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#1 panicateverysocialevent

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Posted 17 October 2020 - 04:04 PM

ik i’ll never like my body and like i don’t necessarily want to look thinner but i want the scales to go down, i don’t want to feel full and i’m too scared to eat without counting it
do u guys think you’ll ever recover
like part of me just wishes this will kill me i guess idek
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#2 magnolie

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Posted 17 October 2020 - 04:24 PM

ik i’ll never like my body and like i don’t necessarily want to look thinner but i want the scales to go down, i don’t want to feel full and i’m too scared to eat without counting it
do u guys think you’ll ever recover
like part of me just wishes this will kill me i guess idek

I don't think I will recover, basically because I have had my ED since I was a kid and I don't have any reference to what being ED-free is. However, I do believe I can learn to cope with this and eventually have a life that I actually like. Getting out of the binge/restrict cycle is the most important thing for me, it makes life such a hell.


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#3 shannie

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Posted 17 October 2020 - 05:02 PM

No, I’ll always have this disorder, but the older I get the more I’m able to mitigate consequences and I’m much better at balancing my ED and my real life. I’m a little more flexible this time around. I’m very realistic about my ED and can’t afford to worry my family. I’ve learned a lot about my ED and how it affects my body over the past 20 years....now I’m just a smarter anorexic lol!
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#4 stonemilker

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Posted 17 October 2020 - 05:09 PM

i know i'll never recover, like i'm a thousand percent sure i'm more likely to win the lottery. that being said, as i grow older with it i learn to cope with certain aspects better but unfortunately i've obviously learned more ways to worsen it so...yeah definitely never going to recover.
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#5 e.amv

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Posted 17 October 2020 - 06:00 PM

There’s always the hope I’ll recoevr, but as everyone has said - it’s hard to see

#6 ex bulimic?

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Posted 17 October 2020 - 06:10 PM

I don’t think I’ll recover or even try until I’m at least 50 lbs lighter


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Posted 17 October 2020 - 06:10 PM

no, ive relapsed multiple times and theres nothing i can do about it

and yeah i wish my ed would just kill me instead of taunting me



#8 Tiny Blonde Spoonie

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Posted 18 October 2020 - 12:08 AM

Never gonna recover I don't think, especially because with my UGW and even the body I'd be even remotely okay with, I'm not gonna be living long



#9 Crazylikebananas

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Posted 18 October 2020 - 12:12 AM

i really hope to recover. when it finally hit me that i don’t want to live this way and i really hate doing this every day i tried to eat better, but when i started gaining weight i quickly relapsed
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Posted 18 October 2020 - 01:44 AM

i’ve tried recovery so many times. even seriously, once. it just doesn’t seem to make me any happier. i kinda hope that i could just die from this, but i know how horrible that would be to my family and friends, so idk. (most of the friends have an ED)

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Posted 19 October 2020 - 09:28 AM

No, I’ll always have this disorder, but the older I get the more I’m able to mitigate consequences and I’m much better at balancing my ED and my real life. I’m a little more flexible this time around. I’m very realistic about my ED and can’t afford to worry my family. I’ve learned a lot about my ED and how it affects my body over the past 20 years....now I’m just a smarter anorexic lol!


I apologize if this is too personal a question. Over the years, what side effects have you noticed and what (if anything) have you done to help mitigate those effects? Again, I’m sorry if this is too personal, if you tell me to kick rocks I totally understand.

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Posted 19 October 2020 - 09:38 AM

ik i’ll never like my body and like i don’t necessarily want to look thinner but i want the scales to go down, i don’t want to feel full and i’m too scared to eat without counting it
do u guys think you’ll ever recover
like part of me just wishes this will kill me i guess idek

 

"do u guys think you’ll ever recover" Nope for that i'd need a huge miracle to happen.
"like part of me just wishes this will kill me i guess idek" Same & ik it's probably pretty fucked how fine im with death lmao.

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#13 sophieshungry

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Posted 19 October 2020 - 01:22 PM

i don’t think i will. i think maybe i’ll get to a point where i’m not actively using behaviors? but i don’t think i’ll ever get rid of the thoughts. they’re just so natural and i don’t have the motivation to fight them. and tbh not using behaviors but still having disordered thoughts seems fucking miserable so don’t really even want to stop using behaviors.

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