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What are your toxic reasons to lose weight?

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#41 lilibu



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Posted 04 July 2020 - 11:34 AM

Isn't it more about the fact that they were mean/rude to you and that contributed to you becoming more mentally ill? surely that's the point you want to make - it isn't about concern, it's about cruelty? like, "look what your 'concern' made happen, that wasn't real love" sort of thing?

I don't think they meant to hurt me, they just didn't know any better. I wouldn't have known any better before I developed an ED either. They were not rude, they tried to be supportive by reminding me about "healthy choices". I guess they assumed I just forget sometimes and accidentally overeat. It's not an easy thing to grasp how can someone feel out of control in what they eat when the common sense tells them we are in control of our actions. It might have contributed, but it didn't start my behaviours. I'm trying to be the change I want to see - more understanding, less judgemental, being aware of reasons behind people's actions.

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Posted 04 July 2020 - 02:17 PM

My sister in law just reached 120 lbs. I'm 135, and I want to be smaller than her, despite the fact that she is like an inch shorter than me.

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Posted 04 July 2020 - 03:59 PM

because my friend lost weight and i want to be better than her lol

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Posted 04 July 2020 - 04:17 PM

I've been doing so much yoga thru Covid and now I'm really really strong.  I'll teach again when this is all over


I want my (male especially) students to say "she so strong, and have you seen how tiny she is!!!"


Wishful thinking maybe but I live in hope

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Posted 04 July 2020 - 04:22 PM

my cousin and i are the same age, grew up together with our mom’s constantly comparing us. she grew up to have “the perfect body” in society’s mind: very thin with a sizable butt and boobs, hourglass shape, tall with long legs. and i grew up to look (what i consider to be) painfully average. part of me wants to be thin so that i don’t look dowdy next to her, but prettier and more ethereal.

my best friend also has an eating disorder and was really skinny in high school. she’s gained weight since then and even though i think she looks beautiful that way, i want to stay thinner than her, to look even skinnier and taller when i stand next to her because she’s shorter than i am.

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Posted 04 July 2020 - 08:41 PM

i wanna be skinnier than my friends

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Posted 05 July 2020 - 12:08 AM

To more easily attract a guy, to have more choice of guys. Incase my abusive ex ever sees me or a photo of me, so he regrets it and doesn’t just get to laugh and see me as a fat pig. To be noticeably smaller than two of my close friends (one bigger one slightly smaller) so I don’t feel like ‘one of the big girls’.

Girl preach
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Posted 05 July 2020 - 01:20 AM

I want to feel like my bf actually likes me
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Posted 06 July 2020 - 07:04 PM

I want to be skinny so that I can weigh less than anyone in any room I go into. Be the thinnest girl in the room. And I want to be able to be picked up by a boyfriend. I want to be the one that other women envy. And I want to be so thin that I look sick.

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Posted 06 July 2020 - 09:05 PM

My sister weighs 40 pounds less than me and looking at her makes me want to be thinner than I can even dream of

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Posted 06 July 2020 - 09:16 PM

Making thinner family members secretly jealous
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Posted 07 July 2020 - 01:41 AM

I want to freak people out (namely doctors). I want to be forcibly hospitalized because they are genuinely worried about me.

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Posted 07 July 2020 - 10:57 AM

I want to impress my friends when I return to college after quarantine. I want the fact that I've lost weight to be visible and noticeable where they can't really NOT notice

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Posted 07 July 2020 - 01:02 PM

I want to hear your most toxic reason for wanting to lose weight. I have several but the one that has been the most motivation recently is that my boyfriend's ex was only 92 pounds. He told me that he likes my curves but his track record with women have always been petite. The fact that I'm twice her size disgusts me. I'm sure he'd love someone he could toss around but I weigh the same as him. 

This reminds me. My bf's ex was 86 pounds and by my boyfriends words she weren't that skinny and definitely not skinny at bottom (which was a compliment) and her HW was 103 


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Posted 07 July 2020 - 07:16 PM

I want to impress my friends when I return to college after quarantine. I want the fact that I've lost weight to be visible and noticeable where they can't really NOT notice


Ughhh all of this, I really want to drop some weight so people will just notice me, and be like WOW this is what you were doing during quarantine! 

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Posted 08 July 2020 - 01:16 AM

i posted too many personal details so deleted it.


basically, to make my ex jealous. to make other people jealous.



am i the only one who hates the attention losing weight brings though? when someone asks if i've lost weight i just say "no i don't think so lol". I don't want anyone to notice haha

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Posted 08 July 2020 - 03:39 AM

A lot of my friends and my partners friends are tiny and petite. Just once, I want them to look at me the way I look at them.
I want them to think about how much weight I’ve lost and think about how small I am.

Well, that’s not totally true. I don’t want it to happen just once.....

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Posted 08 July 2020 - 06:51 AM

My husbands ex was and is much smaller than me. To be more like her. He compares me to her a lot so I just want to be seen as worthy.
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Posted 08 July 2020 - 07:28 AM

Yesterday I would've said to be able to look like the naked girls my boyfriend jerks off to, they're all impossible skinny.

But he broke up with me so I guess now it's to make my ex regret breaking up with me and also to make him worry since he knew about my ED.


These aren't big reasons though, I've felt a relapse coming for a long time and these are just those small petty things we all have aha

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Posted 08 July 2020 - 07:37 AM

well, one is to get back at family & some friends just to prove a point that being an asshole & comparing people isn't it. petty asf but watever

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