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#641 beetle

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Posted 23 February 2021 - 12:44 AM

i really don't want to be alive today.


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#642 ThinkThin12

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Posted 23 February 2021 - 12:52 AM

These are a godsend. Sugar free, 5 cals a piece, got them at dollar tree, makes my huge water bottle into juice and it actually tastes good lolAttached File  16140595671619102362955999844096.jpg   59.16KB   13 downloads
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#643 wasting

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Posted 23 February 2021 - 01:39 AM

That I need to lose more weight
Been tryna die since 09
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Posted 23 February 2021 - 03:34 AM

im craving loacker hazelnut wafers SO fucking bad. 


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Posted 23 February 2021 - 03:46 AM

im craving loacker hazelnut wafers SO fucking bad. 

i feel this in the pit of my soul


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#646 dumb cutie

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Posted 23 February 2021 - 03:49 AM

i want to eat but i can't eat because i need money to move house. aaaaaah.


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#647 Wrennie

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Posted 23 February 2021 - 03:51 AM

I wish I were an anorexic 12 year old again. Ironically it was when I was the most comfortable in my own skin...

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Posted 23 February 2021 - 04:22 AM

I wish I knew how to stop vomiting involuntarily after a long day of eating pretty much nothin. My parents are gonna be onto me otherwise ughhhhhhhh ://///////


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I wish my weight was as low as my self esteem 


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Posted 23 February 2021 - 06:57 AM

just ate chicken rice carrots nothing special 799 total today i feel like i've taken something i cant believe in sober im literally buzzing from mania and the excitement of this relapse
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#650 Abbey84

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Posted 23 February 2021 - 07:27 AM

Keep fasting... do not cave in...
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#651 Ava Guinevere

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Posted 23 February 2021 - 07:59 AM

Why the hell did you hug the freezer section food protectively into your jacket, the one we wore because we get cold- it looks bad to the supermarket, like weighing the damn thing with the other one in the fruit and veg section to make sure it'd be worth it, rearrange the section so it'd be neater and then wig when you got a freebie 5% discount because sale girl was nice? And why did we need another one when we have seven packets clogging up the freezer now. The safe number is supposed to be three. >(


Oh, wait. I just realized I don't care.


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Posted 23 February 2021 - 12:58 PM

ate under 800 yesterday and today, my bmr is low but it is concerning how i havent felt hunger or tiredness at all

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Posted 23 February 2021 - 01:05 PM

I dreamt last night I had to go to a restaurant, as someone invited me, and we ate pasta with cheese. That dish used to be my favourite before I developed an ed, and never ate it afterwards. I realized upon waking up how I miss that dish.



#654 Diettea123

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Posted 23 February 2021 - 04:33 PM

I want to die.

Also, I can fit the cake bar into my daily kcals.

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CW 44.2 kg
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42.1 kg

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40.1 kg

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39.3 kg

38.9 kg

38.1 kg

 

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UGW 36 kg


#655 Diettea123

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Posted 23 February 2021 - 04:34 PM

Why the hell did you hug the freezer section food protectively into your jacket, the one we wore because we get cold- it looks bad to the supermarket, like weighing the damn thing with the other one in the fruit and veg section to make sure it'd be worth it, rearrange the section so it'd be neater and then wig when you got a freebie 5% discount because sale girl was nice? And why did we need another one when we have seven packets clogging up the freezer now. The safe number is supposed to be three. >(

You check the weights of pre packaged foods, too?! I do to see which is heavier and worth eating, haha

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CW 44.2 kg
43.3 kg
42.1 kg

41.7 kg

40.9 kg

40.1 kg

GW 40kg

 

39.6 kg

39.3 kg

38.9 kg

38.1 kg

 

CMBI 15.7

 

UGW 36 kg


#656 Coffee Breaks

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Posted 23 February 2021 - 04:45 PM

My fianceé might be going on a weekend coast trip with family and I was torn between missing her, and celebrating that I'd be able to eat barely anything if home alone! Also worrying that I'd do the same thing! Wildly conflicting lol

#657 beetle

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Posted 23 February 2021 - 06:28 PM

sad and bingy xoxo


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Posted 23 February 2021 - 06:47 PM

So I'm getting the COVID Vaccine - already had my first dose.

 

Lowkey upset that I never got COVID. I know I'm an idiot, but no sense of taste or smell sounds soooo wonderful and now I've lost my chance. Also, I'm young so my chances of severe side effects are really really really low. I'm in more danger driving to the grocery store to get binge food because I still have my sense of taste  :ph34r:


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Posted 23 February 2021 - 09:04 PM

Feeling so out of control lately.

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Posted 24 February 2021 - 01:47 AM

I just read a thread about macros and got scared because I know it's important to eat carbs and fat to like, live but I can't fucking do it


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