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Things you've put off due to your weight

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#1 youdontfailtillyoustoptryi


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Posted 25 October 2020 - 01:26 PM

I'm guilty of putting off going to the Dr until I lose more weight because I'm so ashamed of how much I've gained. I've put off buying life insurance because of the physical. I cringed because I need to see a chiropractor and they're asking about my weight. My bulimia has been such a curse and has just kept causing me to gain because I couldn't get it all up anymore. I'm now on my 21st day of being b/p free, although I have been restricting, I've been eating so clean and am down 12.5 lbs. I finally felt confident enough to setup a Drs appointment with this momentum.
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Posted 25 October 2020 - 01:48 PM

I haven't bought myself anything nice for years bc I keep setting weight milestones I never reach :-((( recently especially I've just been losing and gaining the same ~5kg again and again and it makes me want to die. I just want to have a nice scented candle, a new blanket.... nothing even weight or size related but I keep convincing myself I don't deserve it  :(

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Posted 28 October 2020 - 01:05 PM

I don't date because of my weight, the idea of anyone seeing my naked makes me want to cry!

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Posted 29 October 2020 - 01:27 AM

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Posted 30 October 2020 - 10:24 AM

I have to see my doctor in another 2-3 months for a prescription but I know that I could go in anytime before I guess for a physical, but I'm using that excuse to delay it and combine in one appointment. I want the scale to say something good back to me in the office and I want to see her write more of a goal weight in my file. Irresponsible af, I know I know, but it's how I feel

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#6 VioletSkyy


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Posted 30 October 2020 - 11:05 AM

Finding a new therapist (I can't lose weight once I have one so I need to be happy where I am at) stupid logic but hey

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...::Change happens when the pain of change is less than the pain of remaining the same::...

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Posted 04 November 2020 - 01:12 PM

Never enjoyed summers, never going on exotic vacations or visit spas. 

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Posted 05 November 2020 - 04:03 PM

swimsuits, hell no.



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Posted 15 November 2020 - 08:11 PM

My entire fucking life. Literally. It makes me mad.

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UGW: 120
Every 5lbs is a goal reached.


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Posted 15 November 2020 - 10:05 PM

My happiness tbh

Height: 5'55 


CW: been stuck in the 120s like

UGW: 90 

Maintenance Goal: Staying in the range of the 40kgs (90-105ish lbs). BMI 16 probs the sweet spot.

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I am worthy of abundance in my life. (Just not in regards to fat on my body okay I want that fat-free female figure.)
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I am worthy of financial security and financial abundance.



Gave up recovery and the idea of recovering.


I'm not so naiive as to believe that reaching my UGW would be ultimate happiness,

but it is so much easier to be sad and underweight than it is to be fat and depressed.


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Posted 16 November 2020 - 01:40 PM

I have put things off but because everyone around me is always saying “oh you’ll do that when you’re healthier” and then the years pass and my bucket list gets more limited as my health deteriorates so this year I’m saying fuck it to all of them and doing what I want so long as I am stable enough to do it. No more waiting - I don’t plan on recovering in the way they expect me to. I need to be in my safe body and so long as I am not experiencing medical complications, then doing the things I want to do are not mutually exclusive with my physical state.
Can anyone else relate to this?

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Posted 17 November 2020 - 12:07 PM

Actually...nothing... that's pretty shocking, I guess.

Height: 5'6''

Age: 33

ED-NOS (restrict, purge, obsess)


highest weight: 235

lowest adult weight: 117

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Relapses suck.


current weight: 150 145 144

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Posted 20 November 2020 - 10:18 AM

I have put off a lot of hikes, exercise classes, roller skating... I am too mortified of how much I jiggle when I move and how much larger I am than everyone else... it's a bummer.
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Posted 20 December 2020 - 07:02 AM

I go to stuff, but I put myself down the minute I get there. I don’t want my family to miss out on the good stuff in life just because I lack will power, but I spend the whole time judging myself.

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Posted 20 December 2020 - 07:15 AM

Dating. It's been years now. Once I get down to an acceptable weight I want to get back on the dating scene. 

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HW: 118kg

CW: 79.9kg

Goals: 85kg, 80kg, 75kg, 70kg, 65kg, 60kg, 55kg, 50kg

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Posted 20 December 2020 - 09:11 AM

I wanted to get back into exotic dancing before COVID hit, but wasn't where I wanted to be weight wise. I want to go out to Guam before I get too old (I still have some time) 

But being that it's a tropical place year round and obviously a nude job I just wasn't feeling my best. 

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Highest weight : 145

Current weight : 135

GW1: 135 

GW2: 130

GW3: 125

GW4: 120


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Posted 20 December 2020 - 09:38 AM

1- Breast Lift ( I need to lose all the excessive weight then go for it)

2- Cute clothes cuz they look bad if you aint skinny specially silk dresses. I'm dying to get one but if I wear one now I'll start hating them.

3- Meeting up with old friends from high school. Cuz the last time they saw me I was at a way lower weight smh. its embarrassing.

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BMI: 26.5


Height: 163 cm (5"4)

SW: 71.4 kg (157.4 lbs)

CW: 70.4 kg (155.2 lbs)

GW1: 63 kg (138.6 lbs)

GW2: 57 kg (125.4 lbs)

GW3: 53 kg (116.6 lbs)

GW4: 49 kg (107.8 lbs)

UGW: 45 kg (99 lbs)

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Posted 27 December 2020 - 08:55 AM

Most everything in my life has been "put off" because of weight. I didn't graduate from undergrad until I was 27, even though I started when I was 18.  I never had normal 20-year-old experiences.  I didn't have a 21st birthday in the traditional sense.  I've always felt fat and been stuck in my head when I go to the beach.  I spend hours agonizing over what to wear when I'm going to meet up with family or friends.  Often I have trouble falling asleep because I feel so anxious in regards to "needing" to lose weight. 


I look back at photos of myself in my teens and 20s and feel so sad because there was nothing wrong. And now I know in 10 years I'll look back at pictures of me now and feel the same way. But I can't stop.

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Posted 28 February 2021 - 06:12 AM

... returning to university, or a technical college ;even learning a trade. committing myself to an education or "grown up" career, essentially. I dropped out of school due to anorexia and the pervasive anxiety and never really went back.

Now it feels like time is racing and I can either : work toward a job that I love, or vaguely consider starting a family.

neither seem within reach; anorexia still commands my full attention and makes me self-centered.

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Posted 28 February 2021 - 10:40 AM

Buying jeans. I need to be at a certain size first. Weird thing is I have no jeans with which to measure that lol I'll figure it out... I'll know when it's time to buy jeans?

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