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[becausetheysaidso]

Sorry in advance for any errors, I'm at work and don't have the chance to read over this!

I'm 18, my sister's 17, and I've had an ED since I was 11 or 12. I flip-flop between recovery and relapsing (I've never been diagnosed or place in Inpatient, so it's easy to flip-flop since no one is monitoring me). I don't think my sister knew about my eating disorder because one time she made a joke about how I looked better when I was anorexic and I know she wouldn't have said that if she knew that I was actually anorexic.

Two days ago, we were watching something on Netflix and I passively mentioned that I wanted to eat a Potbelly cookie, but it was 410 calories and would put me over my limit. She just laughed at me and said, "You never eat, one cookie won't hurt." I realized that I may have outed myself, then I ate the cookie in front of her and tracked it on my calorie-counting app. I made a joke about how I was 300 calories over my limit and she asked how many calories was I eating a day if it was 1pm and I was already 300 calories over my limit. I told her that I had been snacking all day and my calorie count was a secret.

Then, she came over to my grandmother's house yesterday (I'm staying with my grandmother so I can get SOME independence since I wasn't able to go to college due to the pandemic). They ordered Panda Express and I got the cream cheese rangoons since I'm a vegetarian and they both got some sort of orange chicken bowl. They were concerned that I wasn't eating enough and after some discussion among the two of them, my sister says, "She only eats 600 calories a day." I immediately got defensive (not aggressive tho) but before I could say anything, my grandmother said, "Yeah, I've never seen her eat and I live with her."

I just had to get that off my chest, since I can't tell my friends about it without admitting that I'm restricting again lol

[Brooksy90280]

Yeah that’s so shitty. It makes you feel out of control when other people pressure you to eat. They just don’t understand how important control is. I’m lucky I live alone, so the only time this happens is when I go out to restaurants and stuff

[Sherry_Berry]

The 600 calories thing from your sister was uncalled for, I'm sorry.