Posted 20 February 2021 - 02:49 AM
I'm super open with my partner. he knows about my ED and my SH. we have an agreement of rules, though. like, for my SH, I just have to tell him about it within a few days of doing.
RE my ED: I'm allowed to skip meals, but he wants at least OMAD. we usually eat meals together, but again, I'm allowed to skip if necessary. he helps me weigh my meals when we make some (including even TV dinners and shit); but when we do a big meal together once a week, I just use the recipe.
my general approach in life is be as open as possible so that it's less obvious when I hide something. for example, I'm agreeing to do OMAD, and I stay honest about it. buuuuuut, there's no limitations on how small that one meal has to be. so I eat a small bowl of pickles and call that my OMAD, lol. he asks if I ate, I can honestly say yes.
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Height: 5'6" ♤ Hi W: 189.3 lbs [12/27/2017] ♤ St W: 174.7 lbs [10/23/2019] ♤ Lo W: 136.1 lbs [12/03/2020]
📅 Cu W: 146.8 lbs [02/18/2021]
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✅ GW1: 170.0 lbs [11/28/2019] ♤ ✅ GW2: 160.0 lbs [01/16/2020] ♤ ✅ GW3: 149.9 lbs [04/23/2020] ♤ ✅ GW4: 139.9 lbs [06/04/2020] ♤ GW5: 129.9 lbs ♤ GW6: 124.9 lbs ♤ GW7: 119.9 lbs
UGW: 115.0 lbs
there is never a sudden revelation, a complete and tidy explanation for why it happened, or why it ends, or Why or Who you are. you want one and I want one, but there isn't one. it comes in bits and pieces, and you stitch them together wherever they fit, and when you are done you hold yourself up, and still there are holes and you are a rag doll, invented, imperfect. and yet you are all that you have, so you must be Enough. there is no other way.
― Marya Hornbacher, Wasted: A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia