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which brings us to Thursday...i went food shopping again seriously what the fuck is wrong with me i need food shoppers anonymous was supposed to just go for like bread milk and juice 

$200 later - i really have a problem

here's some of the highlights

again sorry if that's upside down

 

usual coffee 70

 

breakfast

1/2 cup of cottage cheese 80

peach- 60

1/4 cup of granola- 90

230

and this has become my new go to for breakfast

 

smoothie 400

really good again today

 

lunch was a chicken wrap 220

 

went swimming YAY!!

 

dinner was super fatty sausage pepper and onion sub

sausage 400

roll 200

totally worth it

 

snack 2 cups of grapes 124 

ended up freaking out and screaming at my boyfriend

but it's fine he was drunk and barely remembered it when i apologized for it this morning

yeah....he's a dickhead

time to up my zoloft 

[Kermitleggs]

which brings us to today....Friday

i normally try to wait a while before i eat breakfast 

like 11 or noon

but today i woke up super nauseous so i'm eating my cottage cheese peach granola thing 

 

i actually feel like i'm getting a cold or something probably from going swimming then hanging out soaking wet in the cold ass air conditioning

probably gonna have soup for lunch maybe i'll try out one of these guys

okay lovelies i'll post more either later or tomorrow

have a fabulous weekend everyone!

[Kermitleggs]

The rest of Friday's intake

 

no smoothie

didn't finish my coffee either too nauseous 

lunch soup powdered miso broth

then i sauteed some onions, garlic, ginger, lemongrass, chicken and spinach together with 1/4 cup of quinoa

was phenomenally delicious

and we'll say 200-250 just to be safe

 

a little while I had another chicken wrap

another 200 cals

figured upping my cals would help me fight off this cold or whatever

 

made dinner by basically cleaning out all the left overs in my fridge

pineapple pork fried rice

boyfriend's

 

mine I gave him most of the quinoa "rice"

i'll say 500 cals

 

after dinner snack

yogurt-80

cherries-50

dark chocolate chips-25

chocolate granola-70

my goodness this was AMAZING!!!

seriously tasted like Cherry Garcia Ben and Jerrys

 

total for the day around 1405

perfect, wasn't hungry, didn't feel full and disgusting

went to bed early and slept like a baby

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Which brings us to Saturday

instead of making a smoothie i made an acai bowl

didn't put extra stuff on top to make it pretty because extra stuff = extra calories

200 and was huge and delicious

 

then i ate the rest of my son's waffles and grilled cheese crusts

400cals

think i also had a ham, egg, avocado wrap for lunch

400

 

dinner i have no idea 

stuffed cabbage with tofu meat, baked potato, and fried broccoli

600-700? because of the broccoli

 

1870 total?

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Sunday morning - big breakfast again

only ate one piece of the turkey bacon, one piece of toast and the scrambled avocado eggs

400

plus a glass of milk 130

then a smoothie

350

but then i went to the pool and chased my son around

 

lunch- turkey avocado wrap again

300cals

took a long ass glorious nap

 

dinner shrimp and pasta

my boyfriend's 

mine

shrimp avocado and zoodles

320 cals

 

snack

180cals

 

1840 total

[Kermitleggs]

so far today (Monday)

coffee 70

vitamins-100

breakfast- cottage cheese, granola, donut peach 230

lunch left over pineapple pork rice bowl 400

 

800 so far

[Kermitleggs]

oh here's a thing one of my friends posted on fb thought y'all might like it

 

and my fat thighs

 

and i thought this was funny

 

might go back to the pool today, i'm pretty tired tho

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wow sorry once again, I suck at updating everyday

Monday night's dinner

 

lemon chicken and eggplant "pizza"

300 cals

 

and my jack-o-melon

lots and lots of watermelon snacks

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Tuesday morning

coffee- 70

vitamins- 100

smoothie- 350

 

then i walked all over town to get my nails done

 

and I had a doctor's appointment - i lost a pound from my visit 3 weeks ago i know i shouldn't be as excited as I am, but I am

got home around 2:30

had a turkey and avocado wrap

200

a 90 cal coffee drink

then dinner

half of a steak and cheese sub 300

and a quarter of roasted sweet potato 100

 

then a bunch of more watermelon

still way below my goal 

[Kermitleggs]

today Wednesday

 coffee - 10 cals

vitamins- 100

watermelon- 200

granola and skim milk- 150

 

probably going to be under again today

i hate this i feel so much better when i'm at 1500 or a little over but it's so hard to get there

i've been fighting the urge to b/p too

note to self stay off the bulimia forum 

 

i have an ultrasound tomorrow will post again after that

[Kermitleggs]

wednesday's lunch:

french bread pizza 

410 cals

definitely purged this

 

Wednesday night's dinner

my boyfriend's 

absolutely delicious pasta vodka sauce chicken eggplant soy beans and kale

SOOOO fucking good (definitely "sampled" many fork fulls while cooking)

 

my dinner

chicken, eggplant, kale, soy beans, beet noodles no sauce

this was fucking disgusting

i will never buy beet noodles again

could hardly choke it down

300cals?

 

watermelon snacks

 

[Kermitleggs]

Thursday ...................................

had a doctors appointment at 8 am got some bad news i'm not going to talk about until i know for sure 

i'll find out the test results in a week

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okay so since Thursday's bad news at the doctor i've kind of been a hot mess eating whatever the fuck i want b/ping yeah no bueno i definitely went to the store and specifically bought food to b/p on ... fuck

here's some stuff I've eaten since thursday

b/ped leftover vodka sauce pasta

so.fucking.good.

 

snack tomatoes, fresh mozzerella, basil, extra virgin olive oil

i got beautiful heirloom tomatoes

this was between 300-600 totally worth it i also didn't eat it all

 

thursday night dinner:

i've been craving salmon for SO long but i'm a fucking snob and will only eat super fresh salmon so...

salmon, snap peas, and cous cous i seriously could have eaten 12 plates of this

no idea on cals 

but this is still "healthy-ish"

 

friday i overslept so missed my son's bus so he was home with me all day

tried to make my eggs and avocado but burnt the eggs so threw them away

so chicken tender, mashed potatoes, corn and gravy for 2 hahahaha

sorry forgot to take a pic before i started to devour it

more snacks

no idea why it is green my camera just does that sometimes

diet mountain dew tastes like sadness

 

dinner- made my bf nachos fresh pico de guyo, fresh quacamole ground turkey lots of cheese

i made a taco salad same as nachos but no chips and no cheese a FUCK TON of quacamole tho again those tomatoes are fuego

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so today Saturday

my normal

coffee 100

vitamins 100

cottage cheese, peach, granola 230

 went shopping with the family

110 grill for lunch my salad was 400

but like 800 total

a cinnamon crunch bagel from panera 460

orange juice vanilla ice cream float 520

plus 150

so i'm at 2,360 so far might make cheesy garlic bread later too whatevs

 

hope you're all having a fabulous weekend

 

*update* definitely made cheesy bread and another french bread pizza ... BLAH 

[Kermitleggs]

Sunday- 

super big breakfast again

eggs- 140

avocado- 161

tomato-30

toast- 60

bacon-43

i did not eat the potatoes

 

then we went swimming

lunch- 

soup

chicken broth

kale

1/4 cup of rice

around 200

this picture looks like swamp water lol

 

Dinner-

giant ass burritos

i used to make and sell burritos at concerts so this was nostalgia for me

my bf's were steak, rice, beans, cheese, peppers, onions, lettuce, cucumbers, cilantro, white tortillas 

mine were chicken, broccoli rice, beans, cheese, peppers, onions, lettuce cucumbers, cilantro, wheat wrap

even tho i ate so much i wanted to puke i'd say it was still only between 600-800 calories

SOOOOOO FUCKING GOOD

no snack because i was stuffed 

 

around 1500 for the day

[Kermitleggs]

here's some random Monday silliness

 

 

 

who the fuck would eat this?

 

 

found this

 

have a great day everyone

 

[Kermitleggs]

sorry i haven't updated all week, my step daughter is here so....

here's the short version to catch everyone up

monday- lazy day in the house also b/ped a couple times

cinnamon crunch bagel from panera 460 cals

my burritos

 

cheese quesadilla and a waffle vanilla ice cream sandwich (soooooo goooood)

 

dinner was shrimp ramen noodle broccoli spicy peanut thing no picture

i used pb2 power instead of actual peanut butter to save cals but then my bf informed me how bad ramen noodles are for you(how did i not know this?)

 

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Tuesday my bf didn't go to work and my son had no daycare

yay family fun day

 

don't remember if i had breakfast

lunch was Wendys homestyle chicken sandwich that i desperately wanted to purge but didn't

they forgot my large fries i was upset but also totally okay with it

 

we went for maybe a mile walk?

tuesday night big fatty cheese burgers

yeah - it's been a bad week

also made watermelon cucumber mint and feta salad

was okay, but i think i'll stick to plain watermelon

 

wednesday-

coffee- 60

vitamins-100

morning cottage cheese fruit thing -230

lunch was this beautiful "rice bowl"

all the leftovers from the burittos

broccoli rice

cilantro

cucumbers

tomatoes

chicken

peppers

onions

etc

maybe 300

 

bf had to work a double

so dinner for me and my step daughter (she's vegetarian)

veggie chicken nuggets and fries 400

 

snack was a ham and salami wrap

 

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Thursday

coffee-60

vitamons- 100

breakfast- granola and milk -155

walked places probably 2 miles

lunch tried to make another rice bowl

this one was not as good

burrito leftovers again

steak

white rice

beans

fuck ton of lettuce

got super soggy for some reason so i only ate about half

maybe 400

 

dinner- oooey gooey deliciousness

homemade mac and cheese with bacon and tomato

no clue on cals A LOT

i used butter and heavy cream annndddda fuck ton of cheese

it.was.totally.worth.it!

sometimes to gotta give into the cravies

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friday breakfast

ham 60

egg 70

avocado 161

wrap- 60

sprouts

my sprouts went bad like two days after i bought them 

 

went to the store with my step daughter

lunch was a huge antipasto salad 

ham 120

salami 400

tuna 110

black olives 120

cucumbers

salad mix

green peppers

so like 800 cals

 

Dinner- 

my boyfriends- turkey meatballs, eggplant, zucchini, tomato, basmati rice and korma curry sauce

 

mine- 

no curry sauce

cauliflower sweet potato rice instead of basmati

 

didn't figure out the cals

made brownies with egg whites and applesauce to be "lower cal"

 

made brownie sundaes 

fml like 800 cals

GRRRRRR