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My Accountability - Starting at 110kg/243lbs


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#1 Leli

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Posted 06 April 2021 - 10:05 AM

Binged a lot lately and now i'm basically at my highest weight again. I am really ashamed as to how bad my body looks right now so i just have to lose weight right now.

 

I'm planning to consume no more than 800kcal and do 10000 steps per day.

 

I'm planning to update daily.

 

Wish me luck :)

 

Stats:

  • Height: 163 cm / 5'4
  • HW: 112kg / 247lbs
  • SW: 110,6 kg / 241lbs (06.04.21)
  • CW: 109,6 kg / 243lbs (08.04.21)
  • LW: 72 kg / 158lbs ~ i miss 2017

Goals: My big goal right now is 75kg. According to losertown i can achieve this by mid august.

  • GW1: 99,9 kg / 220lbs ~ Under 100!
  • GW2: 95 kg / 209lbs
  • GW3: 90 kg / 198lbs
  • GW4: 85 kg / 187lbs
  • GW5: 80 kg / 176lbs ~ 1 kg away from not being obese anymore
  • GW6: 75 kg / 165lbs ~ Back to the weight before that toxic relationship
  • GW7: 70 kg / 154lbs
  • GW8: 65 kg / 143lbs ~ normal weight!
  • GW9: 60 kg / 132lbs
  • GW10: 55 kg / 121lbs
  • GW11: 50 kg / 110lbs
  • UGW: 48 kg / 105lbs ~ underweight *-*

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#2 Leli

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Posted 06 April 2021 - 10:20 AM

Day 1:

 

Weight: 110,6 kg / 243lbs

 

1 banana ~139 kcal

1 nectarine ~ 70 kcal

1 mochi ice cream ~ 88 kcal

 

surimi plate with mayo ~ 372,67 kcal

 

vanilla coke ~ 3,75 kcal

carrots ~ 78 kcal

 

-> total ~ 751,42

 

Edit: did my 10000 steps



#3 Leli

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Posted 07 April 2021 - 08:04 PM

Day 2:

 

Honestly, i didn't even want to write this but i kinda have to, i guess...

 

So i weighed in at 109,3 kg / 241lbs which was great but then i binged and binged and binged. I don'T even want to know how much i consumed. The trigger? I can think of two things: 1) i have an exam soon, which is always triggering for me and 2) i was making a tabouleh inspired salad which fit perfectly with my calorie goal but i put in too much olive oil. I wanted to cut the portion in half to make it fit but i somehow can't deal with leftovers and it just triggers me. So when i finished one half, i ate the other. Then came chocolate. Oreos. fried tomatoes with rice cakes. ice cream. I'm so mad. My exam is the day after tomorrow so hopefully after that i can calm down and stick to my calorie goal.

 

Oh, and of course i didn't do my steps. Such a failure



#4 Leli

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Posted 08 April 2021 - 04:35 PM

Day 3:

 

Weight: 109,6 kg / 241,7 lbs

 

I can't believe i only gained 0,3 kg. I thought it was gonna be much more. Anyways, exam anxiety. I couldn't stick to my 800 kcal goal today...

 

Sushi ~ 643,95

 

Ham + egg + Avocado baguette ~ 942,5  // I can't belive i used to eat these a lot without looking at the calories. I feel disgusting now...

 

hot chocolate ~ 383,25

 

cabanossi ~ 917,5

 

Babybel ~ 531

 

Oreos ~439,2

 

Total: 3857,4

 

Soooo..... that'S a bad day. But it's actually very reflective of how i eat when i don't pay attention to calories and am stressed without binging.... No wonder i'm so fat right now. Well, at least i have my exam tomorrow, so stress will go away. And i'm thinking about changing the plan:

 

Years ago i lost 5 kg / 11 lbs in 5 days (77kg --> 72kg). I ate roughly 1000-1200 calories per day and just ran up and down in my room for hours. The only reason i stopped was because i hit a plateau? However, i didn't gain back any weigth after, so i really did lose fat. And i'm thinking about doing something similar again. And i do have a little bit over a week before my classes start again and i have nothing else to do, so i could do it.

Now, i find running very boring, so i might replace it with dancing. Like 5 hours minimum of dancing and for calories somewhere below 1200. And i hope that this will get me out of the 100s before the 19th. That would be 9-10 kg / 19,8-22 lbs in 10 days. I would like to make a clear calculation about the calories here but different sites give me different calories burnt for dancing... Well, we will see. I'm hopeful at least  :D



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Posted 11 April 2021 - 05:42 AM

Hey!! Your doing well:)) I’m also high weight and I need to lose fast:(( if you want to support each other, PM me~~
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Posted 11 April 2021 - 05:54 AM

Day 2:
 
Honestly, i didn't even want to write this but i kinda have to, i guess...
 
So i weighed in at 109,3 kg / 241lbs which was great but then i binged and binged and binged. I don'T even want to know how much i consumed. The trigger? I can think of two things: 1) i have an exam soon, which is always triggering for me and 2) i was making a tabouleh inspired salad which fit perfectly with my calorie goal but i put in too much olive oil. I wanted to cut the portion in half to make it fit but i somehow can't deal with leftovers and it just triggers me. So when i finished one half, i ate the other. Then came chocolate. Oreos. fried tomatoes with rice cakes. ice cream. I'm so mad. My exam is the day after tomorrow so hopefully after that i can calm down and stick to my calorie goal.
 
Oh, and of course i didn't do my steps. Such a failure


Honey, dont do it.
Dont be all or nothing, okay?
Look.
THROW THE LEFTOVERS AWAY.
DO IT.
I know u shouldnt waste food but tbh you eating it wont make starving kids in Africa full.
Do workout (your steps) even if u binged.
Sure it wont burn 2000+ cals but at least it will make you motivated:
„I didnt restrict but I was strong enough to move my butt”.
Wish you all the best.
*hug*
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i'm an offensive fruit

 

 

 

 


#7 Leli

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Posted 11 April 2021 - 05:29 PM

Honey, dont do it.
Dont be all or nothing, okay?
Look.
THROW THE LEFTOVERS AWAY.
DO IT.
I know u shouldnt waste food but tbh you eating it wont make starving kids in Africa full.
Do workout (your steps) even if u binged.
Sure it wont burn 2000+ cals but at least it will make you motivated:
„I didnt restrict but I was strong enough to move my butt”.
Wish you all the best.
*hug*

 

 

Thank you! I kinda want to learn not to get triggered by leftovers but i should also learn to be okay with throwing food away. And i should definitely get rid of that all or nothing attitude. It kinda ruins a lot in many aspects of my life. And i should regularly do a workout to  burn some calories and increase my fitness level....

 

 

Anyways, thanks for the comment. I was a bit hopeless but you gave me some motivation back, so thank you! :)


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#8 Leli

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Posted 11 April 2021 - 05:30 PM

Hey!! Your doing well:)) I’m also high weight and I need to lose fast:(( if you want to support each other, PM me~~

 

Thank you :) I'm bad at replying to PMs so not right now but maybe in the fututre :)



#9 Leli

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Posted 11 April 2021 - 09:29 PM

So the last few days i've been mostly relaxing. I'm a stressaholic so i really needed this.

I've been thinking about my weight loss plan and i want to start exercising again. One hour of dancing per day. I really like dancing and i want to do it (more).

Originally i also wanted to reach 75 kg / 165 lbs 'til my bday mid august. But even with the exercise i would have to restrict to 600 calories or so and i'm just not there yet. So instead i want to reach this goal by next winter semester, meaning early October. Apparently i can reach that with a 1200 calorie restriction :o

Also why these dates you might ask? Well, birtdays are special and if the lockdown is over by October (i have my doubts) i want to go to a badminton class which my crush, who i had for 4 years now, is teaching. Yes, i know this because i stalked him online. Yes, i know it's creepy. I'm working on it. Anyways, i want to get to know him better and impress him a little. Sadly, 75 kg is still overweight for me but since the lowest weight i had as an adult is 72 kg, i'll get a huge confidence boost by then. It's also gonna be a huge motivator.

Anyways, since i'm a bit lazy right now, I'm thinking about cycling through some mono diets. Or maybe make it duo. Something easy and not triggering. Next update will probably be in a week. See ya ;)

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Posted 12 April 2021 - 05:44 PM

Just a quick update: I ate like shit today BUT I finally did my first workout ! Yay! I only managed to do about 10-15 minutes which is okay if you consider that I'm at my highest weight and haven't done any workouts since September I probably  could have pushed for longer but I want it to be enjoyable not miserable. 

 

Also funny story: I wanted to do my workout  in the fitness room of my dorm because it was late and I didn't  want to annoy my neighbours. Turns out it's closed because of the lockdown. So I did it in the basement were the bikes are kept XD




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