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#1 Opposite of Alive

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Posted 08 June 2020 - 03:35 PM

Wow this nausea business is no joke.
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Posted 08 June 2020 - 03:38 PM

i want to purge but i also don't want to die from throwing up some fricking cookies and mess up my teeth anymore


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#3 Jolie_swims

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Posted 08 June 2020 - 03:43 PM

I seriously got a 2 day stomach ache and threw up after I tried so hard not to throw up from bingeing because I didn’t want my mom to know I was purging.  At least when I did throw up it wasn’t forced or anything so I could tell my mom that I had a stomach ache or virus, I don’t even know, and she doesn’t think I have bulimia.  Now, I’m too scared to purge in my house so I think I’m going to stop but I’m pretty sure one day I’ll relapse.  


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#4 LovelyDevo

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Posted 08 June 2020 - 07:34 PM

I wonder what I should purge tomorrow.
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Posted 08 June 2020 - 08:16 PM

“Do I purge by exercising or by vomiting? Do I purge by exercising or by vomiting? Do I purge by exercising or by vomiting? Do I-“ and now a compulsion is overtaking me and I want to do both.
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Posted 08 June 2020 - 08:22 PM

What am I going to binge on next?


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Posted 08 June 2020 - 09:34 PM

I want to scream and cry and stop feeling useless but I don’t have anyone to rely on emotionally so instead I’m gonna use a gallon of ice cream and a gallon of milk to make a ton of milkshakes and sadvom it all into a garbage bag
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Posted 08 June 2020 - 09:56 PM

i've been at a plateau for like weeks now and i fasted all day and nothing changed. so now im eating taco bell and im still at a deficit and im so tired i don't even know if it's worth purging. but i wanna cause i wanna get out this damn plateau. thinking about taking laxatives tomroow


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Posted 09 June 2020 - 10:58 AM

I have to poop but have a phone interview in exactly two minutes....


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Posted 09 June 2020 - 11:04 AM

i wish i lived alone so i wouldnt have to wait with purging


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#11 IveMissedThis

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Posted 09 June 2020 - 11:56 AM

Sometimes I feel like I can purge really well and everything comes up and other times it feels like I’m mostly purging liquid and fucking up... whyyyyyyyyyy
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Posted 09 June 2020 - 01:25 PM

I was recovering for the most part for the past 2 months but completely relapsed 2 weeks ago, i feel gross for missing the feeling purging gives me and i also feel gross from gaining weight due to not purging.

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Posted 09 June 2020 - 02:17 PM

I think i've reached at the moment my peak level of weight loss even though i've only lost like 20 pounds (since january) but what if i'll be stuck like this forever :// 

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Posted 09 June 2020 - 02:36 PM

i have so much tooth damage thanks to this horrible disease but i still love it like a bestfriend


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#15 IveMissedThis

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Posted 09 June 2020 - 04:57 PM

Death seems so tempting
And other then self hatred around food and my body my life is about as perfect as it could get
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#16 Opposite of Alive

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Posted 13 June 2020 - 01:00 AM

Puked. But still nauseous like no this is not how it’s supposed work. What tf is happening. Is my body broken or something.

#17 Plasticity

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Posted 13 June 2020 - 01:54 AM

Do I take my sleeping pills or eat 10 pancakes


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#18 activecheesecake

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Posted 13 June 2020 - 02:01 AM

“Do I purge by exercising or by vomiting? Do I purge by exercising or by vomiting? Do I purge by exercising or by vomiting? Do I-“ and now a compulsion is overtaking me and I want to do both.

 

I purge like 3/4 of it through vomiting and exercise the rest off lol 


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#19 Opposite of Alive

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Posted 13 June 2020 - 03:13 AM

Do I take my sleeping pills or eat 10 pancakes


Omg I’d be tired as shit sometimes, it’d be like past 12am and will still b/p. Priorities lmao.
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Posted 13 June 2020 - 03:18 AM

Hoping coffee will help me shit  :D


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