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I just feel so fat and helpless


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#1 AVintagePaperDoll

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Posted 04 July 2020 - 01:25 AM

I'm 29 wks and 2 days. Today I feel like a overfilled water balloon. My back pain is so bad, I'm walking so slow. To the point were I feel like a brittle old woman. So I soak in the tub to help my muscles relax right? I get STUCK in the tub 🤦 it took me multiple tries to manage getting out the tub. The whole time "600 lb life" clips are playing in my head, which of course doesn't help because I start feeling sick 🤢 my stomach is covered in deep red stretch marks (I have belly lotions and oils) which just makes me want to cry, because I know even after I loose all the weight. I'll never look the same in a bikini ever again. I'm just feeling sad. My birthday is next week, I don't have any income since covid19. So I know that'll be a depressing day. My mother has been trying to guilt me into attending a "small" pool party at her house, And wants me to be in swimwear around people and children. The last time I went to one of her parties (pre pregnancy) I was shamed and judged for what I wore. Ugh I just wanted to vent about my shottie day.

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Posted 06 July 2020 - 12:36 PM

oh honey, I'm so sorry, I'm only at 17 weeks and I already feel huge and gross, certainly don't want to do anything that requires me to wear a bathing suit.  I don't even know what to say to make you feel better...just that you've only got 10 more weeks  sorry i know that doesn't help... you can always vent to me anytime - hang in there <3


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#3 AVintagePaperDoll

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Posted 08 July 2020 - 05:52 PM

I'm counting down the days, and making a workout plan for after my daughter is finally here. Still sad, but it has helped

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Posted 11 August 2020 - 12:12 PM

Hope things are treating you better since you posted this...

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Posted 14 September 2020 - 07:29 PM

Thanks, I've been kinda MIA for a while. Baby girl is due on the 17th. Due to storms and a cat 2 that should be here tomorrow. My doctor's have cancelled my appointments and induction. So I'm not sure exactly how much longer I'll be pregnant, but I do know I'm going to have to go over 40 wks 😩 I wish she would just come naturally, and when she's supposed to


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