I was ACTUALLY invited somewhere out for the first time in FOREVER. I don't really have any friends so I was genuinely surprised that people thought of me! The problem was, it was a pool party. Ive been TERRIFIED to go out in public let alone a pool party but hey, Im in my 30s and Its time I let go of insecurities and EMBRACE MY BODY AND BLAH BLAH BLAH !
So I show up, its an all girls pool party (regina georgeeee) and I was mingling and so on. I hop in the pool and EVERYONE starts staring at me. Whats the problem? Im in a 1 piece even. Whats the big deal? The host (my girlfriend) comes up to me and says "Hey you need to put on a shirt". When I asked why, she said "Well.. you have a nice body and everything its just that.. youre kind of older and its making us uncomfortable". WHAT THE FUCK? I legit said "What the fuck" to her face. I looked around and its all like mid 20s or late 30 year olds. Im the same age. They don't have shirts on, so whats the deal?
Its not like Im scary skinny. Hell I have huge boobs and a thick booty so I know its not that. So whats the fucking problem. I just said "well now IM uncomfortable" and I left as I kept getting stares.
No one else was wearing a shirt that was in the pool. Why me?