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#21 aloethere

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Posted 29 November 2020 - 02:28 AM

dont wanna be fat and dont want any health problems caused by being fat

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Posted 29 November 2020 - 03:33 AM

My motivation is that I'm mentally fucking ill


I couldn’t help but laugh..same.
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Posted 29 November 2020 - 04:10 AM

To gradually destroy my body in a completely unnecessary way

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Posted 29 November 2020 - 05:50 AM

this will sound horrible but my younger brother. he’s 6 years younger and weighs more than me. he’s obese for a child, and my parents don’t care, they buy him fast food and unhealthy junk most days, so he’s heavy and can barely walk nowadays. i feel bad for him and tried to get my mother to cook him healthy meals and help him to exercise but she doesn’t see a problem and lets him do whatever. i love him, but i can’t help but feel a sick satisfaction when he’s eating 1000+ calorie worth of junk food in one go, knowing it’ll make him fatter while i get thinner. i promise i’m not a horrible person lol, i’m trying to get him to lose weight healthily but yeah
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Posted 29 November 2020 - 07:17 PM

this will sound horrible but my younger brother. he’s 6 years younger and weighs more than me. he’s obese for a child, and my parents don’t care, they buy him fast food and unhealthy junk most days, so he’s heavy and can barely walk nowadays. i feel bad for him and tried to get my mother to cook him healthy meals and help him to exercise but she doesn’t see a problem and lets him do whatever. i love him, but i can’t help but feel a sick satisfaction when he’s eating 1000+ calorie worth of junk food in one go, knowing it’ll make him fatter while i get thinner. i promise i’m not a horrible person lol, i’m trying to get him to lose weight healthily but yeah


It's okay, you're not a horrible person for thinking that. Chances are it's your eating disorder's thoughts and not your own. A bit like the intrusive thoughts that come with OCD. Not your fault, you're fine. ^_^

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Posted 29 November 2020 - 07:19 PM

Gradual death because I’m edgy
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#27 stupidskinnybones

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Posted 29 November 2020 - 08:06 PM

I think that I deserve the misery my eating disorder comes with. Also, I've always been the "skinny" friend, and I guess I feel like I need to maintain that image? I guess it's just ingrained in me that I have to be thin and muscular since I was a gymnast. Also I want control, and I want people to be worried about me 😬

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Posted 29 November 2020 - 08:26 PM

Having to look at my body every time I change. I'm borderline underweight and there's so much fat left on my body.




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Posted 29 November 2020 - 09:27 PM

To wear the clothes that I want... I’m unable to wear shorts and skirts because I’m so insecure about my legs.

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Posted 29 November 2020 - 09:57 PM

I think that I deserve the misery my eating disorder comes with. Also, I've always been the "skinny" friend, and I guess I feel like I need to maintain that image? I guess it's just ingrained in me that I have to be thin and muscular since I was a gymnast. Also I want control, and I want people to be worried about me

 

This but I wasn't a gymnast, plus it numbs my brain so I function with at least some semblance to a 'normal' human.


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Posted 29 November 2020 - 09:57 PM

So many reasons, actually...but most importantly, I'd like to be seen as pretty. I know that being skinny leads me one step closer. I'll be honest, I only look good when I'm skinny (especially since I gain a lot of weight in my stomach so I look pregnant). All this weight I gained this past several months make me feel so ugly and undesirable. The kind of men I want, I feel, are into skinnier, dainty women (with some nice 'assets' but skinny nonetheless), and I want to be that woman for them. I know that sounds horrible, but I do have a strong tendency to seek out male validation. I was never known to be pretty at all, and would kill to have guys fall for me. I want to be the perfect bombshell, everyone's dream girl for crying out loud!


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Posted 30 November 2020 - 07:12 AM

I guess my main motivation is to be delicate, fragile, little, and child-like. I am 5’11 and my whole life, I have just wanted to be dainty and small, but even if I am “normal skinny”, I always seem to be bigger than everyone because of my height. I want to be small and fragile like a weightless child so that I can stop feeling like a huge giraffe around everybody.


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Posted 30 November 2020 - 08:21 AM

in the beginning it was just this obsession with being the smallest number i could be, wanting to have control in some way, like literally at my HW i never felt fat, but now at my CW i feel fatter than ever and i just want to be perfect and skinny so i can wear whatever i want and eat “whatever i want” (with more freedom that is LOL) i just wanna be perfect


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#35 LikeMyBody

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Posted 30 November 2020 - 08:38 AM

I want to go into double digits in terms of weight.




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Posted 30 November 2020 - 10:57 AM

To take up as little space in this world as possible... also I don’t want people struggling to carry my coffin when I die which sounds so stupid!
Once again on my road to self destruction 🤦‍♀️

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Posted 30 November 2020 - 11:34 AM

everyone getting fat in quarantine tbh (which sounds mean but i am genuinely terrified of gaining the "quarantine 15" or "COVID 19")
i like how i looked best when my BMI was 18

ednos + ortho tendencies // bmi 21




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