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*adapted* HSGD - from 65kg to 57kg :) Cw: 60.5 kg


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#1 TheClown_x

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Posted 20 February 2021 - 06:10 AM

Hey, I've been in a bad place for some time now and I really need to take myself more serious and consistent. I will write more in detail in a bit I'm quite in a rush right now but basically gonna switch 800 days with 1300 for a metabolism boost as I workout with heavy weights etc. 

 

Anyway, I will write more this evening <3


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#2 TheClown_x

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Posted 20 February 2021 - 12:20 PM

Okay so... last summer I managed to lose weight really nice, I was so happy with my body and then came second lockdown in october and I just started binging and it all went to hell. I am so heavy now it's disgusting. I've been binging past 3 days BIG. In 3 months it's already summer and the weather is already getting warmer which means no more hiding behind big warm clothes. Which is also a sign that it's time I get my shit back together.

I workout with weights, I like to lift heavy so I stay toned that's why I said I wouldn't do 800 calories because I just know I'd binge. So Instead I will be doing 1300 calories on those days to keep me from binging as I will be getting a tad more food. I also said 21 days because like that I am more motivated as it's only 3 weeks. If I see 60 days I just give up lol.

So now I will write the calorie plan I will be following in the next 21 days, hoping to reach 59 kg (high hopes, hopefully I have some water weight which would mean losing first few kg faster):







 

Start Date: 21. February, 2021

End Date: 14. March, 2021

SW: 65.5 kg



Calorie Goal / Calories Consumed

FEBRUARY

Day 1: 900 / ??

Day 2: 1000 / 1200

Day 3: 900 / ??

Day 4: 1000 / 897

Day 5: 950 / 532

Day 6: 1100 / 856

Day 7: 1100 / 885

Day 8: 900 / 849


CW: __63.1 kg___


MARCH

Day 9: 1300 / 1300

Day 10: 900 / 920

Day 11: 1000 / 1001

Day 12: 950 / 950

Day 13: 1100 / 1099

Day 14: 1150 / 938

Day 15: 900 / 901

 

CW: __60.5 kg__


Day 16: 1300 / 2000+

Day 17: 900 /

Day 18: 1000 /

Day 19: 1000 /

Day 20: 1100 /

Day 21: 1150 /

Day 22: 1000 /


3 weeks DONE!


SW: 65.4 kg

GW: 59.9 kg

EW/CW: ______


Day 23: 1200 /

Day 24: 1150 /

Day 25: 1300 /

Day 26: 1200 /

Day 27: 1200 /

Day 28: 1200 /

Day 29: 1300 /

Day 30: 1200 /

Day 31: 1200 /

Day 32: 1200 /

Day 34: 1250 /

Day 35: 1200 /

Day 36: 1250 /

Day 37: 1300 /

Day 38: 1250 /

Day 39: 1200 /

Day 40: 1200 /


SW: 65.5 kg

GW: 57.0 kg

CW: ______


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#3 TheClown_x

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Posted 21 February 2021 - 03:32 AM

Good morning! I‘m excited to start because I‘m a mess I also know that first few days are going to be hard and I will want to binge and give up but I CAN‘T!

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Posted 21 February 2021 - 11:31 AM

Day 1; 21. February 2021

 

?? / 900 calories 

 

Well... I actually binged but not as big as previous days, like I stayed under 2000 calories and umm I stopped eating at 13:00 so I'm fasting since (it's 17:30 now). I will fast of course until tomorrow morning for breakfast and yeah. I didn't reach the 900 from today but still waaaaay better than past 3 days so I'm glad about that. 

 

I knew it's not going to be perfect from the first day so I'm ok. I managed to get my ass out of bed and couch and went for a walk in the forest, did 10k steps and now I'm tired and hungry (even tho my ass been eating like a pig for the past 4 days). So yep, gotta push through and weigh myself tomorrow cause I'm not even sure I am 65 kg, what if I am more.. lemme die yep. 

 

Anyway I hope to reach 62kg by next Monday as I think first few kg will go bit faster due to water weight. I weigh every day cause I'm dumb yes. Okayy then till tomorrow  :)


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#5 TheClown_x

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Posted 22 February 2021 - 06:25 AM

Day 2; 22. February 2021

 

1200 ??/ 1000 

 

Apparently I have to fail also on day 2. Ughh. Anyway fasting again until tomorrow, it's exactly 12:20 And I binged on all my calories even though I had it all planned out already but my mind decided I enjoy binging more. I'm so stupid. 

 

Well at least I get to fast until tomorrow, I like fasting because I feel in control - opposite from binging. I also haven't been feeling like working out lately.. I will try to do it later today, I am too full now so maybe I'll go just for a walk now. 

 

I lost some weight from yesterday even though I binged, I'm telling you it's because I binged so much more previous days. Oh well not complaining I just want to reach 60 kg asap. 

 

CW: 64.6 kg 

SW: 65.5 kg 

 

 

*edit: I binged. not big, but I did. I hate myself, can someone help me.. I was like "well I'm fat already so who cares" I mean.. I will never lose weight this way, who do I think I ammmmmm :(  :(  :(  :( ".. 


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#6 TheClown_x

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Posted 22 February 2021 - 10:57 AM

Little Rant Cause I need it: Idk why I always do this. I expect too much from myself, like in my mind I think I will just reach 59 kg by Monday which I KNOW I WON'T since my current weight ist like 5 kg more.. da fuq. Like I even wrote realistic goals but I still expect unrealistic. My plan or goal is to be 62 kg by Monday (WHICH I CAN IF I STOP WITH THIS NONSENSE), and then next Monday 60.5 kg WHICH I ALSO CAN. And then I gave myself ANOTHER WEEK to reach 59 kg. 

 

SO GIRL GET YOUR SHIT TOGETHER AND STOP FAILING AND CRYING HOW FAT YOU ARE

WHEN IT'S YOUR FAULT TO STILL BE AT THIS POINT AS YOU KEEP SAYING, 

"OH JUST ONE MORE TIME, I'M FAT ANYWAY"

YOU KNOW IT MAKES NO SENSE.. 

 

Okay sorry for the rant but I needed to clear this out with myself lol. Huh LET'S GET THIS BREAD. I WILL DO THIS, I AM STRONG ENOUGH. Hope future me reads this and be like I'M PROUD. 

 

 

K, I'm out. (until tomorrow lol)
 


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#7 TheClown_x

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Posted 22 February 2021 - 03:34 PM

I‘m so saaaaad. Why do I have to be fat again.. why did I let myself get this fat again after i finally reach my GW last summer. Ugh. Yep I‘m ranting a lot cause I have no one to talk to about this. Ugh I hate meeeee.

Lemme just focus for now on getting to 62 kg by monday


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Posted 24 February 2021 - 03:21 AM

Day 3; 23 February 2021

 

?? / 900

 

Yeah I've been a mess really.. binged again.. I stopped eating at 11:30 and started a fast which I will break now and then start another one.. I know I'm not following my calorie plan but I will get to it soon hopefully.. It's hard to break off a binging cycle but I'm trying my best and fasting helps with bloating.. After this meal I will try to do a 48 hour fast

 

Sadly I also got my period yesterday and idk if my weight is real or not so I'll just wait with weighing until Monday.. If I am not 62 kg on Monday, I will do another 24h fast until I am 62!! 


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Posted 24 February 2021 - 03:26 AM

Day 4; 24 February 2021

897 / 1000

Breaking my fast now at exactly 22 hours in, gonna eat something (I know it won't be healthy, probably like a bingy moment - but it's where I'm currently at trying to get rid of binging so even reducing the quantity or size of my binges is an improvement for me). After the meal I will start another 24 hour fast or maybe if I can make it I will do a 48 hour fast <3.

That means that the rest of today which is Wednesday will be a fast, then tomorrow morning Thursday I will break a 24 hour fast with HOPEFULLY healthy breakfast (as I've been breaking the fast with small binges), and after the breakfast I will try a 48 hour fast which means eating next on Saturday morning. I will have a sleepover at my friends house maybe this weekend but she also eats healthy so at least I won't be able to binge.

Then hopefully when I get home on Monday I weigh 62 kg. That's the plan folkssss

Update: I ate
- sandwich with cream cheese
- cereal with rice milk
- kinder chocolate bar
= 897 calories


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Posted 24 February 2021 - 01:32 PM

hey!! i actually started the hsgd on the exact same day as you. ive also been in a really bad binge-restrict cycle since christmas. ive been unable to maintain any weight loss and keep gaining and losing the same 7 pounds. i wanted to do this diet to get myself out of binging and actually keep weight off and also prove to myself that i can do it. do you mind if i join you? we can keep each other motivated, if not thats cool though. 

 

good luck girl, i know what binges do to your mindset but you can totally do this


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Posted 24 February 2021 - 03:04 PM

hey!! i actually started the hsgd on the exact same day as you. ive also been in a really bad binge-restrict cycle since christmas. ive been unable to maintain any weight loss and keep gaining and losing the same 7 pounds. i wanted to do this diet to get myself out of binging and actually keep weight off and also prove to myself that i can do it. do you mind if i join you? we can keep each other motivated, if not thats cool though.

good luck girl, i know what binges do to your mindset but you can totally do this


Heyooo, I‘m sorry you‘ve been in the same shit as me it‘s so annoying I keep doing the same mistakes makes no sense?!! Of course you can join but I would like to keep this thread as „just mine“ because I have it as a diary if you don‘t mind but you can send me a PM or if you have Instagram we can text there? Or Whatsapp

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#12 TheClown_x

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Posted 24 February 2021 - 04:03 PM

I just saw myself in the mirror after showering.. how could I let myself get this fat again? I am so sad, but at the same time I‘m so stupid I just complain all the time instead of doing something about it like actually following my plan.. I will try to follow my plan from tomorrow on cause fasting just makes me binge.. ugh i‘m sorry I‘m pathetic for being so inconsistent.


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Posted 24 February 2021 - 04:16 PM

Brainstorming next 4 day solution to MAYBE still be able to reach 62kg by Monday probs not but okay

Thursday: 900 calories + workout + start a fast at 13:00
Friday: 1100 calories + workout + start a fast at 13:00
Saturday: 1100 calories + workout + walking (meeting with a friend)
Sunday: 900 calories OR FAST if possible + workout

CW no idea cause I‘m on my period



 


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Posted 25 February 2021 - 06:19 AM

I just got my wisdome tooth pulled out. Guess who won‘t be able to eat a few days, yay. Or just liquids

 


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Posted 25 February 2021 - 02:29 PM

Day 5; 25 February 2021

532 / 950

So today I got my wisdom tooth removed, I AM IN SO MUCH PAIN. I only had breakfast and some snack before my appointment and after it I didn‘t eat BECAUSE I JUST CANT. I also have to liquid fast basically until Monday so kinda happy about that because I am legit NOT ALLOWED to binge or eat anything solid. So yay

I‘m fasting since 9:30 am and will break it tomorrow at 9:30 am so that I do 24h and yeah. What‘s also shit is that I cant have coffee, any milk products and yeah.


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Posted 27 February 2021 - 04:01 PM

Day 6; 26 February 2021

First of all sorry I‘m inconsistent with posting so I just post for the days back.

856 / 1100
- smoothie
- potato soup
- tomato soup

I‘m getting so tired of liquid fastinggggg it doesn‘t fill me up at all and miss actual food. What I miss even more is COFFEE, having such headaches because I‘m not drinking it. Mondayy come fast so I can have some

Wisdom tooth doesn‘t hurt anymore but I still have to stick to the liquid foods until Monday

Exercise: I‘m not allowed yet but I did walk quite a lot 11.000 steps


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Posted 27 February 2021 - 04:05 PM

Day 7; 27 February 2021

Oh wow exactly a week, Imm still a fat ass tho.

885 / 1100
- smoothie
- broccoli soup
- baby food (mango & apple puree)

I can‘t wait to eat real food and MORE food.. Imm not even reaching 1000 calories I‘m so tired and hungry. But I am legit not allowed to eat actual food til Monday, so even if I‘m having binge thoughts I can‘t cave in which is good but at the same time damn I wanna binge - stupid I know.

I am also afraid to weigh because I look so bloated, like legit looking pregnant even tho I eat so little. I guess it‘s cause of liquids, carbs and no bm in 3-4 days

Might weigh on Monday but idk if it will show my real weight. Anyway, hopefully my tooth heals fast and I can eat normally again.

Exercise: still none bu 13.000 steps


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Posted 28 February 2021 - 06:39 AM

Day 8; 28 February 2021

 

849 / 900

- protein smoothie (frozen raspberries, 1 banana, 40g oats, 1 scoop protein powder)

- mashed potatoes & broccoli 

- broccoli soup (1 tsp olive oil, 1/2 onion, 2 carrots, 100g broccoli, soup broth)

 

soup soup soup every day, getting sick of it but I have to keep eating soup for whole week but I can slowly start adding whole SOFT foods, like oatmeal, scrambled eggs etc. 

 

Today I might not go for a walk to rest a bit, as tomorrow I am planing on starting working out again - weight lifting. Tomorrow is also finally a higher calorie day (1300) which I am excited about because I've been eating so low + liquid. Anyway, I don't know if I will weigh tomorrow as my weight isn't really realistic at the moment, I am holding on very much water weight, poop weight and well yeah. I might be 63 tomorrow instead of 62 but that's ok. I have the whole March to reach 58-59 :))


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Posted 01 March 2021 - 12:53 PM

Day 9; 1 March 2021

 

woahh it's March already. Alright here we goo, new month new beginning right? 

 

1300 / 1300

- oatmeal with protein and blueberries

- mashed potatoes and broccoli

- chocolate, peanut butter smoothie with chia seeds and 1/2 banana

- tomato soup 

 

Exercise: total body workout with weights + went for a walk

 

Ahhh today I could finally have coffee and some ACTUAL food for breakfast. But still kept other meals liquid as I probably will for the rest of the week. I also feel better as I finally had a bit higher intake (still restriction tho). Anywayyy, I'm a bit disappointed I didn't lose more weight with eating so low past few days + liquid fasting but ok. It might also be due to carby meals and salty soup broths plus I just finished my period so yep we'll see. 

 

I thought I would be 62 kg by today but I am 63 kg which is also not as bad. I'm trying to comfort myself by saying that muscles weight more so maybe I won't be able to reach a really low weigh? anway.. we'll see. I'm feeling good which is what matters at the end of the day :)

 

CW: 63.1 kg 

SW: 65.5 kg


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Posted 03 March 2021 - 04:48 AM

Day 10; 2 March 2021

920 / 900
- oatmeal with protein and raspberries
- mashed potatoes with broccoli and fish fillet
- protein shake
- vegetable soup

Exercise: workout with weights


CW: 62.9 kg
SW: 65.5 kg

 


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