So I’m a 41 year old bulimic married man (hence “Odd one out!”), can’t really post on the male page as I think I’d end up looking like a dirty “old” man. I’ve been bulimic for a few years now, got bullied as a kid about being fat and was quite large throughout my adult life. A few years ago my wife started intermittent fasting and calorie counting and started telling me how many calories were in the food I was eating (not being nasty about it), so I started doing it to and the weight just fell off of me. Unfortunately I started to worry about putting the weight back on so I started working out every day, paying attention to my macros etc, before you know it I’m restricting certain foods, placing foods into “good” and “bad” categories. Then on Christmas Eve I ate a Slice of Christmas cake, and then another and before you know it it was gone, omfg the guilt, the shame and the self loathing I’m sure you guys know. Anyway I purged and afterwards I don’t know how I felt but I know it never stopped.
you guys know the rest, the cycle, the feelings etc. I got on this site a while ago as I didn’t know where to go, some days are better than others and sometimes you have to just “purge” your feelings, even if it’s to a blank screen.
Thanks for letting me post