What age did you first start trying to lose weight? (TW)
Posted 28 June 2020 - 02:57 PM
Posted 28 June 2020 - 05:42 PM
I was diagnosed for the first time at 11 years old. But my disordered habits didn't really begin to get out of control until I was about 15-16 when I was in my junior year of high school and discovered ED instagram and forums...
“Clocks slay time… time is dead as long as it is being clicked off by
little wheels; only when the clock stops does time come to life.”
Posted 28 June 2020 - 09:18 PM
Around 14-15 ish. Grade 10 was when shit really took off
5'6" | 21 yrs old | female
[hw] 156 lbs
[cw] 156 lbs
[gw 1] 140 lbs
[gw 2] 135 lbs
[gw 3] 130 lbs
[ugw] 125 lbs
"I desire the things which will destroy me in the end".
Posted 29 June 2020 - 07:05 PM
I remember then that I went back to school clothes shopping with my mom and tried some of my new clothes on that night. I was wearing a pretty tight purple shirt. When I saw myself in it, I started sobbing hysterically because I "looked fat." I remember my mom and sister telling me I had a great bod and didn't look fat AT ALL. It didn't matter. I was fucked up by then.
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Posted 29 June 2020 - 10:31 PM
Posted 30 June 2020 - 12:59 AM
i was around 7 or 8 and i realised i was bigger then everyone else (not even by much lmaoo) and trying to lose weight but of course that never worked. around 7th grade i started dieting and actually losing weight
Posted 30 June 2020 - 09:59 AM
For me, it was when I was about 8. I would try to see how long I could go without eating, though I usually couldn't make it to the one day mark. When I was closer to 10, I was much more serious about losing weight and being thinner, where I would restrict heavily or fast throughout the day, and then binge when I got home from school. I remember feeling disappointed and disgusted with myself when I would eat too much, and feeling 'stronger' and less self-critical when I was hungry or when I hadn't eaten yet for the day.
It's been a rollercoaster of highs and lows in terms of my relationship with food and my body since then.
Posted 30 June 2020 - 10:06 AM
12-13, I didn't realize I could do something actively about it until then and my family always eats together so if would be very noticable up until then to just not have meals
GW2: 65kg (BMI: 20,1)
GW3: 60kg (BMI: 18.5)
UGW: 55kg (BMI: 17,0)
Posted 30 June 2020 - 10:20 AM
I pretty much always wanted to lose weight throughout my early to mid teens but after constantly being told "ah you're just big boned" I accepted the fact that i'd never be thin. At 18 I got a nose job and thought okay I just spent $$$$$ on my nose yet can't even lose weight for free. I'd always failed in the past but I tried again and this time I was successful, initially it was cutting out a few "bad foods" and then I learned about calories and the rest is history.
Posted 01 July 2020 - 07:43 PM
For me I was around 13 years old. I had just started secondary school and I was much bigger than all the pretty, slim older girls, so I stopped eating my favorite foods that were unhealthy and started counting calories. Eventually the next year I joined track and field and all the running we did made me lose soo much fat and tone up my muscles. That plus drinking tons of water daily shaped me up. Sadly I ruined it the year after that and lost my good habits.
Posted 01 July 2020 - 10:05 PM
10 or 11, though it became a full blown ED when I was 12
“If you look in the mirror and don’t like what you see, you can find out first-hand what it’s like to be me”
Don't mind me, just cruisin' in the ocean of identity finding, all while trying to lose a fuck ton of weight.
: Diagnosis :
Weight: 159 lbs ( BMI 23.9)
GW 1: 150 lbs
GW 2: 135 lbs
GW 3: 115 lbs
GW 4: 100 lbs
GW 5: 95 lbs
UGW: 85 lbs / death(?)
They / Them / Theirs
:Goal Body Features:
Posted 01 July 2020 - 10:23 PM
I'm almost 21 now, it makes me sad.
Posted 02 July 2020 - 06:51 AM
When I was 11. I think I was 135 lbs then? That was the first time I started using disordered methods. Mainly I restricted and sometimes *attempted* to purge but I just failed lolol
5’6" // 17 // A hungry hungry hippo
HW: 142 lbs (disgusting)
CW: 108 lbs (not as disgusting)
UGW: 90 lbs (better)~ not my first account ~
Posted 02 July 2020 - 05:14 PM
"Feels like a lifetime, just trying to get by while we're dying inside.
I've done a lot of things wrong, loving you being one
But I can't move on." -July, Noah Cyrus
Posted 02 July 2020 - 05:20 PM
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