I work in medicine and today I was messing around with the pediatric growth charts and lo and behold I am the height and weight of the average 12 year old. I've also got small boobs and pretty narrow bones. On halloween last year I put on a mask and my boyfriend pretended to be my dad and we went trick or treating. Not one person thought something was wrong.
Two things have happened to me that make me worry about this. Once when visiting my ex he had sex with me in his 14 year old sisters bed (I didn't know it was her room I found out later). He told me the air conditioning was better in there and I believed him like an idiot. Then later on during xanax withdrawl he had a hallucination that his 14 year old sister wanted him to teach her to use a butt plug and I was like oh holy shit. My boyfriend of two fricken years somehow hid that he's a pedo from me.
And now I'm really freaked out. How do I know I'm not the fantasy of a child to a guy?