I am 11 weeks and never imagined I would be at a BMI of 35.5, let alone when I was pregnant.
I got down to 10.5 stone four years ago (that’s probably still huge for loads of you I know but it felt amazing to me). When I got with my boyfriend he didn’t want me to restrict anymore so I stopped and started going to the gym. I was going 5-6 times a week and finally felt like food was balanced.
two years ago I started a law degree on top of my full time job which was hell on earth and left me with zero time to do anything other than read. I didn’t have time to food shop, let alone go to the gym. I made the decision to leave my job in February to finish the last part of my degree and get myself back down to a healthy weight. But then a close friend was killed in a car crash, I found out I was pregnant and then the pandemic truly hit the UK and I was terrified to go outside. For the last 7 weeks I have only left the house 4 or 5 times, which has not helped my weight at all.
I’m now disgusted with myself and can’t believe that I wasted all my hard work and restricting to end up like this. I have cried a lot today. I feel disgusting and broken and can’t believe that on top of this I still have to finish my law degree which feels pointless given that I will now never become a barrister because of the baby.
sorry for ranting. I am just really broken and sad and can’t find any support groups for pregnant women with high BMIs so I came back here. Any advice for losing weight whilst pregnant is welcome. So far today I have had Greek yoghurt with blueberries and honey for breakfast and some baked beans and cheese on a small ciabatta.
