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How much does your SO/Partner know about your ED?

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#1 Leo_Leo


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Posted 16 June 2020 - 12:40 PM

My fiance (dating for 7 years) found out about my history of anorexia a year into our relationship - I told him blackout drunk in college while heaving my guts into a toilet. Classy, I know. 


We moved in together and I relapsed about 2 years ago and went back to professional help. He spoke to my therapist who told him we should not have a scale in our home. He goes away regularly on business trips so he worries about my eating. Around that time, he found my hidden scale and hid it again. It's taken me over a year to convince him I can use it in moderation, (literally the past month or so) which I most likely am not. 


Curious to see if others live with their partner or SO or are just in a serious relationship and how they juggle their ED (and purposefully fucking up recovery like yours truly). 

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Posted 16 June 2020 - 12:46 PM

No one knows and no one ever will. End of it. 


Husband has a thyroid issue and gains easily, so low cal foods are staples at my house. I do not think I could ever be detected.

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Posted 16 June 2020 - 12:54 PM

My ex boyfriend knew about it and would still ask for half my 250 cal piece of fish that was my dinner that night. He also said I was cheating weight loss lol. He sucked overall as a person.  

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Posted 16 June 2020 - 01:32 PM

My bf of almost 3 years has known since the beginning, and is very good. He's upfront about how there are things he'll never understand, but still stays there for me no matter what. If he suspects something is up/I'm relapsing (which usually he figures out pretty quick), he tries his best to encourage me to eat, reassure me I'm not eating too much, that he loves me as I am, etc. But it's still pretty easy to engage in behaviors around him. I knw it hurts him to see me struggle, especially when we're usually so open with each other. But he is really helpful in supporting me and my mental health <3

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Posted 16 June 2020 - 03:12 PM

I’ve been with my bf for over a year now and he’s aware of the Ed but not to the full extent. While with him I ended up gaining 30 pounds as he would always love to cook for me and thought it was good that I ate more but since then I’ve had him stop and have been fasting on and off to lose all of this weight and to finally get to my ugw. It doesn’t help that he’s skinny :( 

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Posted 16 June 2020 - 05:43 PM

Ever since I started living with my boyfriend he noticed that I wasn't getting my period, and whe he asked me why I told him it was because I ate too little. He knows I restrict and I measure/portfion my food in front of him and am an overall picky eater. I don't let him serve me, I have to serve myself and I prefer to cook out meals so I can control the calories. I've told him sometimes I get anxious when we eat out because I don't know exactly what's in my food. I take laxatives but I'm not sure he knows about that. I also b/p sometimes but I don't think he's caught on to that either (tgod). 


At first he didn't really handle it well and we'd just avoid the topic. Once he got mad at me because I was pestering him about how I wanted him to prepare my meal (annoying of me, ik). But now he seems to be taking it better, just asking me most days what I've eaten and that I should eat more. He usually isn't too pushy though. I'm glad that he is being mature and considerate about it. 

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Posted 16 June 2020 - 05:57 PM

He has known since the beginning. I relapsed hardcore when I was living with him+his parents....that was awkward as fuuuuck (they figured it out obviously...) 


He encourages me to eat and always compliments me or tells me : "Mmm, love watching my girl eat!" 


It is really quite sweet and helps keep me on track. 


Though I admit, relapse is very tempting lately :(








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Posted 16 June 2020 - 05:58 PM

No one knows and no one ever will. End of it. 


Husband has a thyroid issue and gains easily, so low cal foods are staples at my house. I do not think I could ever be detected.


Hi girrrrlllll I may be joining you soon.... 








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Posted 16 June 2020 - 06:03 PM

He thinks i have odd food habits. He knows very very little about eating disorders or even calories really. During the high point of my purging I managed to avoid him finding out.

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Posted 16 June 2020 - 06:56 PM

he knows like 95% of it all but has always had an inkling,

i explained it all when i started relapsing like 2 years ago.

and have since been letting him in on different aspects of it.


we've been together like 7 years now and live together so would be weird if he had no clue.

he's very attentive so would have guessed anyway, but if i had kept it hidden i'd feel wrong.

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Posted 17 June 2020 - 06:28 AM

My husband knows everything about it. He also suffers from ED and has most of his life. Hes really great about everything

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Posted 17 June 2020 - 09:58 AM

Hi girrrrlllll I may be joining you soon.... 


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Posted 21 June 2020 - 03:25 PM

my husband knows about my ed... we met a month before i was admited to ed clinic... he also had bed and an.... hes very supportive... but i feel like when i was bulimic he loved me more, now i have anorexia and feel like he doesnt love me anymore... i just feel disgusting and it fills my ed

They yell at me because I can't see what they see. Nobody can explain to me why my eyes work different than theirs. Nobody can make it stop.

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Posted 22 June 2020 - 01:05 AM

I've been with my boyfriend for five years now. He's learned everything overtime. Now he just accepts certain things that he knows he can't change- diets, compulsive weigh-ins, etc... while also trying to help me work through the real tough things- overeating, b/p, lax abuse... It's hard for him to understand, but knows it's a constant struggle for me, so he just makes sure I know that i'm wonderful no matter my weight or size. Sometimes we can even make jokes about it without it crossing any lines (sarcasm is so much easier for me to handle the more serious things).

While I am extremely grateful for him, I also secretly sometimes regret letting him know any of it. It's hard to keep it hidden, and I feel so guilty when he gets sad and frustrated when i start to get physically ill from lack of food and nutrients. 

Hopefully one day it will get easier though..

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Posted 22 June 2020 - 11:58 PM

My SO of 5 years knows because I made it clear before we even started dating. I realllly didn't want to deal with people entering my life in a serious manner/getting attached to each other without them being prepared to deal with me being weird with food, body issues, etc. He loved me anyway and somehow has never managed to do or say anything triggering. Bless him

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Posted 24 June 2020 - 05:47 AM

My husband knows and it’s a pain. He constantly tries to get me to eat and we argue a lot over calories and me not eating his dinners. He doesn’t want me to lose more weight and it’s just plain annoying. I know it probably comes out of concern for my well being, but he’s also very controlling, so I think the fact that I have the control over my eating makes him uncomfortable.

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Posted 24 June 2020 - 03:57 PM

My fiance knows about my past with it (from before we met), but not about my recent relapse. I'm able to hide it pretty well through OMAD, plus saying "it's just until my dress fitting!!1!!" but if he knew how much I was restricting he'd be concerned. I feel terrible hiding it from him, but I just keep telling myself I'll get to my goal weight and maintain and he'll never know...

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Posted 25 June 2020 - 04:02 AM

My fiancé knew about my ED past then I relapsed and told him after working up the courage for a month.


nothing has changed lol he doesn’t understand the disorder at all so I continue to spiral. I realised after telling I wasn’t ready for recovery anyway.

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Posted 25 June 2020 - 09:26 AM

My s/o knows somewhat.

We've been dating for something like 8 mo, but we've been friends for 6 years and actually dated when we first met. So hes seen me sobbing on the bed over a milkshake before! Rough days.

He doesn't know how strong it's back. I'm sure he suspects. But I try to do all my eating in front of him so he worries less. He just disapproves of fasting. Which is a pain, because I love fasting. But if I work with his minimum.... he usually doesn't complain. And I know I've got 20lbs easy before he worries.

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Posted 06 July 2020 - 05:25 AM

My bf doesn't have a clue
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