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#21 that bitch.

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Posted 13 June 2020 - 03:21 AM

i don't think i purged all of my dinner but a nurse knocked on my door and i think theres still calories in me and Im gonna lie and get laxatives out of them so i can fucking shit the food out 



#22 ʝinx

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Posted 13 June 2020 - 03:22 AM

Dear food,

 

Hurry up and cook, I'm impatient.



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Posted 13 June 2020 - 07:30 AM

Ramen noodles with cheese 

I didn't get enough sleep


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Posted 13 June 2020 - 10:18 AM

should i spend the last of my money on laxatives or binge food? Also, where should I purge today because I keep almost fainting in the shower but I'm kinda tired of looking in the toilet 24/7... should I have a massive b/p tomorrow and then fast for a while or should I stick to small, safe b/ps? is it disrespectful to b/p whilst I do my criminology work because they're facing real, horrific problems like abuse and torture and the death of loved ones whilst here i am crying over toast.. it's probably disrespectful so why do i keep doing it? 


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#25 SharonNoodles

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Posted 13 June 2020 - 11:08 AM

i saw this pizza with cheese in the crust, but not only the edges but the whole thing and now i really really want it
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#26 StarvingLlama*-*

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Posted 13 June 2020 - 11:09 AM

I also wanna eat tortilla chips and cheese dip why you doing this to me dude? But I don't want to purge so I won't have any of it!

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#27 Cutsandcollarbones

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Posted 13 June 2020 - 12:28 PM

I've purged everything out. I literally tasted bile and now my stomach's grumbling in hunger. But why does the fucking scale say that I gained 1.3 kilos!?!!!!

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Posted 13 June 2020 - 12:48 PM

Heart has been acting stupid lately, but did that stop me from my 3 hour workout and purging my only meal yesterday? Hell no.
Now I'm dealing with palpitations while the hubby wants to go to Voodoo Doughnuts, count me in and fuck me up.
That sounds like a terrible idea... I'll do it.

#29 Opposite of Alive

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Posted 14 June 2020 - 02:37 AM

I have to stop

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Posted 14 June 2020 - 05:14 AM

last night we were watching tv w my mother and they were having this dude over as a guest. and they showed a segment about "fatphobia" and how society expects women to act and look a certain way and how only thin bodies are represented in media and all that.
and he talked about how his daughter suffered (or still does no sure) from an eating disorder. how it's important to accompany the ones you love who suffer from anorexia/bulimia, to not like just pay attention to what they eat and whatnot, to give them lots of affection and let them know you're there for them. and he got all teary eyed and shit.
and my mother was nodding and shit and even started crying at some point. and i wonder is it because she remembered i had bulimia? (ofc i still do but she doesn't know i still purge and shit)

i didnt ask and we didnt talk about it. but i wonder?
i found it pretty awkward because i had purged like half an hour before that and was now eating dinner while watching that segment and it triggered the hell outta me lol

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#31 dumb cutie

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Posted 14 June 2020 - 09:20 AM

can't wait to get paid in a few days & spend all my money on binge food & laxatives again

stay safe, my dudes.


#32 Opposite of Alive

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Posted 14 June 2020 - 05:17 PM

I feel nauseous but I want this food to nourish my body. Also if I purge now I’m just going to end up b/ping later, possibly multiple times, into the night and don’t really wanna do all that so... OMAD?

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Posted 14 June 2020 - 05:26 PM

Do i go to sleep or go for a walk before bed to burn some more cals


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#34 sewerside

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Posted 14 June 2020 - 05:32 PM

i really want to go back to purging everything


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Posted 14 June 2020 - 05:47 PM

i feel so fucking weird rn, i shouldn't have hit that puff so many times


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#36 frustrateded

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Posted 14 June 2020 - 06:01 PM

I just purged a while ago and feel like I stopped too soon.  I'm feeling very frustrated I didn't get it all out.  Ug.


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Posted 14 June 2020 - 10:25 PM

Throwing up Trix cereal tonight didn't quite produce a rainbow color.


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#38 stroszek

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Posted 15 June 2020 - 03:01 AM

nearly 5 am - rummaging thru the fridge. i heard my mother's voice comingfrom her bedroom - what's going on there ? 

 

 

damn. can a woman binge  in peace please????????????


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#39 starvingkitten_

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Posted 15 June 2020 - 03:13 AM

wondering about the sewers and pipes below my house, around my neighbourhood.. and the all massive amounts of food floating around down there. i wonder if a worker or someone has ever seen it. i wonder where it goes.


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Height: 5'7"

HW: 185lbs (sept 2017)

CW: 110lbs (aug 2 2019)

GW1: 139lbs (reached sept 2, 2018)

GW2: 125lbs (reached nov 22, 2018)

GW3: 109lbs

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#40 krimskrams

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Posted 15 June 2020 - 05:33 AM

it's just today, it's okay i deserve a treat
my accountability:https://www.myproana...nd-body-checks/

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cw: 48.3kg
hw: 56kg lw: 45kg? ugw: 39kg

selfless mind indulgence forever


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