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anyone else half want to be 'bad' enough to be hospitalised but also terrified of it?

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#21 BrilletA


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Posted 18 October 2020 - 01:10 PM

Same. I was threatened to be hospitalized before even tho my BMI was 16.4 at my lowest. I'm scared to be put in the hospital because even when I was in the psych ward and barely underweight I was being watched during meals and it was a total nightmare but I also want my therapist to threaten me again because that would mean that I'm getting skinny again. I want to be hospitalized so I can feel like I actually have an ED. But I'm scared of being forced to gai. weight at the same time. Fml

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Posted 18 October 2020 - 01:23 PM

Depends on what type of hospitalization we are talking about. Psychiatric hospitalizations are awful, in my opinion. I feel like you get treated less than human. General medical hospitalization though are a different story. People are always checking on you and concerned about you. It feels safe. I was there for a suicide attempt and one of the things on my screwed up ED bucket list is to go back and be hospitalized for ED related concerns. I might also have a fucked up relationship with hospitals because my dad spent more time there caring for his patients than caring for me growing up. 

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