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Aesthetics-wise, do you want to look beautiful or sick?

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#141 unigirl

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Posted 15 January 2021 - 11:40 PM

I guess I mix between beautiful and are you okay?

 

This. Beauty that generates concern is the only kind of beauty I want


5'2"

CW: 82 lbs, 15 BMI

Relapsing and sad af. Trying to get back up to 90 lbs to be OK again

LW: 77 lbs, 14.08 BMI
​UGW: 70 lbs, 12.8 BMI

HW: 103 lbs, 18.84 BMI

 


#142 perfectmindperfectbody

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Posted 16 January 2021 - 12:42 AM

I want to be on the upper edge of bonespo because to me that is beautiful. I'm not trying to convey my mental suffering, but there aren't many normies that find that weight attractive.

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#143 friendlyneighbourhoodvegan

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Posted 16 January 2021 - 01:18 AM

both lol


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#144 .Lilith.

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Posted 16 January 2021 - 01:21 AM

thinking a mix of both,but more in direction beautiful.By neutral views i got a good start just need to lose the weight and improve my lifestyle.


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#145 spookyskeleboy

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Posted 16 January 2021 - 01:26 AM

Sick. Lol. 


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#146 Sherry_Berry

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Posted 17 January 2021 - 03:01 PM

Sick - I don't want to be approached or conventionally "attractive". I want to be repulsive.


Height: 5'4.75"

 

CW: 118.8lbs (BMI: 19.9) -  12/1/20

GW1: 115lbs (BMI - 19.3)

GW2: 110lbs (BMI - 18.4)

GW3: 105lbs (BMI - 17.6)

GW4: 100lbs (BMI - 16.8)

GW5: 95lbs (BMI - 15.9)

UGW: 90lbs (BMI - 15.1) Goal by June 13

 

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#147 seakissed

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Posted 17 January 2021 - 03:05 PM

Leaning more towards beautiful. Objectively, I don't want to look sick even if I know that's a common 'side effect' of EDs. It's not even about being desirable, more that I want to be beautiful for myself. But I also know that what's beautiful to me might look sick to others who don't have such a distorted views of bodies. 


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#148 lauren9870

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Posted 17 January 2021 - 04:37 PM

always aimed for beautiful, but since i just asked for help I want to look more "sick" to make sure I look like my diagnoses. I'm only slightly underweight which makes me feel like a fake anorexic. 



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Posted 17 January 2021 - 04:41 PM

I want to be beautiful, but my low weight to be the first thing people see. 


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height: 5'3/160cm

hw: 140lbs/63kg

cw: 118lbs/53kg

gw: 110lbs/49kg

ugw: 99lbs/44kg

 


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Posted 17 January 2021 - 04:46 PM

I guess since i don't really feel beautiful, being underweight is kind of light a substitute for that. Generally I think that feeling fragile is attractive, however I don't really like the sick looking aspect that comes with losing. But like I said, it's a better alternative for me that feeling ugly AND too big, if that makes any sense at all

I'm really trying to work on my body dysmorphia because my perspective of my face & body are really skewed. As I've deteriorated ED wise, the range is acceptable for me (weight wise) has also gone down. My perspective of my body has shifted and has become normalized, despite being v underweight.

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#151 cokezerobitch13

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Posted 17 January 2021 - 04:51 PM

sick, cause it would reflect my inner self



#152 unigirl

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Posted 18 January 2021 - 10:28 PM

I revise my stance. I want to look dead.


5'2"

CW: 82 lbs, 15 BMI

Relapsing and sad af. Trying to get back up to 90 lbs to be OK again

LW: 77 lbs, 14.08 BMI
​UGW: 70 lbs, 12.8 BMI

HW: 103 lbs, 18.84 BMI

 


#153 ribb0ne

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Posted 18 January 2021 - 10:28 PM

I want the beautiful slim toned model look


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#154 LostInTheNight

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Posted 18 January 2021 - 10:31 PM

tragically beautiful. like where people know somethings not quite right but not so much that they freak out.

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Posted 18 January 2021 - 11:00 PM

If I had to choose one I'd choose beautiful, but I feel like I would look beautiful if I looked sick.

#156 thin.thighs

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Posted 18 January 2021 - 11:08 PM

To me, 'sick' is beautiful. Bones are as close to perfection as my body will see.


Currently Hospitalized--hospitalized following near cardiac failure 

(A month of treatment, currently on consistent feeding through nasogastric tube of TwoCal NH), ordered bed rest with wheel chair as transport and an IV pushing phosphorus and glucose daily.

Height-177cm/5'9.5

CBMI-14.7/45kg-101lbs  LBMI-12.9/40kg-88lbs

UGW- One may never know (I am one in this situation)

 

 

 


#157 2BeThinEnough

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Posted 18 January 2021 - 11:11 PM

sick, but only to validate my own suffering to myself.

I could not have said it better

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Posted 18 January 2021 - 11:49 PM

definitely want to look sick not beautiful. i feel like im dying and i want to look like it too (i think i'm starting to lol)


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CW 97 lbs / 44 kg




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