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I got knocked down but I got up again... accountability


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#21 Choco_Bitch_612

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Posted 24 December 2021 - 03:02 PM

Well once again I thought I could be "normal" and eat "intuitively" (my therapist suggested) but nope I can't.
I haven't weighed but I know I've gained. Was going to weigh today but hadn't pooped so didn't.
I will weigh tomorrow.
I drank a shit ton of coffee and unfortunately I did have coffee creamer. Probably 120 calories worth. I'm depressed as hell so now I'm drinking two 100 calorie bud light seltzers with some hydroxizine.
I got on my old phone to try to save all my old photos and found my lowest weight photo. I could see my ribs. I should be sickened but no it makes me want that back. Soooo bad

I was reading your previous accountability thread, do you have some sort of health condition that causes you to put on weight even when you're not eating? is there a medication you could take for that? i hate to se you suffer <33


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#22 Idontwannabethick2

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Posted 01 January 2022 - 02:27 AM

I was reading your previous accountability thread, do you have some sort of health condition that causes you to put on weight even when you're not eating? is there a medication you could take for that? i hate to se you suffer <33


I feel like I do, however doctors don't take me seriously. They congratulated me after dropping 84 pounds. They didn't care how I did it. I do have gastroparesis but most that have it lose not gain. Of course my stupid body couldn't be like the "norm"
I take Linzess every day. I still only go number two every other day if I eat which makes zero sense. Why does all that food stay in me yet when I fast I have diarrhea and feel soooo much better? My body is broken and defeated. Now that it's a new year I'm even more determined to get this weight off that I've gained at any cost.

#23 Idontwannabethick2

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Posted 01 January 2022 - 02:32 AM

It's 2022 and I've been going through a divorce for almost two years now. My life is a mess. Somehow some of my old body check pictures ended up on my son's school computer so yeah that's humiliating and I guess I can't be posting that crap anymore.


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