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#21 Amiral



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Posted 22 February 2021 - 05:39 AM

Yoyoing, convincing myself i understand CICO while not counting calories/underestimating and not excersising to actually get to the "calories out" part of it.


Ive realized it needs to be part of my lifestyle for me, it doesnt work with only "wanting to be skinny" as a reason i guess.

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Posted 22 February 2021 - 05:41 AM

First time- basically convinced myself I have a problem which made it impossible for me to lose weight, and which i did but it wasn’t IMPOSSIBLE , gave up and ate whatever the fuck i wanted whenever i wanted however much i wanted

This time- full blown BED

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Posted 22 February 2021 - 06:47 AM

My parents never told me no when I was younger... I have obese parents and whenever I was sad instead of taking care of me they gave me treats, cakes, etc. Now Im atoning for those sins. Unfortunately is caused me to go through a long period of BED and now Ana. I still have so much to lose.

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Posted 22 February 2021 - 07:22 AM

Long story short, I started recovery and in the beginning, it was all sunshine and butterflies. But then I got above 40kg and shit hit the fan. I avoided therapy, stayed home all day, skipped college like 3 days a week, didn't attend my sem exam and binged my way to my heighest weight. I would start over every week try to low restrict and go to college. And by Wednesday I'd be too tired(I had to travel two hours from and to college because I refused to stay at dorm). Then I discontinued my course for a year and didn't leave home for months, restricting and binging like crazy. I got to 55-56kg(I'm like 5ft). Man, that was hell of a time

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Posted 22 February 2021 - 08:39 AM

For me it happened as a result of being sectioned against my will after a very severe suicide attempt. The psych ward I was imprisoned in gave us literally *nothing* to do to occupy our time. The only things I had to look forward to as a temporary respite from my boredom were the meals and snacks... Needless to say, with no means of weighing myself to make sure things hadn’t gotten out of hand I ended up putting on a whopping 30 pounds within my 4 week stay there.

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Posted 22 February 2021 - 08:42 AM

quitting purging at the same time as i got and office job and a disposable income. less physical activity and not purging plus money for all the binge food i could get my hands on.

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Posted 22 February 2021 - 08:51 AM

I was a chubby kid and my dad used to make me exercise for punishment for anything that I did wrong. So like if my sister and I got in a fight and hit each other, my sister would get a timeout for punishment and I would be forced to do 100 sit ups. This, paired with bullying both in school and at ballet classes, made me form a toxic relationship with both food and exercise. I can’t exercise around men, especially my dad, and don’t like exercising with anyone I know around me. I also used to bounce between binging and restricting so gained a lot. Now I’m 22, 115kg and only just being able to eat in front of others without extreme anxiety (sometimes lol) and exercise at a girls-only gym in the quietest times!
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Posted 22 February 2021 - 08:55 AM

Having ptsd and health issues meant that I was in bed for several years and now I can’t walk far but I’m determined to put my weight issues right
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Posted 22 February 2021 - 09:01 AM

Depression and self hatred. I ate to feel a pleasure I didn't get from reality. Simple.
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Posted 22 February 2021 - 12:11 PM

Trauma--- After my whole world crashed and burned I stopped giving a fuck. The first week alone any 'bad food' any 'high calorie' shit was bought and stuffed in my face. I've been ED focused since I was 11, Im 29 ---- so years of me convincing myself I hate bagels and pastas and carbs and literally conditioning myself to find it disgusting so I don't crave it. Telling myself that I don't like sweets to avoid temptations. Convincing others that I'm allergic to certain foods..... and then when my life came tumbling down I order every fast food thing to my house. Every thing I would never put in my body. Because I didn't care. Because why did it matter. Everything was pointless and everyone I loved died and there was nothing left for me......


Well over 90 bs later I'm not over the trauma part but I'm over the massive obesity part... 


I think part of my ED was that it gave me someone to look forward to. Like rules that make feel accomplished. It made me feel a sense of control yes, but it made me (not always but sometimes) made me feel I worth something... even though my ED voice is clearly telling me lies... 


Also when I recovered from bulimia as a teenager and I went into full BED mode but than I lost all that weight 


Yeah so I have relapsed so many times I can't count. So which time do you want because I got many a stories LOL LOL LOL 

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Posted 22 February 2021 - 01:06 PM

It was bulimia for me. I thought purging was a nice undo but it just made me walk into more situations where I would need the undo but sadly it was clearly not a 100% undo lmao
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Posted 22 February 2021 - 06:11 PM

TW !!. I had gotten pregnant, and was basically coheresd by my mom into getting an abortion. Also pretty much everyone I knew was telling me I was going to ruin my bf life if I had the baby. I'm very pro choice, but didn't think abortion would be something I'd want. I got the abortion. Ended up more depressed than I already was. Ended up binging and over eating.
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Posted 22 February 2021 - 08:09 PM

i was skinny and get into depression and i ate a lot bc of my sadness and didn't care about my body, it took 5 years or so and i am fat now and i am trying to change

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Posted 23 February 2021 - 12:52 AM


believed my therapist who told me i wasn’t overeating and wasn’t overweight believed her when she said i don’t need to count steps.
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Posted 23 February 2021 - 01:23 AM

i was always pretty muscular and i was TALL and grew awkwardly throughout elementary and middle school so i would gain a lot of weight, look bulky, and then get taller and look normal. i was really athletic so it was never a big deal. but when i was 10 i ended up developing several health conditions and became disabled so i wasn’t able o exercise, and when i was 11 or 12 i had an issue with my thyroid, so i gained 35 - 40 lbs in 4 months before i was diagnosed. when that happened, i was already starting to feel insecure about my body because of being shamed and bullied both at school and in my house, so i started a restrict-binge cycle that would be CONSTANT throughout my life (i’m nearly 16 now), which in turn made me gain more weight and made my disabilities worse. it’s a cruel cycle. (i made it sound really depressing, but honestly it’s chill. i’ve accepted it and i’m getting better physically and mentally)

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Posted 23 February 2021 - 07:14 AM

High dose of antipsychotics over 3 years. That shit is the devil I s2g

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Posted 23 February 2021 - 02:56 PM

first time, was because i spent too much with my dad (who was obese) and he'd always make huge food portions and buy me tons of snacks. second time was because i'd buy a shitton of junk bc i was super bored & stopped working out a lot

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Posted 23 February 2021 - 03:15 PM

Treatment and self-hatred
Now I'm officially overweight for the first time in my life

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Posted 23 February 2021 - 03:28 PM

My parents have always been overweight, and my siblings (I have 4 siblings) and I all grew up on the chubbier side. Even though I was one of the smallest of all my siblings, my parents only made comments to me and my older brother about our weights, but never made healthier food options for us. Everything my parents made was either fried, covered in cheese, or came from a box, so I guess I never really understood what "eating healthy" meant until I was able to live on my own. Even now, I'm struggling to lose the weight that I've gained because everyone in my life eats the same way that my family did growing up. 

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Posted 05 March 2021 - 09:42 AM

I've been fat my whole life, mostly due to my parents always feeding me garbage. We literally never had any healthy foods in the house, and my dad would actively encourage emotional eating. Add depression and weed munchies and you just end up with a mess of a human

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