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#1 WaterGoddess



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Posted 26 April 2021 - 11:17 AM

I gained a slot of weight but I want to lose it again. My gw is lower than it’s ever been, but  the main reason I want to lose is to trigger my enemies. 
My lowest weight was 112 and I was dying for it. But I looked amazing and a guy friend “casually” mentioned that when I was at that weight, all of the other chicks in town lost weight too (I live in a huge city, so when he said town, he really meant our neighborhood/university/section of the community at large. Also he mentioned it because he was VERY glad to see my weight restored). 
One woman was about 10 years older than me and I triggered her hard. She ended up developing a massive coke problem to reach my size and lost her business. She never reached my size btw, but she did lose a ton of hair. Now, I’m not so cold to not feel for her. The entire reason I was so thin was because I was struggling too. Not with drugs or jealousy, but with self loathing.
But she was really, really mean to me. And I learned, from the same guy, she still blames me for losing her business. It definitely wasn’t my fault because I never worked for her, patronized her shop, nor hung out with her ever. We had one mutual who I didn’t even like.
Now, I’m still going to reach my gw. Nothing will stop me because I’ve relapsed fully. But is it wrong that I 100% intend to trigger her again? I mean I really want her jealous. 

SW: 170
UGW: 120
Every 5lbs is a goal reached.


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