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#1 *~pixie angelheart~*

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Posted 29 May 2020 - 08:01 PM

The title says it all. I'm back here for support, and in return, I'll provide support to others as best I can. If you want more details, they're in my profile... I hope there are still some people here who remember me! A lot has happened in my life in the past year+, but I don't want to go into all of it right here and now. I'll probably start an accountability in the next few days and will eventually post all of my latest life details there... 

 

Love to all,

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55-years-old

5'5"

  Current BMI: "Normal" (i.e., FAT!)

 

Usual ED Diagnosis: 

AN (restricting type)

 

 

Lowest Adult Weight: 87 lbs (BMI 14.5)

HW: 165 lbs (pregnancy)

GW: 90 lbs (BMI 15)

 

~accountability~

https://www.myproana.com/index.php/topic/4037131-angelhearts-hope-refusing-to-give-up-pics//

 

~pics~

https://www.myproana.com/index.php/gallery/album/5861-pics-of-me/


#2 thinstrument

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Posted 30 May 2020 - 12:50 AM

ANGEL πŸ’œβ€οΈπŸ’œβ€οΈ

Hugs and light to you!!!
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#3 *~pixie angelheart~*

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Posted 30 May 2020 - 03:16 PM

ANGEL ❀❀

Hugs and light to you!!!

 

Thank you, hon...  :wub:  I hope you're doing well!


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55-years-old

5'5"

  Current BMI: "Normal" (i.e., FAT!)

 

Usual ED Diagnosis: 

AN (restricting type)

 

 

Lowest Adult Weight: 87 lbs (BMI 14.5)

HW: 165 lbs (pregnancy)

GW: 90 lbs (BMI 15)

 

~accountability~

https://www.myproana.com/index.php/topic/4037131-angelhearts-hope-refusing-to-give-up-pics//

 

~pics~

https://www.myproana.com/index.php/gallery/album/5861-pics-of-me/


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Posted 31 May 2020 - 09:24 PM

I remember you well. I haven’t been here in ages but I’m glad I just came on, I’m very interested to hear how things are going for you. A lot has changed for me too...I hope you’re ok. It’s SO good to see you here. Hugs!
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#5 back_to_skinny

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Posted 31 May 2020 - 11:31 PM

Welcome back! I haven't actively interacted with you but I've come across some of your inspirational threads here and enjoyed reading them. You're one of the members I look up to here (as you're a skinny mum). Long story short, I gladly support you!


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Posted 02 June 2020 - 10:01 PM

I remember you too. Good to see a familiar "face" as I haven't been here for a while, either.
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#7 AmethystAna

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Posted 04 June 2020 - 08:54 PM

Hi, I am back after an extended absence too. I also relate to a lot of your profile btw.


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#8 *~pixie angelheart~*

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Posted 08 July 2020 - 06:16 PM

Please forgive me for not replying to everyone. I've been lurking a lot, but I've struggled to post anything because I feel so hopeless about my current situation.  :( Dealing with chronic pain and fatigue every single day for the last 16 months or so has sucked all the hope out of me, and the longer I stay at my current body size, the more hopeless I feel. The question is, am I really as hopeless as I feel? I mean, I may have to deal with the pain and fatigue for the rest of my life, but do I really have to stay at this size??? I've been in some sort of limbo about how to tackle all of this. I've got a lot working against me, but I just can't give up. I refuse!


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55-years-old

5'5"

  Current BMI: "Normal" (i.e., FAT!)

 

Usual ED Diagnosis: 

AN (restricting type)

 

 

Lowest Adult Weight: 87 lbs (BMI 14.5)

HW: 165 lbs (pregnancy)

GW: 90 lbs (BMI 15)

 

~accountability~

https://www.myproana.com/index.php/topic/4037131-angelhearts-hope-refusing-to-give-up-pics//

 

~pics~

https://www.myproana.com/index.php/gallery/album/5861-pics-of-me/


#9 WhatsToLose

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Posted 09 July 2020 - 02:58 PM

I'm right there with you. Same feelings.

 

Please forgive me for not replying to everyone. I've been lurking a lot, but I've struggled to post anything because I feel so hopeless about my current situation.  :( Dealing with chronic pain and fatigue every single day for the last 16 months or so has sucked all the hope out of me, and the longer I stay at my current body size, the more hopeless I feel. The question is, am I really as hopeless as I feel? I mean, I may have to deal with the pain and fatigue for the rest of my life, but do I really have to stay at this size??? I've been in some sort of limbo about how to tackle all of this. I've got a lot working against me, but I just can't give up. I refuse!


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Will never go to ER. Don't ever suggest it.

 

 
 
 

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Posted 09 July 2020 - 05:01 PM

I'm right there with you. Same feelings.

 

(((((WTL))))) I'm sorry to hear this, hon. I believe we can rise above all the things that try to hold us back, though! WE CAN! I REFUSE to give up hope!  :)   


55-years-old

5'5"

  Current BMI: "Normal" (i.e., FAT!)

 

Usual ED Diagnosis: 

AN (restricting type)

 

 

Lowest Adult Weight: 87 lbs (BMI 14.5)

HW: 165 lbs (pregnancy)

GW: 90 lbs (BMI 15)

 

~accountability~

https://www.myproana.com/index.php/topic/4037131-angelhearts-hope-refusing-to-give-up-pics//

 

~pics~

https://www.myproana.com/index.php/gallery/album/5861-pics-of-me/


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Posted 10 July 2020 - 11:31 AM

Oh Angel sorry to hear your struggling... struggling too hence popping back but again mostly lurking...

Think I will join the accountability today... need to get some motivation from somewhere πŸ™
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#12 *~pixie angelheart~*

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Posted 10 July 2020 - 07:37 PM

Oh Angel sorry to hear your struggling... struggling too hence popping back but again mostly lurking...

Think I will join the accountability today... need to get some motivation from somewhere

 

(((((Marybetty))))) It's so good to hear from you, although I'm sorry to hear that you're struggling, too!  :(


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55-years-old

5'5"

  Current BMI: "Normal" (i.e., FAT!)

 

Usual ED Diagnosis: 

AN (restricting type)

 

 

Lowest Adult Weight: 87 lbs (BMI 14.5)

HW: 165 lbs (pregnancy)

GW: 90 lbs (BMI 15)

 

~accountability~

https://www.myproana.com/index.php/topic/4037131-angelhearts-hope-refusing-to-give-up-pics//

 

~pics~

https://www.myproana.com/index.php/gallery/album/5861-pics-of-me/


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Posted 21 July 2020 - 05:48 AM

Hugs angelheart! I am new to this forum but have come across some of your previous posts and have found comfort. Looking forward to getting to know you and others. I am so sorry to hear you are struggling. Hang in there!
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Last starting weight: 130
β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”
Current weight: 109.5
β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”
Goal weight 1= 110
Goal weight 2= 105
Goal weight 3= 100

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Posted 21 July 2020 - 11:43 AM

Hugs angelheart! I am new to this forum but have come across some of your previous posts and have found comfort. Looking forward to getting to know you and others. I am so sorry to hear you are struggling. Hang in there!

 

Awww, thank you so much!  :wub:  


55-years-old

5'5"

  Current BMI: "Normal" (i.e., FAT!)

 

Usual ED Diagnosis: 

AN (restricting type)

 

 

Lowest Adult Weight: 87 lbs (BMI 14.5)

HW: 165 lbs (pregnancy)

GW: 90 lbs (BMI 15)

 

~accountability~

https://www.myproana.com/index.php/topic/4037131-angelhearts-hope-refusing-to-give-up-pics//

 

~pics~

https://www.myproana.com/index.php/gallery/album/5861-pics-of-me/


#15 AmethystAna

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Posted 21 July 2020 - 10:35 PM

I know it is a struggle but we can do it together. Don’t hesitate to send me a message if you like.


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Posted 22 July 2020 - 02:32 PM

I know it is a struggle but we can do it together. Don’t hesitate to send me a message if you like.

 

Yes, we can! Thank you!  :wub:


55-years-old

5'5"

  Current BMI: "Normal" (i.e., FAT!)

 

Usual ED Diagnosis: 

AN (restricting type)

 

 

Lowest Adult Weight: 87 lbs (BMI 14.5)

HW: 165 lbs (pregnancy)

GW: 90 lbs (BMI 15)

 

~accountability~

https://www.myproana.com/index.php/topic/4037131-angelhearts-hope-refusing-to-give-up-pics//

 

~pics~

https://www.myproana.com/index.php/gallery/album/5861-pics-of-me/


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Posted 09 August 2020 - 06:36 PM

Hi Angel, just checking in to see how you are doing?
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Last starting weight: 130
β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”
Current weight: 109.5
β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”
Goal weight 1= 110
Goal weight 2= 105
Goal weight 3= 100

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Posted 09 August 2020 - 06:55 PM

Thank you for asking, hon.  :wub:  To be honest, I'm not doing great, either physically or mentally, but I'm hanging in there...  :unsure:


55-years-old

5'5"

  Current BMI: "Normal" (i.e., FAT!)

 

Usual ED Diagnosis: 

AN (restricting type)

 

 

Lowest Adult Weight: 87 lbs (BMI 14.5)

HW: 165 lbs (pregnancy)

GW: 90 lbs (BMI 15)

 

~accountability~

https://www.myproana.com/index.php/topic/4037131-angelhearts-hope-refusing-to-give-up-pics//

 

~pics~

https://www.myproana.com/index.php/gallery/album/5861-pics-of-me/


#19 thinstrument

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Posted 09 August 2020 - 08:10 PM

I'm always happy to see you posting though. Hugs!!


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Posted 10 August 2020 - 08:20 AM

Angel- so sorry to hear that!! If you need to talk about anything we are here. Hugs to you and lots of warm thoughts coming your way. Hang in there.
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Last starting weight: 130
β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”
Current weight: 109.5
β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”
Goal weight 1= 110
Goal weight 2= 105
Goal weight 3= 100


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