I have so many goals in my relapse.
Last year at my lowest weight of 100 lbs I nearly got sent to the hospital because I refused to eat for days on end and I was crazy dizzy, falling, blacking out, etc. My face had also lost almost all colour.
But I want that again because it was so satisfying.
Other goals of mine that I find weird are stuff like wanting to get to the point of being hospitalized, wanting to be very close to death, and go a month with no food.
Are these normal goals to have or am I just absolutely crazy?
HW: 150 lbs
CW: 145 lbs
LW: 100 lbs
GW1: 120 lbs
GW2: 105 lbs
UGW: 90 lbs
Height: 66 inches