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#181 almostthinlizzy

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Posted 28 April 2021 - 12:26 AM

Ohhh Branlew, I feel you. I'll send all the positive energy I can. I too could write a book.... oh wait I am already. Good luck.

 

Shannie, I'm so sorry for your loss. May her memory be for a blessing. My father passed away a month ago so ya; it's a process.

 

Welcome Purrex! I love my time here; I hope you do too


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#182 Thaisa

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Posted 28 April 2021 - 07:00 AM

120.5 this morning. Stable is okay, I just can't gain lol. 

 

I decided yesterday that I might try and do high fat for a month. The reason is that I have a number of fats in my pantry that need to get used up (vats of coconut oil, ghee, MCT oil, etc.) I used to eat this way and it worked for weight loss if I didn't go buck wild with portions. 

 

I started yesterday by eating pb mixed with mct oil and a bit of protein powder. I ate this at noon and felt full the rest of the day. (Still went out to Thai food, bc family in town). 

 

I'm not trying to do keto, just thinking I will replace some meals here and there with fat bombs. 

 

@branlew, wow that sounds really awful. ((Hugs)) to you. 


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#183 viofem

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Posted 28 April 2021 - 07:38 AM

I have lost 2.5 pounds this month. so frustrating.  125.6.  I wanted to be 124.  I feel like I should have my BMR tested again now that I am in menopause but wanted to weight til i am at 95 bc it will be lower then.  Patience, patience.


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SW 155

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LW 95

UGW 95

maybe 88 I have to see when I get there


#184 almostthinlizzy

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Posted 28 April 2021 - 10:49 AM

Not weighing these last few days is infuriating. I keep looking through the bathroom in the hotel thinking there should be a scale. It's a 200 cal day so I'm hopeful for tomorrow when I'm home but terrified at the same time. I brought miralax with me and took it last night. Husband went to his appointments this morning and I'll join him later this afternoon so I knew I was safe. (Yesterday was the big 600-800 cal day)

 

On the upside, husband took me to Michael Kors to pick out mother's day present and he chose a pair of leggings and the medium size was too big! We bought the smalls even though I felt like a sausage but he said they looked great on me and this is a man who tells it like it is. Plus he'd never let me embarrass him wearing something that made HIM look bad. 

 

@thaisa, keep us in the loop if the fat bombs work for you. And of course be safe.

@Viofem this is the roller coaster ride that is menopause. It's so frustrating but keep at it, you can get through it.


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Strength is what I've gained from the madness I've survived.

La conviction, me delivrer du mal.

 

 

 

 

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HW     188

LW      110 I think (25 years ago)

CW     144143 142  141 140 139 138 137 136 133

GW 1  130

GW 2  120

GW 3  110

UGW   100


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Posted 28 April 2021 - 03:04 PM

One pound down this morning, weighed 120 lbs (8 stone 8 lbs).  Seems that I am maintaining between 120-121 lbs which I'm happy with.  Had a couple of days where I haven't logged my intake, but I only do this if it's a heavy exercise day.  I feel that I'm starting to learn what I can/can't eat in order to maintain.  I'm only really allowing myself some treats on days where I'm burning at least 500 calories through exercise.

 

I've un-linked my Garmin watch from my MFP account, just so that I am not tempted to eat back any of my exercise calories, as I'd rather not see them included in my daily total.  Food-wise today I have gone over by 31 calories, but overall have a large deficit of 1,000 calories as I went for a mountain/trail run and did an isometric/TRX workout this evening.

 

It still doesn't make much sense to me though....how I'm able to lose/maintain whilst increasing calories?? I guess for me that maybe restricting too much messes with my system/metabolism and isn't doing me any good. My digestive system really slows down when restricting and I think it makes me a lot more bloated.  Yet, by increasing my calories to 1,678 a day I no longer feel hungry and I have more energy.  Whatever is going on, I'm hoping that it stays this way.


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#186 Thaisa

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Posted 28 April 2021 - 06:28 PM

@Sweetdaisy, this makes sense to me. I think restriction does lower the metabolic rate. It's an ugly reality, because obviously it makes it hard to lose weight. I think most of us want to lose while eating as much as possible, so I would say you have hit a sweet spot!


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Goal: nutritious eating without purging + to get back to my lean weight of 115 lbs

 


#187 branlew

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Posted 28 April 2021 - 06:54 PM

Well my parents have come and gone.

 

Positive:

*Did not bring any unprovoked food at all, not even snacks. This has been a sore spot and I had a meltdown last time so she must have finally gotten the hint.

*Did get..some items

 

Negative:

*First thing my mother said while getting out of the car was "Oh I forgot all the bags of clothes"

 

So essentially she neglected to bring over 50% of the agreed upon possessions. Like I insisted on seeing photos of the stuff she was bringing before agreeing to this and she sent them but then "forgot" to bring half the items in the pictures.

 

Look I have been trying to get this stuff for over 5 years. I want the stuff, I want it gone, I want to sell everything I own down to the last plate so that I can get skin surgery so I can kind of have a brief few years on this earth with an actual human body and then get to travel a bit for maybe 2 years or so and tour with my favorite band and then kill myself. Like that is the fucking plan and I can't get this moving because she is has her foot on that money. I'm to the point where I'm googling "illegals ways to pay for surgery". Like God Damn! Just bring me my own personal possessions to sell you fucking evil baby boomer whore, I hate you so much!

 

RAGE SHRIEK!!!!!!!!


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Posted 28 April 2021 - 07:01 PM

I feel like destination surgery is the way to go. Medical tourism. Like how you can get primo dental work in mexico

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Posted 28 April 2021 - 07:17 PM

I feel like destination surgery is the way to go. Medical tourism. Like how you can get primo dental work in mexico

 

This kind of thing just seems so daunting. Like how to find a place that is good, how to get to the place from the airport. I would be alone in a foreign country that I wouldn't speak the language and then after surgery I'd be "wounded" essentially and what if someone just wanted to rob me blind and dump me in an alley? Worrying.


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#190 Thaisa

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Posted 28 April 2021 - 07:17 PM

Or try to finance it. Do you have any access to credit? 

 

On the possessions side: can you go over to their house and just get all your stuff in one fell swoop? Maybe rent a cargo van if you need to and bring moving boxes? 

 

I'm glad that you survived and that at least things were okay on the food front. 


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Goal: nutritious eating without purging + to get back to my lean weight of 115 lbs

 


#191 branlew

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Posted 28 April 2021 - 07:26 PM

Or try to finance it. Do you have any access to credit? 

 

On the possessions side: can you go over to their house and just get all your stuff in one fell swoop? Maybe rent a cargo van if you need to and bring moving boxes? 

 

I'm glad that you survived and that at least things were okay on the food front. 

 

I'm a minimum wage worker, I can't imagine any bank foolishly giving me a loan. I suppose I could try and rent a car to go get the things but man, I haven't driven in years but I could probably anxiety-cry my way through it.


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#192 Thaisa

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Posted 28 April 2021 - 09:00 PM

I'm a minimum wage worker, I can't imagine any bank foolishly giving me a loan. I suppose I could try and rent a car to go get the things but man, I haven't driven in years but I could probably anxiety-cry my way through it.

I feel you. I am a server so I get it. I hope you do something relaxing to feel better after your difficult day. 


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Goal: nutritious eating without purging + to get back to my lean weight of 115 lbs

 


#193 thinstrument

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Posted 28 April 2021 - 09:27 PM

Taskrabbit or Uber?

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Posted 29 April 2021 - 08:44 AM

Still 99 so I guess I got maintenance going for me
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Posted 29 April 2021 - 10:11 AM

Still 99 so I guess I got maintenance going for me

That's awesome! Whenever I am semi happy with my weight it seems to be ruined by dread that I will gain. I wish we could savor things more when all is working well. 


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Current weight: 123-126

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Goal: nutritious eating without purging + to get back to my lean weight of 115 lbs

 


#196 thinstrument

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Posted 29 April 2021 - 10:26 AM

Honestly I love being at this weight. The hubs is not here for it though
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Posted 29 April 2021 - 11:34 AM

Lost a pound while I was away so I'm keeping the 2468 going. Shocking considering I wasn't moving nearly as much as I normally do and I was forced to eat out, one of my most terrifying things. I'll be working the next 4 days so I'm hopeful to have a significant  loss before I go to pick up my daughter. I want her to be proud of me. I know she'll say something even though hubby doesn't.


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Strength is what I've gained from the madness I've survived.

La conviction, me delivrer du mal.

 

 

 

 

5'2"

HW     188

LW      110 I think (25 years ago)

CW     144143 142  141 140 139 138 137 136 133

GW 1  130

GW 2  120

GW 3  110

UGW   100


#198 almostthinlizzy

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Posted 30 April 2021 - 11:41 AM

Trigger for the day: Hubs saying I should work out with his peloton person "She's a killer" look psycho, I don't want to get on that stupid bike like I've told you for the 90000th time.

 

Down another pound this morning so fuck off.


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Strength is what I've gained from the madness I've survived.

La conviction, me delivrer du mal.

 

 

 

 

5'2"

HW     188

LW      110 I think (25 years ago)

CW     144143 142  141 140 139 138 137 136 133

GW 1  130

GW 2  120

GW 3  110

UGW   100


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Posted 03 May 2021 - 01:29 AM

It's the end of April and I lost the 10 lbs I said I was going to lose for the month.  I back tracked a little bit (ok, a lot a bit), because my semester of nursing school was coming to a close and I started eating more and more.  But, I still managed to lose the 10, thank goodness because I would have been a total wreck right now!

On to May to lose another 10 lbs.


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Height : 5'6"

HW: 242

LW: 147

Start W: 199.1 (3/31/21)                                                  MFP: LCarapia79

CW: 189.2 (WTF) :(                                                             Fitbit: Lynda R.

UGW: 130

 

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199 - 198 - 197 - 196 - 195 - 194 - 193 - 192 - 191 - 190     1st GW: 189 lbs (by end of April)  Crushed it

189 - 188 - 187 - 186 - 185 - 184 - 183 - 182 - 181 - 180    2st GW: 179 lbs (by end of May)

179 - 178 - 177 - 176 - 175 - 174 - 173 - 172 - 171 - 170     3rd GW: 169 lbs (by end of June)

169 - 168 - 167 - 166 - 165 - 164 - 163 - 160 - 161 - 160     4th GW: 159 lbs (by end of July)

159 - 158 - 157 - 156 - 155 - 154 - 153 - 152 - 151 - 150     5th GW: 149 lbs (by end of August)

149 - 148 - 147 - 146 - 145 - 144 - 143 - 142 - 141 - 140     6th GW: 145 lbs (by mid- September)

139 - 138 - 137 - 136 - 135 - 134 - 133 - 132 - 131 - 130     7th GW: 139 lbs (by end of September) 

129 ...............................................................                      8th UGW: 129 lbs (by end of October)                                       

 

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