Wow. You've been through a lot and are still going through a lot. Good for you though! I know you've gone back to SH but all things considered, you're doing amazingly well. I used to SH for years and I was always so embarrassed. The only reason I stopped is because of my OB visits when I was pregnant. Honestly, you're still so young. If you wanted to have kids later, you totally could. And if you don't, that's awesome. Either way, it's great to be at a time in your life where you can really be selfish in a good way. Enjoy the freedom, enjoy your independence and enjoy doing whatever the fuck you want. <3
Thanks, you're really kind. I'm glad you were able to stop SH for you and your baby. I stopped years ago and would maybe relapse x1 a year after that but sometimes shit happens and I guess you get the undertow. I'm sure I'll crawl out again eventually.
Hope you're doing well this year. At least this year's almost over, so maybe next one will be a bit more normal.. I like to think so. And thank you for saying I'm doing amazing... sounds stupid but sometimes it helps to have that outside perspective (I don't often reveal this info to those I'm closest to IRL) and I really appreciate that a lot <3