HSGD/weight loss till collage
Posted 29 April 2021 - 12:20 PM
Weight: 187lbs/ 85.0kg
Binge- 1100 🤦🏼♀️🤦🏼♀️🤦🏼♀️🤦🏼♀️
I made some new rules for myself yesterday to prevent binges:
1- no bread
Allowed- rice cakes& crackers
2- no dairy products, no cheese, milk, cake or milkshake or pudding.
- allowed sour gummies, ONLY one chocolate peace and one ice cream bowl!
4- need to wait 4-6 hours till next meal
5- calorie limit 800-1000kcal
6- no more chips, crisps, biscuits, sweets, sugar, no more meat, ( i am not even vegetarian) no more dinner
-Only dinner on Sundays
- allowed dinner/ sweets on Friday or Saturdays
7- Exercise 4x a week
8- Follow meal plan
9- weigh myself at Saturdays
10- count calories, count every bite I chew (30 bites at least)
11- body shaming myself often
12- THINSPO ALWAYS THINSPO TO KEEP ME ON TRACK!
Posted 30 April 2021 - 04:22 PM
On day 12 I binged and i feel like I wanna purge, but I cant since I am surrounded by family plus the clock is 23:16 (well it wasn’t a binge but I took more than I planned)
and because of that my ED is making me frustrated —__— blehhh I hate that I gained weight and now I am stuck with this fat body and this binge disorder.
A side of me knows that once I am off too collage I am gonna lose drastically weight because I will be able to control WHEN I want to eat and if I have an unplanned binge I can just “get rid of it”. I hope I will get my own dorm and live alone.
But for now I am stuck with restrict and binge cycle:(
I miss the Restrict-fast- restrict(purge/exercise)- restrict cycle.
But that was 5 years ago and now is now.
I know i can't be in the past when I was at a lighter weight and more occupied with my anorexia and bulimia.
Gosh I make myself believe that people hate me because I am fat again and because I make myself rules I keep myself a failure.🤦🏼♀️ I think I wanna restart HSGD and start at day one.
Posted 30 April 2021 - 04:59 PM
Calorie limit 900
Exercise at 09:00
( i feel I need to burn these calories!)
(Snack if hungry: apple) 47kcal
Dinner: oatmeal 191kcal
Posted 01 May 2021 - 11:45 AM
Weight ( I will weigh myself next Saturday weighing myself everyday made me depressed and discouraged)
Calorie limit 600kcal
With jam with 200mm almond unsweetened milk 24kcal
(- a handfull crisps 51kcal
- 2 chocolate peaces 32kcal each)
Snack: orange 32kcal
Lunch: rice cakes with salami
Dinner: 1 (small) potato, carrots
Total- 24 kcal potatoes, 3 kcal for carrots
Dessert: 8kcal (per serving- the ultimate safe food) jello❤️
- another desert 125kcal ish
- one 1/2 bowl of crisps 148kcal
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