How did you get fat?
Posted 21 February 2021 - 10:48 AM
For me, it’s basically not knowing about calories (not tracking them, no sense of the amount that is in certain foods) and making a loooot of excuses to just eat whatever I want. For example, when I had a long day at work I would come home and think to myself, it has been a hard day, I deserve to eat some pizza and ice cream. But then, every day there was another excuse. Also I never really focused too much on my weight and try to justify being fat by thinking you don’t need to be thin to be pretty. This was all pretty much before my ED started (although I didn’t have a great relationship with food to begin with)
Realizing how I got to this place helps me with keeping myself on track, so I’m curious about your stories!
(First topic I made so if this isn’t something that should be discussed please let me know)
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hw: 245 (1-1-2021)
cw: 164.9 (23-11-2021)
Posted 21 February 2021 - 10:57 AM
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Posted 21 February 2021 - 11:03 AM
That was a few months ago, but basically after fasting for 30 days, I decided to 'heal my relationship with food', but instead of healing, I just stuffed myself because I was so deprived!!! I gained all my fasting weight back and more while telling myself I was recovering. When, in truth, I knew all along that once I felt too fat I would slip back into purging and resticting anyways.
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My completed successful 30 day fast here.
Posted 21 February 2021 - 11:15 AM
Eating dark chocolate, 2 or more giant sweet potatoes, lots of oatmeal drowned in honey and fruit, and a half block of cheese every day for breakfast and then lots of meat and starches( brown rice. beans, etc.) for dinner. I went from 41 to 47kg in a month. Proof that you can get fat without eating junk food.
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How I lost weight with a Japanese Diet and Intermittent Fasting:https://www.myproana...kg-my-ed-story/
My accountability :https://www.myproana...accountability/
Posted 21 February 2021 - 11:26 AM
My main reason was because I was put on anti-psychotics for my schizophrenia and because of it, I had extreme weight gain. Let me say, going from being anorexic and put on a high intensity diet to gain weight to extremely overweight killed me. I'm working now to get rid of all that fat, because in 2019 I lost a bunch of weight and was actually healthy... then gained it back again. Trying to get back on track, but it's definitely harder than some people think.
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Weight loss - Updated 02/21/2021
HW - 270lb
LW - 120lb
UGW - 120lb
Posted 21 February 2021 - 12:06 PM
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Posted 21 February 2021 - 01:01 PM
A supportive husband who tells me I'm beautiful no matter how much I weigh. When I'm at a "normal" weight, I restrict and exercise more to compensate for my binging. In college and after getting married (my two highest weight periods), I compensated less but kept binging. I'm trying to work through my binging right now, and I'm hoping the compensating behaviors can be made just regular healthy nutrition and exercise after that.
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Moved to EDC
Posted 21 February 2021 - 03:10 PM
I did then lose quite a lot of it, but in lockdown I’ve managed to revert back to my agoraphobic middle school self and gained it all back...
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HW: 270 lbs
Posted 21 February 2021 - 03:12 PM
getting friends and binge drinking after work then eating taco bell and dominos like every. single. night. Because I was finally happy and didn't care anymore
Posted 21 February 2021 - 07:23 PM
I stopped purging after years and years of being bulimic. The binging part of my b/ping stayed, but that's what I'm working on now. I'd rather be fat and where I am now mentally though than where I was mentally at my LW. I was far more miserable.
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Posted 21 February 2021 - 09:18 PM
while in recovery from anorexia b/p, i triggered my BED again. i kept lying to myself for YEARS and said that i was "in recovery" but really, i had just traded one ED for another. and most people (polite ones anyway) don't really comment when you gain weight as much as when you lose it, in my experience. i was still getting tons of compliments. had a bunch of muscle. so i kind of just kept gaining weight and pretending everything was fine, until eventually i hit the obese bmi category. now i'm doing high restriction for the first time as i'm hoping it won't trigger my bingeing again. i'm so drained from the constant weight fluctuations. but i do agree with hauntao. ^^ i was far more miserable at my LW than even at my HW and i never want to go back to that.
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UGW: recovered tbh
Posted 21 February 2021 - 09:43 PM
Followed by my boyfriend (at the time) cheating on me.
My longest fast was that week- 5.5 days
Posted 21 February 2021 - 10:58 PM
Surprise, surprise, this started disordered habits for me. When I refused to visit him anymore around age 16, I started a heavy restriction phase. My best friend at the time was battling anorexia and definitely encouraged it. I got down to an almost healthy weight in a really short period of time and then my mental health collapsed. I binged constantly up until about a year ago. I ate my way up to 215 lbs, putting me at a BMI of 32. I know that isn’t as bad as some, but I felt awful.
I tried to start eating healthy about a year ago and it kicked disordered habits up again. Ugh. My therapist just diagnosed me recently with EDNOS (I think it’s actually called OSFED now but I hate that term) and it’s nothing that I didn’t already know lmao.
Posted 21 February 2021 - 11:05 PM
Posted 21 February 2021 - 11:31 PM
The super fun adventure that has been tragedy after tragedy after fucking tragedy over the past few years. I have lost so many loved ones, in 2020 especially, that I honestly don't know how I'm still standing. Or still alive, really. I'm a shell of the person I used to be, and I'll never have that person back - so I guess that's another loss.
Throughout the past year I've been swinging wildly through long phases of being entirely unable to eat due to grief, and comfort eating thousands of calories in a sitting. So now here I am, obese and so shattered that I don't think I'm physically capable of feeling emotions anymore. I've suppressed so much that I'm gradually losing my ability to retain memories at all, lol
Posted 22 February 2021 - 12:07 AM
Divorce, health issues (life-threatening reaction to a medication), attempting ED recovery (and stopped counting calories for a while), work stress, ordering too much takeout and drinking too much beer during covid.
Goal 1: -30lbs (Sept 1, 2021)
Goal 2: -50lbs (Nov 1, 2021)
Goal 3: -70lbs (Jan 1, 2022)
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