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So scared of myself ..


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#1 Desolation-Boy

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Posted 16 September 2020 - 10:17 PM

I'm almost at my UGW and I know I'll just want to go lower. I'm luckily about to be put in a refeeding program and my ED has sped up cause I'm scared of all the calories and weight gain that will be going on. I'm planning to hit 95lbs and hold it. But then again my ED us string and I think I'm losing to it. I have moments where I genuinely get scared of myself and for myself. My doctors are worried. I hope I can go into this program and meet people cause I'm also really alone. I also hope I don't run out the front door since I'm an adult and so I can run if I wanted to... Fuck. What do I do ...
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Diagnosis: Anorexia Binge Eating/purging Subtype

age: 19

Pronouns:; He/Him

height: 5'5''

sw: 120.8 lbs 

CW: 99lbs  

Gw1: 110

Gw2: 105

Gw3: 100

Gw4: 97

UGW: 95

 

 

 

                                                                                                     


#2 princesskyslani

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Posted 16 September 2020 - 10:22 PM

I know how you feel. It’s a big step to want to get help though which shows that you can. I believe in you. :) I wish you all the best luck


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#3 Desolation-Boy

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Posted 16 September 2020 - 10:44 PM

I know how you feel. It’s a big step to want to get help though which shows that you can. I believe in you. :) I wish you all the best luck


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Thanks for the kind words of encouragement. Im trying to balance hiding my ED at home and getting help, so it means a lot to have someone support me in all in this isolating Secret disorder. Thank you again. I wish you the best in your recovery too! 🙂🙂

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Diagnosis: Anorexia Binge Eating/purging Subtype

age: 19

Pronouns:; He/Him

height: 5'5''

sw: 120.8 lbs 

CW: 99lbs  

Gw1: 110

Gw2: 105

Gw3: 100

Gw4: 97

UGW: 95

 

 

 

                                                                                                     



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