I think my sister is catching on
Posted 13 January 2021 - 02:21 PM
I'm 18, my sister's 17, and I've had an ED since I was 11 or 12. I flip-flop between recovery and relapsing (I've never been diagnosed or place in Inpatient, so it's easy to flip-flop since no one is monitoring me). I don't think my sister knew about my eating disorder because one time she made a joke about how I looked better when I was anorexic and I know she wouldn't have said that if she knew that I was actually anorexic.
Two days ago, we were watching something on Netflix and I passively mentioned that I wanted to eat a Potbelly cookie, but it was 410 calories and would put me over my limit. She just laughed at me and said, "You never eat, one cookie won't hurt." I realized that I may have outed myself, then I ate the cookie in front of her and tracked it on my calorie-counting app. I made a joke about how I was 300 calories over my limit and she asked how many calories was I eating a day if it was 1pm and I was already 300 calories over my limit. I told her that I had been snacking all day and my calorie count was a secret.
Then, she came over to my grandmother's house yesterday (I'm staying with my grandmother so I can get SOME independence since I wasn't able to go to college due to the pandemic). They ordered Panda Express and I got the cream cheese rangoons since I'm a vegetarian and they both got some sort of orange chicken bowl. They were concerned that I wasn't eating enough and after some discussion among the two of them, my sister says, "She only eats 600 calories a day." I immediately got defensive (not aggressive tho) but before I could say anything, my grandmother said, "Yeah, I've never seen her eat and I live with her."
I just had to get that off my chest, since I can't tell my friends about it without admitting that I'm restricting again lol
Posted 16 January 2021 - 09:25 PM
Posted 17 January 2021 - 10:10 AM
The 600 calories thing from your sister was uncalled for, I'm sorry.
CW: 118.8lbs (BMI: 19.9) - 12/1/20
GW1: 115lbs (BMI - 19.3)
GW2: 110lbs (BMI - 18.4)
GW3: 105lbs (BMI - 17.6)
GW4: 100lbs (BMI - 16.8)
GW5: 95lbs (BMI - 15.9)
UGW: 90lbs (BMI - 15.1) Goal by June 13
"Love looks not with the eyes, but with the mind, and therefore is winged Cupid painted blind." - A Midsummer Night's Dream
0 user(s) are reading this topic
0 members, 0 guests, 0 anonymous users