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#41 dumb cutie

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Posted 22 February 2021 - 03:04 AM

having hunger pangs all day. so annoying.


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#42 starvingartistx

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Posted 22 February 2021 - 03:06 AM

Sitting down and seeing my fucking massive thighs :///// kill me please.


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#43 unigirl

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Posted 22 February 2021 - 03:10 AM

I saw a girl thinner than me


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#44 beetle

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Posted 22 February 2021 - 03:13 AM

seeing my arms jiggle in the mirror when i was working out.


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#45 jackalyvia

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Posted 22 February 2021 - 05:00 AM

Probably you’ll have some peace this weekend as she’ll be in the bathroom.

Shes only here on the weekends to see her kid but this thought will give me life during the week🤣
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Posted 22 February 2021 - 03:09 PM

I fit into an xs skirt I ordered but I look like I've lost no weight since I was 130. And it is not just body dysmorphia. I genuinely still look large. 


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#47 igoteverythingiwanted

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Posted 22 February 2021 - 03:18 PM

My grandma. She got my mum this jumper as a present, my mum is 5'6" and the same weight as me (I'm 5'11") and my mum put it on. I said to my mum that the jumper was nice and joked that I'd steal it off her. My grandma (I love her she wasn't trying to be nasty) was then like 'oh it'd be too small for you' and I wanted to cry.

I'm the same or lower clothes size than my mum and my grandma said after that she meant height wise as in the jumper would be too short on me or something but even still her saying it made me feel so fat.

#48 pleaseletmebethin1

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Posted 22 February 2021 - 03:26 PM

Might not be the right place. Today I rang the community mental health team. I was honest said I’ve been restricting to 400 ish calories and using laxatives. The Cpn said well your not a uk size 6 so you might as well carry on. Now I’m determined to be an fxxxxing size 6



#49 I'm a black rainbow

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Posted 22 February 2021 - 09:15 PM

I used to low restrict and now I high restrict. While I don't feel guilty about eating more by itself, it hits me hardest when something happens and I don't have "hey, at least I didn't eat today" to fall back on. Plus now that I have to plan in advance to pack meals, there's no question that I'll have a meal at a specific time. But today, for example. I packed a lunch, and I was even going with a couple friends to go get pizza. Me, just vibin, not worrying about pizza because I got my lunch and I know because of my high restriction I'm not going to get hungry, and one of my friends starts talking about working out and says "I don't do cardio because I'll lose too much weight" and my stomach just DROPS and I ate half of my dinner and none of my snacks after that. I so goddamn wish I was struggling to not lose weight, that I had to keep myself from doing cardio in order to not lose weight holy s h i t

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#50 I'm a black rainbow

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Posted 22 February 2021 - 09:19 PM

Might not be the right place. Today I rang the community mental health team. I was honest said I’ve been restricting to 400 ish calories and using laxatives. The Cpn said well your not a uk size 6 so you might as well carry on. Now I’m determined to be an fxxxxing size 6


Jesus fuck, they shouldn't be qualified ro give anyone advise if they're telling you to carry on with that. Please don't. Please, please don't. That is very low restriction and laxatives are going to dehydrate you way more, they are very unsafe.

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#51 lifelongerror

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Posted 22 February 2021 - 11:53 PM

for my crime and deviance class it was a chapter on people with eating disorders (deviance as in something that goes against the social norm, not, like, illegal lol) but wow was just unexpected :(



#52 dumb cutie

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Posted 23 February 2021 - 03:55 AM

comparing my thighs to a friends.


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Posted 23 February 2021 - 03:58 AM

Seeing other people’s healthy, firm skin. Especially if it’s still firm & healthy on an OLDER person. Even though I’m young, I’ll never get mine back. It was stolen from me so soon. I have to starve myself just for it to look semi-presentable. I hate seeing my mom and aunt’s skin because it reminds me of what medication took from me.

#54 Tinkerbell_love_123

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Posted 23 February 2021 - 04:03 AM

In the office (have not been in 2 weeks). First my colleague brought cake and now there is a slice on my table. Then he said "dont you think she is getting slimmer and slimmer?" and told me to eat and stop losing weight.
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Posted 23 February 2021 - 07:22 AM

my stick thin gf talking about how she forgets to eat. i also watched a vid of a girl saying she was quitting purging right when i had just binged so i was like fuck it im gonna try purging rn.


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#56 KingOfClowns

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Posted 23 February 2021 - 05:52 PM

My mother saying “He’s the tallest, but also the thinnest”.
Middle seat is mine, and it comes with validation.

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Posted 23 February 2021 - 05:58 PM

My boyfriend is not super interested in sex and he’s spent all day today and yesterday and his computer and it’s kinda making me feel like I’m not attractive enough so...here I am. Chilling in the living room while he’s in his room gaming.

Consider me one plan away from suicide

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Posted 23 February 2021 - 07:15 PM

Seeing the amount of peanut butter my dad put on his toast, listening to him crunch and smack while he ate it, and then a few hours later hearing him eat lunch super loudly while I was in the bathroom all the way down the hall. I feel bad because it's not his fault, but it makes me feel grossed out by food and eating.



#59 Meenah Peixes

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Posted 24 February 2021 - 02:19 AM

my brother asking me if i had an ED and believing me when I said no

I wanna get to where nobody believes my lies


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#60 starvingartistx

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Posted 24 February 2021 - 03:19 AM

Sitting on the bus home and seeing a bunch of skinny happy friends sitting down opposite me. Their thighs were so much thinner than mine - mine just splayed apart, a huge pile of fat :( :( :( :(I hope I lose weight in my legs soon.


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