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What is your weight stopping you from doing?


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#1 desparadoisme

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Posted 29 March 2021 - 05:33 PM

I'll start this off. List is not in order.
- cutting my hair
- looking people in the eye
- upright posture
- buying a cottagecore style dress
- getting a girlfriend
- running in a field with said girlfriend in cottagecore dress.
- speaking louder.
- taking full body photos
- actually smiling genuinely without worrying about my fat cheeks.
- going out with friends
- learning how to box
- using other gym equipment besides the running machine.
- supporting my sibling in developing healthy eating habits
- loving thy self
- keeping my pillow dry
- unfollowing proana accounts on various platforms
- wearing pants that actually fit instead of getting 1 size smaller to trick fam about my weight gain
- never again wearing jackets

Thats it so far. Interested in hearing others take on this ^_^
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#2 rottengrrl

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Posted 29 March 2021 - 05:37 PM

because im skinny:

 

not being warm

not being able to do track

 

because im too big in my own eyes:

 

wearing crop tops

wearing low waisted jeans

wearing shorts

wearing mini skirts and posting pictures of me in them

posting more than face pics to my public

making tik toks with my body in them

 


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Posted 29 March 2021 - 06:18 PM

i don't think this is exactly what you're asking but eh

i couldn't go on a backpacking trip that i was looking forward to bc of my weight/ED in general. they said it wouldn't be safe for me :/


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Posted 29 March 2021 - 08:01 PM

-Wearing clothes without a jacket to hide my chest
-Breathing properly because of the binder I use because the fat on my chest won't go away and my dysphoria is just unbearable
-Wearing jeans because of my hips
-Also the fat cheeks thing, can't smile -_-
-I can't with people touching me, it's like I can feel their fingers getting into the fat
-Running or jumping or dancing or anything that makes my fat jiggle
-I just don't take pictures
-Being hugged
-I hate going to the doctor, they're checking my heartbeat and I'm almost crying
-Basically I can't live peacefully :) it sucks!
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Posted 29 March 2021 - 08:09 PM

-Also the fat cheeks thing, can't smile -_-


This !!
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Posted 30 March 2021 - 08:48 AM

Wearing actual shorts not capris. My friends all think its cause I get cold or just don't get hot but I'm actually dying, its that I can't stand to have people look at my thighs. Same for swimming... bathing suits  :wacko:  Spend all my time in the water so no one can actually see my legs.

Crop tops. Always wanted to be able to wear a crop top w/out being selfconscious. Maybe this summer... still got time, right?

I'd love to be able to eat with my friends, or say yes when someone offers me a cookie/piece of candy, but holy crap does that make me nervous. So hard to stop.


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#7 nonyabusnass

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Posted 30 March 2021 - 01:36 PM

-donating blood because I'm under their weight requirements (I still do it anyways because I want snacks)
-wearing shorts, because my weight loss has made this gross ass giant vein thing on my thigh even more prominent, and it's super ugly
-wearing form fitting clothes because people, especially family (ie parents and husband), comment on my body
-wearing tank tops because I hate my arms
-posting or taking photos with my face in them because the weightloss has made it look even worse

Ugh. There's so many points that I could write a goddamn novel.

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Posted 30 March 2021 - 07:13 PM



-donating blood because I'm under their weight requirements (I still do it anyways because I want snacks)

How hilariously relatable !


Ugh. There's so many points that I could write a goddamn novel.

...and this is just 100% true. The list is ever-expanding (like me)
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Posted 30 March 2021 - 10:47 PM

eating at maintenance haha. no but for real i feel like i'm still bingeing if i eat at maintenance right now, or like i'm going to trigger a binge. i just can't do it. it's too much food. i want my maintenance cals to be lower. 


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Posted 31 March 2021 - 03:12 AM

Buying clothes I really want

Making cosplays

Wearing crop tops/revealing outfits

Getting new headshots

Eating a normal amount of food without feeling guilty

Pre-covid: auditioning for certain roles

Learning to make macarons

Taking up swimming

Buying new corsets


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Posted 31 March 2021 - 03:01 PM

How hilariously relatable !


...and this is just 100% true. The list is ever-expanding (like me)

Lol. My blood goes to saving lives, and it's well worth it. I just have to be careful when I stand up, which is fine, because they never let me stand up right away. Also, I get my pick of two snacks and a drink, and I get to chill for another five minutes chatting with other donors.

With the advent of covid, we can't eat together like we used to, but we all catch up in the parking lot and eat oreos.

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Posted 31 March 2021 - 03:33 PM

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Posted 31 March 2021 - 03:53 PM

I'll start this off. List is not in order.
- cutting my hair
- looking people in the eye
- upright posture
- buying a cottagecore style dress
- getting a girlfriend
- running in a field with said girlfriend in cottagecore dress.
- speaking louder.
- taking full body photos
- actually smiling genuinely without worrying about my fat cheeks.
- going out with friends
- learning how to box
- using other gym equipment besides the running machine.
- supporting my sibling in developing healthy eating habits
- loving thy self
- keeping my pillow dry
- unfollowing proana accounts on various platforms
- wearing pants that actually fit instead of getting 1 size smaller to trick fam about my weight gain
- never again wearing jackets

Thats it so far. Interested in hearing others take on this ^_^

Wait why is your pillow wet

#14 Burneraccount2004

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Posted 31 March 2021 - 03:55 PM

-wearing 90% of my old clothes
-being confident
-being someone at peace with myself
-having good hygiene(i hate looking at my naked body in the shower)
-being social (haven’t done anything social in like three years)
-going back to physical school (after covid)
-meeting my online bf but that’s only if my nose job works out too lol
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Posted 31 March 2021 - 04:01 PM

Wait why is your pillow wet


Not op but maybe crying into the pillow?


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#16 desparadoisme

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Posted 31 March 2021 - 04:06 PM

Yep, crying into the pillow 😂

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Posted 31 March 2021 - 04:07 PM

Going inpatient lol. I'm one of those dumb bitches who's like "I'll recover once I'm sick enough" even tho my ED already runs my life


Quarantine relapse got me good lmao

 

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#18 ~ambivalence~

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Posted 31 March 2021 - 04:11 PM

Nothing.

 

My weight doesn’t stop me. My disorder does.

 

I am at a perfectly healthy weight, and anything I want to do, I could do at my current size. I tell myself there are things I can’t do because of my weight, and that I’ll eventually be able to do them as a “reward,” but in the meantime I continue to punish myself by withholding enjoyable things because I am not thin enough yet.

 

I am self aware enough to perceive the ridiculousness of it all, but I still find myself unable to do anything about it.


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Height: 5’1”     Highest Weight: 170.4     Highest BMI: 32.2     Current Weight: 95.6 (7-17-21)     Current BMI18.1

 

I don’t know what my goals are. I just know that I need to quit bingeing and purging, and extreme restriction. I need to find something else to make my life fulfilling.

 

The last time I purged: July 28, 2021 (longest success: 48 successful days without)

 

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Posted 31 March 2021 - 04:15 PM

Because I’m fat , My weight stops me from -

Meeting up with friends ( I refuse to be seen until I’m back at my LW.
Buying new clothes
Taking photos
Wearing a full face of make up . (Why put makeup on a pig right ?) 😭
Going to the beach or any situation where someone might see my body
It stops me enjoying my life freely .
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Posted 01 April 2021 - 09:13 AM

-wearing certain pants
-shopping for trends i want bc i know i will size out of what expensive thing i will buy
-enjoying food to the fullest without thinking about calories....lolll...
-being nice to ppl i love smtimes bc im hungry. like?? i am working on it rlly hard

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