. Unless by some miracle I start to feel super good, it's not worth it. Rather have a food day and then do another week to lose the rest. C'mon, only 2.4kg until I'm in the 52s and no longer a liar.


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PURGING DISORDER

former diagnosis: a-typical anorexia/EDNOS

HW:    89.1kg/196lbs (Aug'16)

LW:     47.4kg/104lbs (Dec'18)

CW:    54.3kg/119lbs (Sep'20)

 

GW: |   60kg/132lbs  |  55kg/121lbs  |  50kg/110lbs  |  45kg/99lbs  |

UGW:    40kg/88lbs

Accountability

 

Goals&Rewards:

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I write kinda coldly/harsh, it's because I suck at publicly writing, forgive me ;;


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Posted 04 May 2020 - 04:36 AM

[11:36] Had some broth and milk tea, let's see if that helps...


PURGING DISORDER

former diagnosis: a-typical anorexia/EDNOS

HW:    89.1kg/196lbs (Aug'16)

LW:     47.4kg/104lbs (Dec'18)

CW:    54.3kg/119lbs (Sep'20)

 

GW: |   60kg/132lbs  |  55kg/121lbs  |  50kg/110lbs  |  45kg/99lbs  |

UGW:    40kg/88lbs

Accountability

 

Goals&Rewards:

Spoiler

I write kinda coldly/harsh, it's because I suck at publicly writing, forgive me ;;


#17 lavender-coffee

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Posted 04 May 2020 - 08:21 AM

[15:21] Nope. Still feel like shit. Yeah, I'm gonna eat tomorrow and break the fast. I'm fairly optimistic tho that I will keep going afterwards. I'll only eat safe food too though. I'll start with a potato cream soup (holy shit, my starved brain just wrote soap 3 times), frozen grapes, some fruit cocktail I have left over, maybe some oatmeal. I feel hungry for these foods, but my brain tells me I'm just bored. Yeah, not like I haven't eaten in over 6 days now, but ok. ED brain rules.

 

Can we also quickly talk about how much 'slow' weightloss sucks when you come from an obese BMI? Like back when I was at my HW (almost 90kg!/196lbs), I could easily lose at the same rate as me fasting now (hell, even higher, 0.6kg was common too), and I still ate one meal a day back then. Now it feels like I struggle for every gram and need to suffer so much more. I still had an eating disorder, when I eat that one meal, but at least I lost so much quicker! Frustrating!


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PURGING DISORDER

former diagnosis: a-typical anorexia/EDNOS

HW:    89.1kg/196lbs (Aug'16)

LW:     47.4kg/104lbs (Dec'18)

CW:    54.3kg/119lbs (Sep'20)

 

GW: |   60kg/132lbs  |  55kg/121lbs  |  50kg/110lbs  |  45kg/99lbs  |

UGW:    40kg/88lbs

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#18 Alice756

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Posted 04 May 2020 - 08:37 AM

I feel you. It's almost impossible to lose weight when you are at the lower range of a normal BMI or underweight. I remember that when I was at my HW it was soooo easy to lose weight, I could fast for 3 days and lose like 3kg, I could restrict to 1600 calories and had a decent weight loss in the morning ! Now I struggle so much to lose a kg. And it's so annoying when you have more then 10 kg to go ^^ But at least we still lose some weight. 

Enjoy your meal tomorrow, you earned it, and I'm sure it will boost the weight loss ! You have lost so much weight, and your willpower is impressive <3


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Posted 04 May 2020 - 10:16 AM

I feel you. It's almost impossible to lose weight when you are at the lower range of a normal BMI or underweight. I remember that when I was at my HW it was soooo easy to lose weight, I could fast for 3 days and lose like 3kg, I could restrict to 1600 calories and had a decent weight loss in the morning ! Now I struggle so much to lose a kg. And it's so annoying when you have more then 10 kg to go ^^ But at least we still lose some weight. 

Enjoy your meal tomorrow, you earned it, and I'm sure it will boost the weight loss ! You have lost so much weight, and your willpower is impressive <3

Aw, thank you so much, I hope so too! And yeah, my current mindset is that a loss is a loss, my recently highest weight was 69kg, so I just have to expect it to slow down anyway


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PURGING DISORDER

former diagnosis: a-typical anorexia/EDNOS

HW:    89.1kg/196lbs (Aug'16)

LW:     47.4kg/104lbs (Dec'18)

CW:    54.3kg/119lbs (Sep'20)

 

GW: |   60kg/132lbs  |  55kg/121lbs  |  50kg/110lbs  |  45kg/99lbs  |

UGW:    40kg/88lbs

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Posted 05 May 2020 - 01:57 AM

05May: EATING DAY

 

CW: 54.8kg/120.8lbs  ||  from yesterday: -0.5kg/1.1lbs   ||  total: -2.5kg/5.5lbs  ||  left: 2.5kg/5.5lbs

 

Water? 

Tea?  

Walked? 

Eaten? - 218kcal curry-potato soup

       - 414kcal cinammon bread

       - 134kcal grapes

       - 24kcal lemon

       - 190kcal soba noodles with pesto

    total: 980kcal

 

Notes: 

[08:57] OHHHH HALFWAY MARK! One week is up! I'm exhausted and am glad to get to eat today. I swear, I was so close to binging yesterday evening, only the 'tomorrow you can eat' got me through it. So yeah, I'm gonna update what I'll eat today. Currently I have around 1000kcal of light food planned, to just recover a bit and then hopefully not gain aside from food weight. Let's see!


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PURGING DISORDER

former diagnosis: a-typical anorexia/EDNOS

HW:    89.1kg/196lbs (Aug'16)

LW:     47.4kg/104lbs (Dec'18)

CW:    54.3kg/119lbs (Sep'20)

 

GW: |   60kg/132lbs  |  55kg/121lbs  |  50kg/110lbs  |  45kg/99lbs  |

UGW:    40kg/88lbs

Accountability

 

Goals&Rewards:

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I write kinda coldly/harsh, it's because I suck at publicly writing, forgive me ;;



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