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#41 rollercoasterofmylife

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Posted 15 June 2020 - 05:35 AM

Walk of shame going upstairs.
Avoiding the mirror as I position myself
Folding the bath mat over to cushion my knees
Getting major splashback
Catching a glimpse of myself and seeing panda eyes staring back...
Walking back down the stairs of shame

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#42 nymphx

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Posted 15 June 2020 - 12:11 PM

can’t tell if the inches i’ve gained are from the antipsychotic or just not purging enough so the obvious solution is to flush more and stop the meds

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#43 stroszek

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Posted 15 June 2020 - 01:46 PM

told myself yesterday that i wasn't gonna purge today but weighed myself n it triggered the hell outta me lol


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#44 meganmegan

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Posted 15 June 2020 - 03:21 PM

WHY did I purge a grilled ham&cheese sandwich with pineapple???!!!

Age: 21 y/o
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Height: 1.74m (5'85)
SW (and HW): 72 kg (158 lbs) > BMI 23.8
LW: 55 kg (121 lbs)
GW1: 68 kg (150 lbs)

GW2: 65 kg (143 lbs)
GW3: 62 kg (136 lbs)
GW4: 60 kg (132 lbs)
GW5: 57 kg (126 lbs)

UGW: 53 kg (117 lbs) > BMI 17.5


#45 zatara

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Posted 15 June 2020 - 07:52 PM

The post purge regret- wishing I had weighed myself before bingeing to know if I need to purge more.

hw: 180

lw: 119

cw: 133.4

160-150-140-130

125-120-115-110

ugw: LOL


#46 stroszek

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Posted 15 June 2020 - 08:35 PM

To purge or not to purge?????

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Posted 15 June 2020 - 09:53 PM

I was making dinner, so proud of myself, I haven't wanted to throw up all day. I hadn't even been focusing on how much i want to die. And then someone had to go and fuck it all up. Why the fuck am I supposed to be at their beck and call meanwhile I have to fight for tiny crumbs of love from them? I'm sick of it. I just want to throw up until my insides come out and my heart stops.

#48 angelfeathers

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Posted 16 June 2020 - 07:19 AM

Why do I put so much effort in to throwing up to only go and eat again less than an hour later?


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Heaviest ever: 83kg / 182lbs


Starting weight: 76.2kg / 168lbs

Current weight: 69.3kg / 152lbs

Lost weight: 6.9kg / 15lbs


#49 lil xtrash.king

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Posted 16 June 2020 - 11:50 AM

low key excited and scared at the same time for my exams to be over tomorrow since I know that'll make me relapse so hard. my brain wants me to lose as much weight as possible by my doctors appointment on Tuesday and imma be purging so much up until then 


Sick Boy: It's certainly a phenomenon in all walks of life.   Renton: What do you mean?   Sick Boy: Well, at one time, you've got it, and then you lose it, and it's gone forever. All walks of life: Georges Best, for example. Had it, lost it. Or David Bowie, or Lou Reed.

 

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  • BMI: 22.96.          BMI: 15.02.               BMI: 19.6.              BMI: 14.49.            BMI: 13.17

 

 

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#50 blueberrygreentea

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Posted 16 June 2020 - 05:56 PM

i literally had 3 giant bp sessions yesterday so i forced myself to sleep all day today to avoid anymore and now i’m hungry and afraid i’ll end up doing another one tonight. fuck


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#51 doiknowyoubro

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Posted 17 June 2020 - 03:04 AM

I'm craving some sort of stomach flu like one I had a few years ago that made me drop like 8 pounds in 2 nights


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SW: 141

GW: 135 

GW: 130 

GW: 125 

GW: 115 

UGW: 110 

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#52 Keke

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Posted 17 June 2020 - 03:26 AM

I am going to end my fast with a binge/purge, aren't I?


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#53 lil xtrash.king

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Posted 17 June 2020 - 02:35 PM

I was on a walk in the park and saw some friends there. one of my very good friends said I looked like a zombie.. I had just finished b/p'ing a whole bag of chips so I was feeling like a zombie but still. People are starting to notice again /:


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Sick Boy: It's certainly a phenomenon in all walks of life.   Renton: What do you mean?   Sick Boy: Well, at one time, you've got it, and then you lose it, and it's gone forever. All walks of life: Georges Best, for example. Had it, lost it. Or David Bowie, or Lou Reed.

 

  • SW:134 (61kg)     LW:87.9 (39,9kg)     CW:115 (52,3kg)     GW: 85 (38,5kg)    UGW: 77 (35kg)
  • BMI: 22.96.          BMI: 15.02.               BMI: 19.6.              BMI: 14.49.            BMI: 13.17

 

 

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#54 lil xtrash.king

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Posted 17 June 2020 - 02:36 PM

The post purge regret- wishing I had weighed myself before bingeing to know if I need to purge more.

Omg I have that same thought every time. I do weigh myself after purging though to get a sense of it at least


Sick Boy: It's certainly a phenomenon in all walks of life.   Renton: What do you mean?   Sick Boy: Well, at one time, you've got it, and then you lose it, and it's gone forever. All walks of life: Georges Best, for example. Had it, lost it. Or David Bowie, or Lou Reed.

 

  • SW:134 (61kg)     LW:87.9 (39,9kg)     CW:115 (52,3kg)     GW: 85 (38,5kg)    UGW: 77 (35kg)
  • BMI: 22.96.          BMI: 15.02.               BMI: 19.6.              BMI: 14.49.            BMI: 13.17

 

 

Trying to live my best life      *      LGBTQ+      *       Happiness is a state of mind        *       HMU / A me some Q's      *      Always looking for friends 


#55 stroszek

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Posted 17 June 2020 - 04:19 PM

got my russells sign back - still no noticeable weight loss. lifes fun

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#56 Opposite of Alive

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Posted 20 June 2020 - 12:44 AM

Feels like someone put a hex on me. Seriously bulimia is the ultimate curse. You’re basically stuck in a hamster wheel, running in a circle and not getting anywhere but exhausted af. Ultimate time & life waster. Down down down the drain.
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#57 Skiinystars

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Posted 20 June 2020 - 12:46 AM

i wanna purge but like i should NOT purge because its not like i ate that much and those hot cheetos will ruin me coming back up


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Posted 20 June 2020 - 11:38 AM

I’m getting ready to purge my very last binge before attempting low restriction for the next two weeks. Odds are against me but I have to try. I need to end this b/p cycle before it ruins all of my progress. My stomach hurts from the binge I just had. I can’t wait to purge it and I also can’t wait to hopefully never feel this level of discomfort again. I probably sound like a fool lmao

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#59 Pixiefancy990

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Posted 20 June 2020 - 01:44 PM

I really wish I had purged my dinner last night. I feel so stupid for thinking it would be ok to keep one meal down. That’s why I’m paying for it today, I gained weight and it’s all because I thought if I didn’t purge one meal, it wouldn’t be so bad, right?

#60 bulimicbeautyhere15

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Posted 20 June 2020 - 03:05 PM

Just raided the fridge lets hope my roomies wont notice.


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