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Aesthetics-wise, do you want to look beautiful or sick?

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#81 greennn

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Posted 13 January 2021 - 10:23 PM

Beauty, duh. I can look pretty and sick~
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Posted 13 January 2021 - 10:59 PM

Sick. I don’t want to be conventionally attractive and if anything the idea somebody would find me attractive in that state disgusts me.
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#83 ghost*of*me

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Posted 13 January 2021 - 11:04 PM

I want to look so minimal that I'm nearly invisible so I guess that would classify me as wanting to look sick...but I'd like to have a beautiful face. So sick body, beautiful face


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Posted 13 January 2021 - 11:44 PM

I want my body to look sick and my face to still look good. When my skin turned gray when I was doing low restrict for like three months straight I was so upset. I couldn't even cover it with makeup I literally was gray, and I have a natural yellow undertone


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Posted 13 January 2021 - 11:48 PM

One of my biggest inspos are Tim Burton movies and Monster High dolls so sick?? I kind of want it to be visible, its something I hate admitting.


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#86 Ana's_Darling

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Posted 13 January 2021 - 11:54 PM

I somehow want both ;-; 
But I guess beautiful? my beautiful, not the way people around me seem to view beauty

Me too it's weird like I want to be like thin but smaller than typical models but still not like how Eugenia Cooney was (no offence to her or to anyone I just didn't know what else to compare it too). Like I want my bones to show (basically I wanna look like the photos in my sig)


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#87 TheJunior

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Posted 13 January 2021 - 11:55 PM

Lol, I flip back and forth but now I think kind of both? Like sickly beautiful. Sick enough that you can see it in my cheeks and chest bones but still have beautiful hair, bright eyes, and keep my good personality/smarts. Be like Angelina Jolie where everyone both worries about you and praises you for your abilities and elegance.

 

Ahhh, what a butterfly view of it all.


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Posted 13 January 2021 - 11:59 PM

sick. as horrible as this might sound, i just want someone to notice what im going through and actually express concern lol


I don't think that's horrible. Sometimes we need validation and someone to give af.
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Posted 14 January 2021 - 12:04 AM

Sick x 100
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Posted 14 January 2021 - 12:10 AM

Sick and fragile.


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Posted 14 January 2021 - 12:13 AM

pretty face and sick looking body


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#92 protopope

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Posted 14 January 2021 - 12:20 AM

I'd choose beautiful/desirable over emaciated/visibly sick. I will admit that I get the appeal of being somewhat emaciated, but rationally that is not my goal. I don't want a BMI of 12.5 and I definitely do not want my appearance to inspire concerned comments from everyone i come into contact with.  

My desired aesthetic is more along the lines of 'precariously thin' (i.e. if I were to get the flu and lose ten pounds, id be in danger of looking totally emaciated. ) I'm content at my CW. I don't think being thin makes me more or less beautiful on the whole, but obviously I prefer it aesthetically and I find that I am a lot more comfortable in my body at a low-ish weight. 


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Posted 14 January 2021 - 01:11 AM

I want to FEEL beautiful.

 

So that means great hair, great shoes, and weighing a half-sandwich north of hospitalization.

 

A half-sandwich north of hospitalisation, I love this


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#94 activecheesecake

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Posted 14 January 2021 - 01:40 AM

Everyone wants the best of both worlds


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Posted 14 January 2021 - 01:50 AM

Beautiful, high fashion skinny
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#96 skinny dippin in the waves

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Posted 14 January 2021 - 04:20 AM

beautiful, i want to look powerful and poised. i definitely do not want to look weak (like i am) or have people pity me or worry about me


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Posted 14 January 2021 - 04:21 AM

I want to be on the cusp of the two.

Like verging on sick but not so sick that I'll have people constantly bothering me. Just enough for it to be slight concerning


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#98 musicalfailure

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Posted 14 January 2021 - 04:51 AM

In the past I would have said sick. Now I'd say beautiful, but y'know not compromise on the thinness
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Posted 14 January 2021 - 04:59 AM

definitely beautiful

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Posted 14 January 2021 - 06:14 AM

Beautiful


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