I am once again relapsing into restriction. This is merely an entry for me to document my weight loss journey for March. I have lost 22 pounds from September 2020 to January 2021 but I have gained around 8 pounds from drinking like mad (I can drink a bottle of wine and a jug of Long Island and a few liquor shots in a sitting) and binge purging. My throat is starting to get raw again and I feel absolutely sluggish. The way I look doesn't bother me but my life is centred around my eating pattern. When I binge, my room is messy and I fall back on school work. When I restrict, I am on top of everything. My school work is impeccable and my room is clean.
My mom has lost her job since covid and since she's the breadwinner I feel an immense amount of pressure to renew my current scholarship (25%) to a full scholarship. My education literally depends on it. I NEED to start restricting again so I can start studying, do my assignments well and get that scholarship. My GPA last semester was 3.96 and I want to maintain that.
I have been snacking like mad since my grandma stopped staying with us. I used to hide in my room to avoid her but now I hangout in the living room all the time. There usually aren't many snacks but since Chinese New Year just passed we have a bunch of Chinese new year snacks. I have never been a snacker but the lack of sleep I've been getting recently is fucking up my appetite and hunger cues so badly.
1200 isn't an alarmingly low number but since my metabolism isn't as slow as it used to be 7 years ago, I might as well just up my calories. I am planning to eat under 1200 until April. If I eat over 1200 I'm going to have to exercise the excess calories off. I will try to start sleeping more and repair my sleep schedule as well, I find that lack of sleep REALLY makes me eat mindlessly. In addition to that, I will also be drinking coffee/ taking caffeine pills 3/4 times a week. Hopefully I will be able to lose 8-10 pounds. I will be posting my stats everyday in this thread.
I will post my SW and all tomorrow as it is the middle of the night currently and I drank like 2 gallons of water while watching princess and the pauper lol.