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Anorexics, what's your locus of control score?


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#21 Ghost in the Machine

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Posted 18 October 2020 - 07:43 AM

I got 13 :/
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Posted 18 October 2020 - 07:49 AM

i got 10. but personally, i am completely nonconformist lol. so as for me being more likely to conform isn't accurate in my everyday life. the test seemed,,,, very irrelevant in a way? in fact, i thought that most of the nonconformist answers were conformist answers, they sounded like the type of things extreme right winged people say if im honest, very bootlicking and uncompassionate to misfortunes outside of peoples control.
i am nonconformist but i crave deep control within my own personal life. but i also recognise there are forces in this world that are built to be unfair, something the test didn't take into consideration. i think life isn't as black and white as the test perhaps believes it to be. for most of the answers, my beliefs lay in between the two. because while yes, you do have control of your life for the most part, sometimes things just happen. you cannot control death, illness, tragedy etc. life is neither completely controllable, nor is it a whirlwind of chaos. and recognising the manmade forces in this world that suppress people don't make me a conformist. because the test seems to only apply within a world that isn't riddled with human intervention. humans have created barriers for other humans. some people simply cannot overcome their circumstances and it has nothing to do with the will power to do so. it's delusional to go about the world thinking that we are free to overrule everything and everyone without resistance. 
 
for example in question 10 the "nonconformist" answer sounded quite delusional. especially given this day and age and the current world events. i think we all know the people in power in this world are the few and privileged. i think you are right, it is an outdated test. personally, i don't know how relevant it is concerning eating disorders, since it seemed to outlaw any sense of human depth in a way. because i think you can recognise that there are forces in the world beyond your control and also take your life into you are hands. nonetheless, it was really interesting.


Yeah, I agree. I mainly wanted to see if there would be any interesting trends but the scores I'm seeing on this thread are all over the place, ranging from the top to the bottom of the scale, so there doesn't seem to be any correlation. Even when it comes to obedience with Millgrams study into who is more likely to obey, a low locus score and being less likely to obey weren't strongly linked - they did find a link, but only with white American male subjects and it wasn't clear whether both were caused by a third factor or not. Thought it'd be fun nonetheless, this isn't an academic study aha
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Posted 18 October 2020 - 08:16 AM

I got 7
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Posted 18 October 2020 - 08:24 AM

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Posted 18 October 2020 - 08:36 AM

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Posted 18 October 2020 - 08:45 AM

6, this was a very interesting quiz tho! I had to think deeply ab some of these

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Posted 18 October 2020 - 09:27 AM

4, i was expecting the test to be like “a plate of high calorie food is sitting in front of you. can you resist it?” LMFAO


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Posted 18 October 2020 - 09:46 AM

7.

It was difficult to answer these questions because as has been said, it's not as simple as it is made out to be. Like that last one got to me, I both feel like what happens to me is my own doing and that I have no control over the direction my life is going. It was hard to choose between so many of them. I believe there is luck and fate, but I also believe we control ourselves and our actions, and to some degree our success in this world. I guess why that's why I'm smack in the middle of the scoring, too many of the options felt wrong on both sides so I went with what I leaned more towards.

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Posted 18 October 2020 - 09:57 AM

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I don't believe in luck. I believe people are responsible for their own lives and it all depends on the decisions they make and the actions they take. However, there are times when you aren't able to control every situation due to unexpected circumstances. But that has nothing to do with luck, it's more about other's decisions and actions having an impact on your life.
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Posted 18 October 2020 - 09:58 AM

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Posted 18 October 2020 - 10:30 AM

11, i answered based on my own experiences


life could be beautiful for anybody it's for

but i'd swear this mothafuckin' shit is rotten to the core

 

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Posted 18 October 2020 - 10:36 AM

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Posted 18 October 2020 - 10:37 AM

6, whatever that implies.


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Posted 18 October 2020 - 10:39 AM

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Posted 18 October 2020 - 10:40 AM

10
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Posted 18 October 2020 - 10:42 AM

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Posted 18 October 2020 - 10:45 AM

I got the same score as you and also found myself equally frustrated when taking it myself. It is quite an old test and was originally intended to be used to measure how obedient someone is likely to be. They found that people who scored lower tended to be less obedient and less conformist, for example. But yeah there are a lot of methodological problems when it comes to gathering survey data like that with limited nuance, since most people's views aren't that one sided. What I did was pick the option closest to my view and where I leaned more (I'm rarely completely neutral on a topic) instead of looking for one that matched my views exactly, since close ended questions rarely do. Hope that helps!

Yes I did the same and I guess my score makes sense in how I live my life believing in being organised and plan/have awareness for the unexpected/uncontrollable/“luck/bad luck” aspect of life that inevitably plays a role in everything too. So I guess I err on the side of being prepared more than just slapdash relying on luck.

As AN-bp though I never think I would fit into stereotypical anorexia traits.

The test originally being about how compliant a person is is very interesting, I wonder what it is about being more controlled that makes a person less conformist/obedient? I would almost have assumed the other way around like if you score high on leaving everything to luck you’d be more of a non conformist free spirit, but maybe it’s that you also then would be a person resigned to a mentality of “tough shit others are in control and I am not so I better get in line”?
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Posted 18 October 2020 - 11:04 AM

Yeah, I agree. I mainly wanted to see if there would be any interesting trends but the scores I'm seeing on this thread are all over the place, ranging from the top to the bottom of the scale, so there doesn't seem to be any correlation. Even when it comes to obedience with Millgrams study into who is more likely to obey, a low locus score and being less likely to obey weren't strongly linked - they did find a link, but only with white American male subjects and it wasn't clear whether both were caused by a third factor or not. Thought it'd be fun nonetheless, this isn't an academic study aha

I could see how they would only have found a link between low score and white American males, especially if the studies are somewhat older.

Because if you take into account the way society conditions men vs how it conditions women it’s not the same. If you are controlled and organised and believe you determine your life’s outcome as a woman you may be more likely to internalise it negatively, as well as believe it your duty to be a version of “perfect” for others, perfect student, perfect wife, perfect employee, perfect anorexic, but nobody can be perfect all the time so you fail and it is your own fault.

If you are instead a man who believe in controlling your destiny society encourages you to forge ahead, not be emotional about failure, shake it off and pursue more because it is up to you, white American Male, to make a difference, your privilege is your duty, be a leader, and you can do whatever you want.

As stereotypes I could see how this test would get that result.
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Posted 18 October 2020 - 11:14 AM

9 (not diagnosed AN).

 

I think this makes sense. While I want to have control, I often feel like the world around me is out of control and that might be a reason some people focus on having a high degree of control over their food and their body. Sometimes I feel like if I can control my body, I can control everything else too. 


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Posted 18 October 2020 - 11:53 AM

i got a 10 which makes sense, i try to control certain things because i feel like i don’t have much control over anything else


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