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[brego58]

I just feel so alone. I mean, I wouldn't say I have true muscle dysmorphia because I don't actually want all the muscle. I just want to be muscular.

 

But I can't stop sabotaging myself. I try to do a cut and I end up over-restricting until I binge. I try to bulk even a tiny amount and I spiral into self-loathing. I don't know why I can't just aim for my goals without going into this unhealthiness.

[CrazyStarvingArtist]

I'm really self conscious about not having abs but I'm also scared to get abs

[brego58]

Glad I’m at least not completely alone! Tbh, I wouldn’t say I have an eating disorder, more like disordered tendencies. Unfortunately/fortunately
, my partner is trying to make me eat normally


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[runningwithyou]

I'm here occasionally! I want to get rid of all the fat on my body until I'm just muscle, not like a body builder but more of a lean endurance athlete or ballet dancer (with more visible muscle and less messed up feet and toes).

 

I constantly over exercise, and then I try to eat some healthy food / protein, but it sometimes ends in a binge. I freak out if I've gained weight, even if my measurements haven't changed or even shrunk, but logically know I can't gain muscle without gaining some weight at some point. But then if I lose weight, I always manage to convince myself that it was all muscle and not fat and I should exercise more. It's a bad cycle.